Back To December (Sophie and Sian fan fic)

Chapter Two

Chapter two

I'm kind of really enjoying writing it. I promise it's going to get happier soon. I just needed to build up the story.

"Go on then" I encouraged her. I just wanted everything clear, Wanted to know every tiny detail. Everything. So I could get over and move on with my life.

"I don't know where to start" she said still looking down at her hands.

I sighed. "This is pointless then, Bye Sophie." I go to get up.

"No Sian wait!" She grabs my hand.

Sparks fly.

There is a rush inside of me, A rush that I've not felt in over a year. The touch I got every single time she touched me.

It made me want to throw up. I hate this. I need to get over her. She's like a drug; I need to get her out of my mind. I need to know everything. So I can get over her.

She'd saw the emotion in my face change when she touched me.

"Sorry" she mumbled "I'll tell you."

"Sophie. Please don't lie to me this time." I needed the truth. "I want to know absolutely everything that you felt and what happened. Just promise me that."

She looked up and looked me in the eyes.

Those beautiful blue eyes, the ones I've shared so many memories with.

"Sian I promise, I promise this is the truth." She started to tear up.

"Right, go on then" I said, trying not to get caught up with her emotion.

"Well, I came here, to tell you what happened with Amber." I winced at her name.

Although she's dead now, that name brings so much pain, so much agony to hear. I don't care that she's dead. I know that's horrible. But she murdered the only thing that ever meant anything to me, my love with Sophie.

"It started last October, when you were in holiday in France. I started to feel, I don't know, like you were drifting away from me. I fucking hated it. I was beyond pissed off. Everything with Jeff, was pissing me off. It was getting on top of me, and you weren't here to talk to you. I just, I felt like I did when I fell off the church. I needed something to take off my mind." She took a deep breathe.

I felt bad. I wasn't there for her when she needed me. This is hurting me so much, It might have been better not to hear it.

"Amber was there, when I needed her . We went out, on a night out. I got chatted up by this guy, trust me, he was a minger, he didn't get the picture that I didn't want him. I said he "wasn't my type". Amber saw this, and said I was just, happy, happy to be saved." She sighed.

"and that's when it started. That's when she kissed me."

I just feel like I've been stabbed, straight in the heart. Fuck.

"You want the truth Sian? It felt nice at the time, I got all excited like a child does, when they have their first kiss. At the time, it felt like fireworks, but that was probably the drink looking back. After that I started to gain a crush on her. I don't know, she was just, a bad-ass and I liked it. She wasn't different."

"Oh geez, thanks Sophie." I spat back.

"No Sian, listen." She grabbed my hand.

"GET OFF ME!" I shouted back. There goes that fucking spark again. "Don't you dare touch me again. Or I'll be gone." I spat again.

"Erm, Sorry." She moved her hands to her lap again and looked down. Continuing with the story.

"The next day, you came back from France, and I proposed. Looking back now I regret it."

That's when the tears started.

"Sian, listen. I just, I regret rushing into proposing to you. I regret not telling you the truth. I wish I'd of taken you somewhere romantic like Disneyland or something and proposed to you there. I wish I'd of waited. I could never regret asking you to marry me. I loved you Sian."

Loved. That's the key word there. She doesn't love me anymore.

She sighed and looked at me. "I still do love you."

What. She can't be for real, this is when I broke down. How dare she. How dare she tell me she's still in love with me.

"Don't you fucking Lie to me Sophie Webster. You know what. Fuck you. I was right. I fucking hate you. I want to get over you. First you lie about contacting me and now you come and tell me you're still fucking in love with me. Just leave Sophie. I hate you." I shouted.

I was so fucking angry.

"Sian please, just let me finish explaining. Please, I've not lied, I'm telling the truth. I love you. I never loved Amber, I was just fucking confused. She messed with my head."

"Yeah well Soph! Now you're messing with mine!"

Fuck, I called her Soph. I've not done that in over a year.

"Sian, let me finsh" She grabbed me again. Tighter this time.

"I told you. Get the fuck off me!" I tried to pull away.

I was only trying to pull away because I could still feel the electrically.

"No." She was stern. "Not until you let me tell you everything".

I fucking hated this.

"On the night of our hen do, Amber tried to kiss me. I fucking knew then that I never loved her. I never fucking loved her like I love you. You meant the world to me."

"Then why couldn't you say your vows" I questioned angrily.

She looked into my eyes.

"Sian, honestly. I don't know. Marrying you that day would have never been a mistake." She let go of my hand and looked into my eyes.

"Amber, was nothing to you. You were my best friend. The first person I've ever loved. She was just someone who fucked everything up. I hate her for doing that. Absolutely hate her."

I looked down. I don't think she's lying.

"and if you don't believe me about the texts, or the letters or the emails. Here."

She got out her phone and handed it to me.

"Read them. Please just read them. I've tried so hard to talk to you. To let you know everything that happened."

I looked down at her phone and started to read.

She wasn't lying. She'd tried, tried so hard to contact me. I'm just confused at why I didn't get the texts, or emails, or letters. Nothing. I didn't get anything.

I look up at her.

She's crying.

"Sian, I'm so sorry, I'm sorry for everything. You never deserved it, any of it. I'm not going to have the cheek to ask you to take me back. You can honestly do better. I just wanted to come here and let you know. That I'm so so sorry. I'll never love anyone as much as I loved you. You mean the world to me. I hope that one day, you'll find someone. Who'll treat you like a princess. You deserve it. "

She took her phone back and looked down. "Sian. I guess I'm not going to get the chance to say this again."

She looks back up at me, our blue eyes locked again. She was crying, crying hard. So was I.

"I love you Sian Powers. I always have and I always will."

I couldn't take the heartbreak anymore. Our cries got harder. I sat back down on to the bench and cried as she walked away.