Author was bored and wanted to talk

Into the shit pt 2/??

CONTENT WARNING: MILD TALK OF FIGHTING

Then you have the trauma paired with and anxiety and paranoia. I'll fight anyone and I don't fight to win, I fight to survive. Which in normal environments it's fine but in mine that's not good, thankfully I know not to hit first and I know how to defuse hostile situations.
Though there was one time where I lost it. I was at home and a parental figure wanted to have power trip after a friend stayed over. I slammed freshly cooked noodles in their face then after sharing a few blows the other guardian stepped in.
Though I don't think that was their first fight with their child because I have an older sibling they were much worse to.
There was one other time where I came close to harming a friend but we both where getting out of hand in the argument and thankfully a 3rd party was there to help defuse the situation and get me to sit back down.
(Thankfully me and my friend made up the next morning)
I'll never say I regret things I do, but I'm obviously not proud.

(Hi I'm fully aware that that most of these will be posted the same day I've got a lot of crap I need to get off my mind)