hope you had a good birthday...
usually used to celebrate so hard this day
tears falling down instead
i am so tired...
the only reason i got through today was through everyone's support and constant distractions
class
advisory meeting
therapy
my roommate (bless her for literally being such a positive influence in my life) stopping me from drinking
my precious favorite person spending time with me to make today easier
i needed all of that
everything has been so rough and i'm tired of it...
soon it will be six months since everything
four months since ...break
i deserve so
much
better
than you.
i'm going to get it
you don't rule my life anymore...
even so
i hope you had a good birthday
i hope you have a good life
i hope maybe some day you'll realize that what you did was wrong
i want the best for you despite everything
isn't that so crazy that you can be hurt by someone so much and still think that...
you've hurt me you've hurt my favorite person but i still...
...
it's so tiring, this feeling
can't i just hate you
it would be so much easier to just hate you
but i don't...
