********JACKILYNNS P.O.V**********
I was yelling at Harry when I started feeling light headed. My stomach hurt from starving myself. I deserved the pain. Suddenly everything was turning black and I couldn't breathe .This is most likely the end. Then I saw my lifeless body laying there . I saw Harry trying to take the steering wheel but my car had already flipped and I had shards of glass stuck into my arm and my back. Harry managed to crawl out of the car and started phoning for help. I hoped they couldn't wake me up. I didn't deserve to live no one would care if I died Niall wouldn't , Louis wouldn't none of them would. I wasn't worth their time all I was: a suicidal freak, Worthless piece of shit. I spoke and I was freaked because Harry could hear me but my mouth didnt move.
" I deserve this. Im just a piece of shit and no one loves me or has ever loved me"
Harry rose his head and spoke " You don't deserve this Jackilynn. Your not a piece of shit I know you've had a rough past but I love you Jacky , Liam loves you ,Zayn loves you, Louis loves you , Niall loves you. We all love you" He spoke holding back tears then he pulled out his phone dialed for the police.
He explained to them that the car had flipped and crashed then told them I was crushed in the car and I was unconscious then told them he had managed to get out.
*********************HARRY'S P.O.V*******************
I had heard Jackilynn speak but her lips didn't move. I just admitted to her that I love her as well as all the boys do.
After I finished speaking to the police I called the Liam and told him what happened all apart from hearing her speak.
The police arrived after I got off the phone with Liam. They put Jacky on a stretcher and the boys came a few minutes later and drove me to the hospital and I could tell Jacky was still there because she whispered something in my ear
" Harry what you said earlier I know you love me and I don't see you as boyfriend material I love you but like a big brother I never had I just wanted to tell you that I have too much pain to put up with my past keeps bringing me down so just letting you know this will be the last thing you hear from me i'm going for good Harry goodbye"
My eyes began flooding with tears and then spoke to her " Jacky you cant give up! I love you and need you! I don't care if you dont see me as boyfriend material it makes me happy to hear that some part of you loves me. You shouldnt let your past bother you it makes you stronger and if you want to go then fine! But me and the lads wont be happy at all with you gone. " Tears were streaming down from my face and I couldn't stop them .
****************JACKY'S GHOST LIKE THINGY P.O.V************************
It pained me to see Harry cry. He was honestly like my older brother and I felt bad about giving up but i just couldn't see me getting any better. I moved on to Louis.
i whispered into his ear " Louis I abso-fucking- loutely love you . I fell in love with you the day we met from your gorgeous eyes beautiful and childish personality i'm not sure if you love me as well which I hope you do. I just thought I would tell you that i'm leaving. Going to heaven or hell which ever I belong in so goodbye Lou I love you." and I placed a quick kiss on his cheek. He didn't respond he just held back tears.
Next I spoke to Zayn " Zayn Zayn Zayn there was so much left to tell you but here is the gist. you were like my best friend and you absoloutely love your hair products and mirrors but I just wanted to tell you that I had the best times hanging out with you but tonight im giving up on life. I didn't deserve all the attention you guys were giving me and I was just holding you guys back. I'll be watching over you and keep you and the lads safe. Good bye Zayn the vain." I let out a little giggle and then I got a weak smile from zayn and he didnt say aloud he spoke through his mind and told me
" Thanks for being my friend. I wish I could've seen the pain you were in I could've helped you so much the pain seemed invisible by the way you held your head high and smiled so perfectly. You shouldnt give up Jacky. Your an amazing girl and didn't deserve the pain . Thanks for being our look out but if you change your mind on giving up let me know before its too late," His eyes were turning red from his tears.
" Now Liam I have much to say but only a short time to say it. You were an absoloute sweet heart and at first you seemed tough looking but your an absoloute softy! you and danielle are adorable together and You should propose to her she would enjoy it. but im gone like the wind i dont want you to sulk around about me giving up stay happy."
" Thank you Jacky and I will take that thought into consideration. But please dont leave me and the guys. We need you we love your smile and everything about you. I cant be happy when some one I love just ripped out piece of my heart sure I have Dani but I need you and can't live without you. You light up a room with your personality and smile please don't go love. " He screamed through the tears.
" Liam I have to go I cannot stand the pain of my past coming up and tearing me down. You don't need me you survived long enough without me and can survive with out me again. Your better off with Dani I would hold you back and wouldn't give you the love you deserve or the happiness you need."
I couldn't bare say any thing to Niall but " You dont care enough to say anything to me its okay I love you but I see as though you dont love me enough to tell me anything at all and dont give me the I'm giving up shit Jacky your too strong to give up and if you fucking die Jacky I will commit suicide just to be with you I was about to give up when you came along with me and taught me that I was wanted and loved you were my first love and still are. "
" Niall i couldn't bare to see you like this and I love you too Niall you taught me the same things and I began to absoloutly love you in 5th grade, And im not strong enough niall i've been turning to self harm and all the other lads and you said you needed me but you guys dont. Niall there is no need for you to commit suicide you have a very bright future and millions of girls across the world love you. Tell Liam that if he wants some one like me and doesnt go on with Dani he can try Tabbitha she loves him and she is just like me. And would treat him better. Good bye Ni."
and with that I returned to my body and let the darkness take me over and hoped it would stay as the darkness I knew and began to love.
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Breathe (a 1D fanfiction)
FanficJackilynn comes from and abusive family.In her time of need she turns to her best friend who along the years she has fallen for.While she's head over heels in love with him .Some one else is in love with her.Or maybe 4 more lads are in Love with her.
