Breathe (a 1D fanfiction)

Chapter 18. Down hill again.

*Jacky's p.o.v *

I heard Harry follow me and just held him. Niall was slipping away just like everything else I loved had..

I looked over and grabbed some whiskey from tabbys mini fridge and went and got into a bath.

I drank the entire bottle while in the bath and cried. I was drunk and I knew it.I stumbled out of the bathtub and put on my bra and underwear And Harry's shirt he was wearing earlier.

I climbed into bed and layed there for a bit. After about 10 minutes Harry came in and i heard him strip down to his boxers and lay down next to me and he pulled me closer kissing my neck and saying goodnight. He pulled me closer untill his chest was on my back. .

I liked it. Niall wasn't one to cuddle when we went to sleep but I still felt safe. And I feel safe here too.

30 MINUTES PASS

I still wasn't asleep. I moved the covers and my movements woke Harry. I got up and stumbled out of bed into the kitchen.

I got a glass of water and sat on the counter. Harry stood between my legs and placed his hands on my thighs rubbing them trying to calm me.

I pulled him into a hug and he placed his hands on the small of my back.

He felt like my older brother even though I'm older than him.I burried my face in his shoulder and we sat there for 15 minutes which felt like hours. Just hugging. I needed that .

I must've fallen asleep because next thing I remember is Harry carrying me to bed and pulling off my t-shirt because it was covered in sweat.

He layed me to where I was facing him and i pulled him close and I made sure there wasn't and inch between us.I needed some comfort and I never thought that I ever would run to harry for it. I shook him gently

"Harry are you awake?"

He nodded his head then opened his eyes.

"I..I dont know what to do.all 5 of you like me and I know im hurting the other 4 of you guys by dating Niall. And I just want to know if i should run away from it or stay with him"

His voice was deep and was still sleepy

He rubbed my back trying to calm me.

"You finally have a family one who really loves you and you just got back do you really wanna risk losing 7 people who love you and all of your flaws?"

"I dont want to lose any of you. I finally have people who i care about and people who care about me."

" im gonna head home. You want to come with?" I said stepping out of bed not bothering to put pants on and slid on some flip flips on.

Harry pulled on his pants while i found a pair of glasses to see with and i tossed him his car keys. We walked out the door to the range rover and Then made our way home . We pulled up in the complex and i sighed. Harry dropped me off by the stairs and then went to park.

(((((((WARNING WHATS COMING UP IS RATED R.I REPEAT RATED R)))))

I ran up the stairs and opened the door walking into mine and Nialls room. He was still awake . I ran up to him and just kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and placed me under neath him on the bed as he kissed me with more passion .

I pulled off the shirt i was wearing as well as my bra and he stripped down to his boxers placing kisses down my neck to my bare chest before he began pulling at my underwear as I pulled at his. They slid off easily .

Our lips reconnected and moved in sync . Gently Niall pushed him self inside me. Once he knew that he wasn't hurting me he began thrusting faster . I let a moan escape my lips and i heard Niall growling in his throat.

"I havent felt this way since we were 15 " he said . His pace got slower as he pulled out slowly . He lifted my hips up and held my ass in his hands then flicked his tounge across my clit causing me to squirm.

He got the reaction he wanted then his tounge inside my moist pussy then his movement with his tounge became rapidly quicker he continued this for about 5 minutes then I moved down to him grabbing his hips pulling them close to my face my tounge ran across his head then I moved my hands in a back and forth motion on his shaft causing hime to swell. I took him in and continued to pump with my hand as I sucked as well. He became impatient.

He roughly pushed me back on the bed and then shoved his entire length into me causing me to moan. He thrusts became faster and quicker and before I knew it his liquids were releasing on my insides .

He fell back on the bed after that and I turned to face him. He smiled .

"It felt like the first time. When we were 15 i felt the same sparks and i felt more than a mental connection. I felt a full physical contact" his accent rang.

" im glad i decided to come home tonight. " my head fell on his chest and he kissed the top of my head before falling asleep.

I began to whisper a short prayer to myself.

"Dear God I thank you for finally giving me a family and allowing me to meet niall and everyone else.I know we have never really had a close relationship but I knew you were always there for me. Thanks for watching over me big guy."

With that i closed my eyes and i saw the blackness in knew that i would never return to on purpose again.