charlie's pov:
wednesday
i can't stop thinking about yesterday. i can't stop thinking about marv. the way his freckles stood out on his tan face. his glowing hazel eyes. he's grown so much.
i wish i looked like him. i've hardly changed. i still can't stop thinking about him holding my hand. his hands were so smooth, and veiny. why do mine have to be long and thin? i'm not a girl.
i can't stop comparing myself to him. we're opposites. but the more i think about him, the more i think about the past. his face of shock. 'i'm not gay.' it was so long ago. why does it still hurt? i wonder what would have happened if he liked me back. would we have.. dated? would we love each other? would we still be together?
i can't help myself. the thoughts won't stop. i wonder if he's ever.. you know.. done it? what's it like between boys? what even happens? would.... we be doing that together? i'm writing this in the school toilets at lunch. but shit. oh my fucking god. i'm gonna kill myself. i'm hard.
thursday
somehow, yesterday was worse than any other day in this fucking school. it's like... a nightmare come true. what the fuck. i was hard. thinking about marv. obviously, im at school. i cant like, have a wank or something. that would be weird.
thankfully, i was in the other buildings toilets. no one really goes in there anymore, considering the only thing in it was the sports hall and some old unused classrooms. i told myself, no one will be here, just go wash your hands and sit for a minute. it will probably go away.
i put this stupid diary away in my bag and went to wash my hands. but holy fucking shit. of course with my fucking luck someone would come in.
i was opening the stall door then i heard the door swing open. i stood there frozen in shock with my eyes closed. i didn't want to face whoever had just seen some weird teen boy hard at school. what a freak i would be. but instead of someone shouting at me, i just heard laughing. i recognised that laughing.
marv. i opened my eyes slowly. there he was. his top buttons undone, tie undone and hanging around his neck. i braced myself for whatever he was going to say. 'what do we have here??' he teased, looking directly at my cock. no shame.
i was literally frozen. he slowly walked over to me, grinning from ear to ear. he stood next to me and fucking touched the tip of my cock, which was pushing against my tight school trousers.
'now, what have you been thinking about in school?? imagine if it wasn't me who came in. imagine.' he was grinning even more. my face was fully flushed red. i was suddenly boiling. 'i- it's a normal body function..' i stammered. what would i do if he told someone? he was just staring at me. at it. 'oh i know. im not saying i think it's bad,' he smirked. with absolutely no warning, marv grabbed my hand and brought it to his dick.
he was hard. HE WAS HARD? WHAT? had i not realised this before? was it just a massive coincidence? or... was he hard becuase of me? holy shit. what the fuck. 'you look hot. i should help with that, don't you think?' marvs hand cupped around mine, pushing my hand around his dick so i was cupping it. i didn't dare move. he started undoing my buttons. i jumped. 'what are you doing..? stop..' i whispered. i felt dirty. i didn't want him to stop. i wanted his mouth around my dick. 'oh.. don't you want to??' marvs smile faded. 'no i-' what do i do? i wanted him all. 'sorry. i'll go.' he started to walk the other way.
before he could leave, i grabbed his arm. i felt a sudden confidence burst. 'marv... please stay. keep going. please.' i was harder than ever. i wanted things unimaginable. he grinned and dropped to his knees. 'what are you-' i was cut off. my buttons were already undone. he pulled my trousers down so you could see my underwear. precum had stained already.
marv licked my cock without taking my underwear off. his breath was hot on me. it felt so good. he looked up at me. 'we haven't even done anything and your already so wet. it's so hot.' he pulled down my underwear to reveal my dick. it literally hit him in the face. i flushed red and turned away.
he took my cock and licked from the tip down. it felt so fucking good. he took my tip to his mouth, licking it then straight away putting it in his mouth. i couldn't help but push him further till he was fully deepthroating it. my mind wasn't able to think of anything except the sensation of his mouth around my cock. holy shit. it had hardly been a minute and i was already so close to cumming. 'm-marv quick.. get off. i'm gonna-'
i pushed his face away but not fast enough. my cum was all over his face. it even got in his mouth and on his lips. he licked his lips and swallowed the cum in his mouth. HE SWALLOWED THE CUM. what the fuck. i was more red then a fucking tomato.
'i-i have to g-' before i could run away again marv grabbed my hand and pulled me into the stall again.
i was speechless. he sat me on his lap. 'your so light..' he moaned. how the fuck can being skinny make you moan? i was sat on his lap facing him, my legs on either side of him. 'you seriously thought i would just let you cum alone? now it's your turn to help me out.' he whispered right into my ear. only then did i realise the bulge against my ass.
he unbuttoned his pants and got his cock out. holy shit. he was big. i thought i was a decent size but his was so... without realising i was hard again. he grinned and took my hands and put them around his dick. 'jerk me off. i'll jerk you off too.' i followed his instructions.
at some point he wrapped one of his hands around mine and helped. pumping my hands up and down until he came on my uniform. i was gasping for air. holy shit. what had i just done? he checked his phone and it was nearly the end of lunch. 'shit.. i have to go.' he cupped my cheek and brought my face to his. he kissed me and bit my lip softly. i opened my mouth accidentally and his tongue slipped into my mouth. he quickly brought his face away, did up his trousers, grabbed his backpack and ran out.
i was left there with cum on my shirt and my underwear down. holy fucking shit.
