author note- im changing the story like way of writing ig?? i might rewrite the whole thing😭 i started last year this time but i hate the diary format, it's so annoying lmao, i want to start again💀💀 anyways i'm j gonna write (ALSO IDK Y BUT MY BRAISN NIT WORKING TODAY LIKE I J CANT RHINK?? SO SHITTY WRITING)
it's been a while since my last entry, but things have been good. obviously with marv but otherwise too. mams got a new job, again (she got fired from her last one) and it's good pay so she can afford nicer things for the house and shit. i've been upset lately and i don't know why, but i should be happy. i don't know what's making me feel upset but it's pissing me off. i feel so ungrateful, i've finally got things decent and im still upset.
me and marv are going out somewhere after school today thought so i should cheer up. marv says it's a secret where we go but i don't really know what to expect. shit, it's getting late i need to get my school uniform on and get to school. i quickly shoved my wrinkled school shirt over my head and buttoned it up, and slipped the tie over my head like a noose around my neck. my school pants were only taken out of the wash like 30 minutes ago so they're slightly soggy. i go to the kitchen to make breakfast but we're out of cereal and the bread has fucking mold on it. great. i scrape the mold of the bread and pop it in my toaster and grab my school bag from the hallway. as i'm checking my school stuff is all there, i see a form for a school trip next week i've forgotten to get mam to sign. it's to a theme park so i'm decently excited. i get to go for free too, but that's just because our family is broke and on benefits. lush! i forge my mams signature and shove it in the back of my school bag. i hear the toast pop up so i grab it and put it in my mouth while i do my school shoes up. i need new ones because my airforce have holes in the backs from my heels and are 2 sizes too small, but i reckon if i ask mam for new ones she'll say no. i open the door and run down the stairs to get the bus before it's too late.
i'm on the bus when i get a text, it's from marv.
marv: you coming to school today? :)
charlie: why wouldn't i be coming
marv: no need to be salty im j asking 😋
charlie: ok
marv: your so dry charlie, lighten up a bit
marv: you ok tho? u seem sad
charlie: idk just not in a good mood today.
marv: awh:( don't be sad charlie :) you'll like what i'm showing you today
charlie: thanks but what r u showing me
marv: thatd ruin the surprise :)
charlie: tell me
marv: you ever smoked before?
charlie: smoked like fags? or bud
marv: bud?
charlie: no why
marv: jw 😇
charlie: okay... shit my bus is here i'll ttyl
marv: there's still 10 mins before school
marv: where r u now
marv: r u off bud
marv: let's meet up before school starts
i turn off my phone and listen to the notifications as marv spams me. i smile. it's kinda cute how needy he is. i exit the bus and walk into school a bit early. no one's in the classroom this early so it's usually a bit of peace for me. i start walking up the stairs and to my classroom when i hear someone walking behind me.
i don't think much of it till i feel hands on my waist. is it a perv? i don't want to turn around. 'BOO !' marv hugs me from behind. 'my heart just dropped out my fucking throat thank you marv,' i say sourly. 'you know you love me,' marv smiles. i push him along since he's not moving. 'i'm trying to get my 10 minutes peace before school starts, thank you, so if your gonna come with u better be quiet,' i say. marv just nods and pretends to zip his mouth. i smirk.
we get to the classroom and it's empty, like i presumed. i take my things out my bag and look at marv. he hasn't got a bag. 'did you forget your bag?' i ask. knowing marv he would easily leave his bag somewhere. 'i had to hide it,' he replies. 'hide it?-' i think back to our texts, he was asking me about weed. maybe he's got it in his bag. 'never mind.' marv smiles at me and watches me while i start to read. it's fine for a minute but gets annoying. 'have you got nothing better to do?' i ask. 'i could but watching you is more interesting :)' he smiles again. i try and hide my grin. he brings his chair next to mine and leans on my shoulder, playing with my hair. 'your hair is so soft, it's sooo nice... and your shirt is looking extra clean today...' he grins. i haven't washed it in nearly a week so i know he's lying. he obviously wants something. 'what do you want marv? stop trying to flatter me.' i say. he grins a mischievous grin. 'are you up to smoking with me tonight?' he asks in a dumb baby voice. 'maybe if you shut up with the voice. is it not like, bad for you though?' i wonder. what would it be like, smoking? getting high? i've never smoked before but my mam does sometimes. it makes the flat reek. 'of course :)' he just grinned again. he never stops smiling. it's.. cute. just as i'm about to lean my head on top of his, the bell goes. he quickly lifts his head and pulls his chair back to his desk.
as the other kids start coming into the classroom, marv moves into his normal seat in front of me, glancing back at me every few minutes. i can't stop thinking of tonight, getting high. todays gonna be a loooong day.
