Always late (skrillmau5)

Beginning

Yeah...I fell. No wait, not believable. I... *sigh* I don't know. Shouldn't I be pretty good at lying by now?
I know. I'll do that thing...were you mumble a really long story so they'll get fed up and not listen to you.
I stepped on the door mat and wiped my feet, then slowly opened the front door.
"Sonny!" Shouted my mum. She trembled, she knew exactly what was going on.
"What happened to your eye?"
I started to mumble a really boring, untrue story.
She let out a huge sigh and walked into the kitchen.
I went upstairs and threw my black Adidas school bag on my bed.
I examined myself in the mirror. God I'm such a loser. I took out my notebook.
I can't much more of this school. Why can't I drop out already? Today I-
My mum came in and I slammed the book closed
"What?" I said in shock
"I just wanted to let you know some girl came here looking for you"
"Next time she comes, tell her not to come back" I said bitterly
"Why?"
"None of your business"
"Ok, ok" she said and walked out.
The girl that came by, that was starlet, weird name right? We were a thing for a while. I made promises to her I couldn't keep. I probably really hurt her. I don't really want to see her again, not for a while anyway.
I started doing my homework. Fuck this. When can I be free? When can I start my life? Come on! Why is it dragging so bad? I decided to just lie in bed. Forget homework, school means nothing to me anyway.
The next morning I woke up late, of course. This time I was really late! I'm not going to rush though.
I slowly walked down my street, I couldn't give a fuck. I'm already late.
Usually in the morning there are a lot of people here, but everyone was gone. It was silent for once.
I was holding my chemistry file in my hand. I hate chemistry. It kills me inside.
I walked beside the tiny river that was sealed off. Usually beyond that barrier was were the popular kids sat. They were intimidating but I didn't really care.
I thought about science. I never want to go back. I know I'm going to regret this but, it felt right.
I took my file and threw it as far as I could, making sure it landed in the river.
"FUCK YOU CHEMISTRY YOU FUCKING CUNT!" I screamed.
I heard laughter from behind me.
"What are you doing?" He said amused
I turned around. It was joel Zimmerman. The so called 'badass'
"Fucking my notes in the river"
"Don't you need them?"
"Yeah but I don't give a fuck anymore"
"I admire that...what's your name again?"
"Sonny"
He reached out to shake my hand and smiled at me.
I shook it...people always call him mean! He doesn't seem mean. Maybe he's just being nice now.
"What happened to your eye?"
"I was in a fight"
"Cool, did you win?"
"It was kind of even, I went home with a black eye, and he went home with a busted shin"
He hopped over the railing
"Well, since you don't give a fuck, you wouldn't mind bunking off with me, would you?"
"No" I said jumping the railing.
I started texting then just set my phone on the grass inbetween us, as he talked about him getting a detention for breaking a car window. I was laughing my ass off. It was hilarious
This I got a notification, the volume was up full, so it was loud.
He looked over at my phone.
Starlet: I miss you babe!
I sighed and rolled my eyes.
"Oo who's starlet?"
"My ex"
"Doesn't sound like she's going to be your ex for long" he said winking
"Oh trust me, she will"
"Oh?"
"I broke up with her, I had my reasons"
"Oh cool"
"Where are you supposed to be right now?"
"History, I hate it. I'm only taking it because I can get a good grade in it. It's so boring! You?"
"Art, I like art. It's just effort. I fucking hate school. It's so pointless"
"I get that, like they try and control you so much. I don't care if I get a shitty nine to five job, any things better than school. At least I can rave and party, that will make life more bearable"
I nodded. The bell rang
"What do you have next?"
"Chemistry" I said and sighed
"We could...just stay here for another class, then go in at break?"
I smiled and nodded
We just talked for a while, the conversations were strangely deep. I felt like we were really good friends already.
The bell rang for break, but joel was mid story. It was a really funny story about the time he fell downstairs. Haha.
Joel's group jumped over the gate.
Sarah king
Tom baker
Lucy Harding and
Chris Lennon.
The popular squad. Joel was laughing his ass off.
"Joel, why are you talking to this loser?" Said Chris
I gave him a dirty look.
"He's not a loser, his pretty cool"
"Look at him! He looks homeless!"
i stood up and looked him up and down, then looked him in the eyes.
"I bet you'd love to be homeless. God love ya...I wouldn't like to come from a broken home either."
I circled him slowly and folded my arms.
"But...I guess your dad can't help being an alcoholic. And your poor mother. its not her fault she's so sexually charged. Tell her to give me a call when she's off her period again" I looked at him cheekily and walked back to joel.
Joel's face was so funny. He was shocked but so happy.
Everyone was in so much shock.
"Are gonna let him get away with that?!?!" Screamed Sarah
Chris took out his massive muscles.
"I'm gonna kick your shit in!"
I was weak. Skinny and boney and plain weak. I know that confidence is key...for everything.
If I make him scared, he will obviously be intimidated.
"GO!" I shouted walking towards him.
"GO! you gonna kick me? Huh? Kick me! Go! Go!" I said, I was right up in his face. He took a step back.
"Ok! Ok! sorry"
"Yeah that's what I thought" I said spitting in front of him.
"This kids alright" said Lucy
We all sat where they usually sat, I guess they just accepted the fact I was there after that.
Sarah sat really close to joel, she was rubbing her head against him and being really flirty. Sarah was stunning. A lot of people call her 'the prettiest girl in school.' So you'd think Joel would like this, but he looked pretty uncomfortable.
It's a shame that she has a shitty personality.
Tom talked to me a bit, so of course the girls did too, I think all the girls are into Tom, because he's rich and they know in the future he will continue to be rich.
"Wow sonny, I didn't know you were this cool or I would've talked to you before"
"Yeah" I said in agreement, I didn't know what else to say
"I never even knew your name. We used to call you half shave" he said and laughed
I laughed along
The bell rang
"You coming joel?" Said Chris walking away with the rest
"Nah, I'll catch up"
"Ok" he shrugged
Joel waited for them to walk away
"Wanna bunk again?"
I know I really shouldn't. But I don't even have my homework done for next class
"Sure"
he sighed "I'm so sorry"
"For?..."
"I never knew you were half shave"
"Uh, ok?"
"We used to talk about you all the time! I feel terrible. We just judged you and we didn't even know you"
"I don't care. Everybody does it"
He looked really sad.
"Remember John toal?"
I smiled "yes, I do"
"We're the ones who told him to beat you up" he said and sighed
"Dude, John toal was the best fight I've ever had in my life"
He sat up a bit.
"What?"
"That fight put me on the map" I said smiling
"He told us he beat the crap out of you"
"What?! No he didn't, I broke his leg!"
"That was you?!?!" He said surprised, I nodded
"He told us he fell downstairs!!"
I burst out laughing "that's a really bad cover"
"Oh my god!" He said still in disbelief
We both laughed
I got another notification
"Sonny answer, I know you've seen it"
I sighed again and locked my phone
"Why don't you just answer her?"
I sighed "it's complicated"
His smile faded in thought
"So what about Sarah, she seemed pretty into you"
"Yeah, she is. But I don't like her in that way"
"Really? Seems like most of our year do"
"Yeah" he nodded, then turned around to me "do you?"
I shook my head
He thought for a minute
"How come?"
I looked him in the eyes. What do I say?
"I don't know, how come you don't?
He looked away "I don't know"
the bell rang.
"Let's just go in at lunch"
"Ok" I said and started texting my friend Matthew who was in class, but had Mr. Moles so I knew he could reply.
"I really think you should answer that girl"
I looked up at him
"Why?"
"Because....have you ever been ignored?"
I thought back. "Yeah"
"She obviously cares about you man"
"Fine. I'll reply" I sighed and started texting
"What do you want starlet?"
"Sonny! I just really wanna talk to you"
"Ok"
"Can we meet up sometime?"
"Can I think about it?"
"Yeah"
"Cool"
I locked my phone. Joel looked at me
"What'd she say?"
"She just said that she wanted to meet up with me"
"Are you going to?"
"I don't know yet"
The bell rang, why doesn't time in class go this fast?
Joel sighed "I don't want to go in, but we're gonna have to"
"Yeah, may as well get food anyway"
"Oh yeah"
We went in and lined up.
We got our food and I went to go to my normal table. To be honest I don't have many friends. You either love me or hate me, and not many people bothered to get to know me enough to love me. People are often thrown off by the constant unimpressed look on my face and the stories they'd heard about me.
"Where are you going?"
"I don't know, over here"
"Come sit with us"
I shrugged "ok"
I followed him and sat down.
The popular table. Constantly filled with posing little whores and muscly douche bags that think they're everything, or was that just how I was seeing them? Joel is popular but he's not like that.
The amount of dirty looks I got was overwhelming. Joel didn't really understand. A lot of people hate me.
George looked at me
"Why are you here?"
"Why not?" I said and shrugged
"No one here likes you"
"Oh no. I'm so upset right now. How will I ever get over the fact that a bunch of over rated teenagers don't like me?" I said sarcastically
He's the biggest tramp I've ever seen. Literally the definition of white trash
"Still getting beat up for lunch money?" He spat out
"Still fucking your sister?" I said back immediately
He just turned away from me. I didn't even let them get to me. I'm not weak, and nobody can make me move.
Joel laughed a little, but got glared at for doing so.
"Where are you next?" He asked me
"Drama"
"No way, are you in the play? My class are getting out of work to go see it"
"Yeah, I'm in it"
Oh shit, I have one of the main roles! Drama. The only class people like me in. We're all like one big family.
You have to be friends with your fellow actors to make a good play.
"I can't wait to see it" he said happily
I don't really want to perform in front of him.
All his group were walking away
"Joel come on!" Shouted chris
"I have a to go, but I'll see you later, yeah"
"Yeah" I nodded
And walked the opposite direction.
I sighed internally, alone again. I walked to drama.
I went over Charlotte, she was nice, we just had a basic conversation.
Then Joel's class started piling in. I could see him, he was smiling. We wasn't with anyone in his group. Maybe he's the only popular one in his class, I guess that makes it slightly better.
The play began and I waited for my turn to come on.
I stepped out on to the stage and said my line. I always gave drama a hundred percent because I love it and I'm good at it. I lose all my low self confidence when I step on stage.
I had to act with this girl, cecilia. Her characters name was Ashley, I actually think Ashley suits her better.
She's very pretty, but underrated.
I did as the script told me.
I grabbed her waist.
I had to stay all this stuff to her, damn nearly fell in love with myself, I'm so good at acting.
Then the play was over and I had to go to my next class, physics. Eww why did I even do sciences?
Joel POV
I asked to go to the bathroom. I hate geography.
I was at a corner and I heard a teacher shouting. I wanna stay and hear this, plus I don't really want to walk past.
"You never do your work, your never paying attention and you go against me every opportunity! I'm sick of talking to you!"
There was a silence
"Do you want me to contact your head of year?"
"I honestly don't care"
Hold up, is that sonny?! I slowly peeked around the corner, it is!
"I don't believe you"
"Why don't you contact her and see if I care then"
Damn, he's so brave, I could never do that. She started pure screaming at him, I know
I walked towards him
"Sonny Moore, miss Campbell wants to see you" I said in a serious voice. She's our head of year.
"Oh, ok" he said and followed me.
We turned the corner
"Why does she want to see me?"
Sonny POV
"She doesn't, I just heard you get shouted at, so I thought if I said that, the teacher won't shout and you and won't tell on you"
"Oh, good idea. Thanks"
We walked to the bathrooms and sat in there on our phones
"You were really good in the play by the way"
"Thanks" I said not looking at him, kind of embarrassing.
"So what did you do?"
"Oh, I just didn't do my homework, but I don't really do anything ever so she's probably just pissed about that"
Devon walked in, he was my bully before I grew some balls.
"Move moore"
I stepped out of his way
"Don't speak to me like that"
"Or what"
"Or I'll slap the shit out of you!" I said and tutted
We've kind of became like jokey enemies. We would do stuff for eachother and defend eachother, but still have a bully victim kind of relationship.
"Hey! Don't forget what I did for you"
"Fuck off devon" I said and started texting
"I'm just keeping you going sonny"
"I know, don't shit yourself"
He laughed and pissed.
He washed his hands and then took a selfie with me, because why not.
"Why are you with this poser?"
"He's not a poser"
"Ohh..do you-" I glared at him. You see Devon was one of the only people that knew I was into boys.
"Just..he's not a poser, ok? Now leave"
"Ok, ok I'll go. Have fun" he said and left
"Who was that"
"My friend devon"
"That seemed like a weird friendship"
"It is"
"Right, well we should probably get back to class now"
"Yeah" I said and walked out.
"Bye"
"Bye"
I thought about it walking back to class. I don't know if I like joel, it was just nice spending time with him today.
I walked into class and sat down. That class dragged in, but then it was over, finally.
I was walking down the street by myself, just thinking.
"Hey" I heard from beside me. I turned around, it was joel
"Hi" I said and smiled
When we turned a corner there was no other people
We were talking about how it would be cool if just moved and started a new life.
Out of no where someone came beside me.
"Hi" said a beautiful but terrified voice
It was starlet. I swear I nearly shat myself
I forgot how beautiful she was. You see I'm bi, but I like boys way more than girls.
I just kind of looked at her. Into her pale blue eyes. Oh my god someone kill me.
"What are you doing here" I said trying to look away from her, but my eyes were locked on to hers.
"I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't just come up to you like this, but I wanted to see you again"
I sighed "just stay away from me" I said walking briskly, remembering I would probably hurt her after a while. I can't get back together with her, for so many reasons.
She ran after me
"Please stop"
I stopped and turned round to her "what do you want"
"To be with you"
"Star no, I can't."
"You never even told me why"
"Ill tell you, just not right now, ok?"
I walked again
"If I can't be with you, can I at least have my best friend back"
"I dont know"
"I don't understand"
I held her face
"I'm just going to hurt you again, and I don't want that! I'll explain everything soon enough. Just go home"
"Ok" she said and sighed
I continued walking with joel
"So that's the starlet that's been texting you?"
"Yeah" I sighed
He reached his street
"See you tomorrow" he said and waved
"Bye" I said and continued to walk to my own house.
I walked in, smiling for once
My mother looked at me happily. I went up to my room and she came up after me.
"The girl came back"
"Did you tell her not to come back?"
"No...sonny I don't understand"
"What?"
She closed the door
"She's a beautiful, Intelligent, polite young girl. Why don't you want her?"
"That's none of your business! I broke up with her for several reasons"
"Wait so you did go out with her?"
"Yeah"
"Did you do anything with her?"
I looked at her weirdly "get out of my room"
"I'm not asking in a weird way, I'm just wondering"
"Fuck off. Oh shit sorry! Fuck!...I didn't mean to swear"
"It's ok, I don't care. Your a old enough now sonny, I don't really mind if you do shit"
"Cool" I said and sighed
"So did you do anything with her?"
"I'm still not telling you that"
"Come on!"
"I didn't fuck her, if that's what you mean"
"Sonny!"
"You said you didn't care if I swore"
"I don't, the correct term is making love"
"If you say so"
"I didn't expect you to, but did you do anything else?"
"Can you stop asking me these questions?"
"So you did?"
I hesitated "yes, now leave"
"Oh stop being so awkward"
"Well, your asking me awkward questions"
"You still a virgin?"
I folded my arms
"Yes"
"ok, you can bring people up here by the way" she said hinting
"You would approve of me having sex here?"
"Yeah, it's legal, why not?"
"Ok, cool"
"Bye" she said and left
"Yeah whatever" I mumbled
The next morning I walked to school. Late again. May as well sit on the grass until the first period passed.
I jumped the fence
"Oh hey joel"
"Hey, I thought you were in class"
"No, I was late again"
"Cool, come sit"
"Ok"
I sat beside him. He looked pretty sad.
"Are you ok?"
"Not really"
"What's up?"
"My parents were fighting again this morning. I hate seeing them like this. I'm just scared incase they get divorced of something"
"Divorced parents aren't so bad. Two houses, twice the money, twice the presents. Don't worry about it. Fights happen all the time, think of all the times you've fought with a friend but you still like them. It's not a really relationship unless there are fights"
he smiled "yeah your right, it's ok. Thank you"
"Don't worry about it"
He thought for a moment
"It's weird because, all my other friends would have just make fun of me"
"Because they don't understand"
"Yeah. There's so many things I want to tell someone but they will all judge me. I never have anyone to talk to"
"You can talk to me anytime" he smiled
"I appreciate that"
That day was also identical to the last, that's usually the way school goes.
I came in the door smiling again
My mom looked at me weirdly. I'm usually sad after school
She came up to my room
"Why are you so happy?"
"Sorry, is it a crime to be happy"
"Have you been fixing things with that girl?"
"No, I forgot all about her actually. Thanks for reminding me" I said as my smile dropped
"If you like her why don't you get back together why her?"
"It's complicated"
She sat down beside me
"Talk to me" I shook my head
"Why not?"
"You wouldn't understand"
"I would!"
"Maybe I just don't have those feelings yet"
"Oh please sonny, you have a million playboys under your bed, and you never clear your browsing history"
I folded my arms "ok whatever"
"So tell me why"
"No!"
"I want to help you"
"Why were you looking under my bed?"
"I was bored"
i rolled my eyes
"Who were you even trying to fool?"
I shrugged "maybe myself"
"Deep"
"By the way, what is that blank disk"
I shook my head "just don't watch it"
"Well now I'm tempted to"
"It's just more porn"
I need to throw out that disk, because that's my gay porn.
"You don't tell dad all the shit we talk about, do you?"
"Not really"
"Dont"
Someone knocked on the door, I heard my dad just let them in
Cecellia walked in
"Here sonny, you left your jacket at my house"
"Thank you"
She sat down and completely ignored my mum.
"You were really good in the play, you made it really real for me"
"Thanks, you were good too"
"Well, there's an audition for a duet acting role, I thought maybe we could audition together"
"Yeah I would love that"
"Ok, we'll practise tomorrow in our free, sorry for disturbing your conversation"
"Don't worry about it"
She kissed me on the cheek. It's just like a friend thing, no big deal.
"Bye sonny"
"Bye"
She left
"Is that who you were smiling about?"
"Nah, we're just friends"
"But she kissed you"
"Yeah, on the cheek"
"So"
"We're just friends"
"Where you smiling about a person though?"
"Maybe" I smiled so more
"Who?"
"No one, just no"
"Tell me!"
"Why did I think I could say maybe without you asking?"
About a week passed, it was the same old shit. But me and joel kept getting closer, so at least I was gaining something
I was sitting having the same kind of conversation with my mum that after noon, I was getting more comfortable with her questions at least.
i heard someone knock the door, my dad let them in.
Joel came in, he was crying. He ran over and hugged me. I just held him in my arms. My mum jut watched us intently
"It finally happened, they split up"
I ran my fingers through his hair. "It's going to be ok, I promise"
His crying died down abit, he wiped away his tears
"I'm such a loser, why am I crying over this?"
"Your not a loser, it's ok to cry"
He was basically sitting on my knee. I comfortable enough now to do stuff like that with him, in this past week we've got to know each other very well.
"Wanna go out tomorrow?"
I was really happy about that question but I didn't show it
"I've got a detention after school"
"I could wait for you, then we could just stay out a bit later"
I nodded "ok"
I just kind of looked into his eyes for a while. They're so pretty. Ok this is weird, he's just my friend.
I blushed a bit, but it wasn't noticeable
"See you tomorrow" he said and got off me
He waved and left
My mum looked at me weirdly.
"What?"
"What just happened?"
"Not much"
"Wouldn't you benefit more from going to a girls house on Friday night?"
I shook my head. "Why do you want me to get laid so bad"
"I dont"
I folded my arms
She left my room really confused.
The next day I went into, late on purpose and sat beside joel.
He smiled so brightly
"Hi sonny"
"Hi joel"
I hugged him.
"So are you feeling?"
"Not bad"
"That's good"
We got into are daily gossiping
"Oh my god, my mum has been non stop talking about sex"
"Really?"
"She really wants me to get laid it's weird"
"My dads like that with me"
"To be honest, at the start it was really uncomfortable, but now it's just like whatever, it's kind of nice to have someone to talk to"
he nodded "I get what you mean"
"My dad keeps saying he's worried about me, I've just never had a girl friend before"
What? He's never had a girlfriend before? I wonder why. He's popular and fit and pretty and just yes.
I just kind of nodded.
"The other day, to get out of speaking to her I said, maybe I just don't have those feelings yet. She started listing all the places i had porn I was like shit."
He started laughing "oh my god you idiot"
"I know"
The bell rang
"Oh I have my audition now" I grabbed all my stuff
He kissed me on the cheek and I left. He left me wondering all day, why did he kiss me?
I didn't see him at break, but I did at lunch. He called me over to his table.
I was still really confused about him kissing me. Does he like me? I would literally love if he liked me, whoops slipped out.
"Sonny, sit"
"Ok" I sat.
He put his arm around me. Aww. I'm so confused.
Then it was the end of the day, he waited for me to be finished my detention.
It was already kind of getting dark
By the time joel took me to this place he wanted to go, it was dark.
It was beautiful here! We lay on the grass and looked up at the stars.
"The sky is so beautiful" said joel
"It gives me hope. Reminds me that the world can be good"
We lay there for a minute. He sighed
"Look, sonny. Can I tell you a secret?"
"Of course"
"I really really like you..."
"As a friend?" I asked slowly
"As more than a friend"
I sighed in relief "thank fuck I thought It was only me"
"Wait, what?!? You like me back?"
"Yeah"
"Holy shit!"
"Wait so...can we make this a thing?" He asked innocently
"I would like that"
He grabbed my hand.
"I can't believed this, I'm never this lucky"
I laughed
"I'm so cold" I shivered
"I wish I had a jacket to give you"
"It's cold and half eleven, wanna just go to mine?"
He smiled "yeah"
I forgot we were holding hands, I guided him upstairs.
My mum kind of looked at me like what the actual fuck.
I let him into my room. I closed the door and kissed him.
"This feels right" he said and sighed deeply.
"I tried this with a girl once and it was just wrong"
I kept kissing him. He put his hands on my ass. "I've been dreaming of this since day one"
I laughed "it's only been a week"
We just sat and talked and kissed in my room, opening up a little bit more, since we were now going out.
It was really fun.
"It's nearly one I should go home, but come out tomorrow?"
"Sure, I'll walk you like half way home"
"Ok"
I walked him like half way home.
"See you tomorrow joel"
He hugged me "bye"
I walked back and entered my house, damn I was smiling like an idiot, my mum saw me she glared at me.
I noticed and my smile dropped
"Can I talk to you?"
"Sure" she came up to my room
"What is it?"
"What is going on with you and that guy?"
I was not ready to tell her.
"Nothing"
"You were holding his and and smiling like a moron, what's wrong with you?"
I folded my arms "nothing" I said coldly.