My 1205 I Love You's

Chapter 2

ADRIA
AUG 15, 2021//@10:45 PM

Ang weird lang kasi talaga.

I feel weird again about the school year starting again. Sigh. It was so exhausting just in elementary days, now?

...Exhausting is a clear understatement.

Especially now you're being forced in by almost whoever you meet in your senior years of high school to think already of the future.

Sheesh, brad. I'm kinakain again of worries. In this state I want to think positively again of school, like I did before...

The burnout from graduating the juniour years of highschool is still here. Well, even from graduating elementary.

Forget it na nga. I'll check if may kulang pa ako sa school supplies kemeruts.

While I was doing the stated, I'm definitely not fantasizing again about my life. Di talaga.

Pero parang pa-ganon na nga. Charot. Napaisip nalang kasi kasi ako sa ganitong things about sa life ko dahil sa sinabi ni Shai.

Especially sa love life.

Nako, my inner intermediate school and middle school self is unleashing nanaman.

May strange feeling tuloy akoo, charot alam kong eme eme lang nanaman toh sa isip ko to make me asa.

ANJU
AUG 16, 2021 @12:05AM
(HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOOBIN!!)

Nako ka, Anju. Last minute ka pa mag-ayos noh? Diyan ka magaling eh.

Shiz, di ako makakapahinga before 1st day. Hala ka yung gusto mong kakaibang dating mo sa 1st day kaagaran mukhang kakaiba ng pagkakamukha mong zombie.

I face palmed tsaka nahiga na. Kaso kilala ko nga naman sarili ko, mga ilang oras na bago ako makakatulog kaka-isip, duh ang galing noh?

Napa-iling ako na pa-cringe nang marinig ko mga bata sa labas na naglalaro pa ng bola. Pero, teka? Anong oras na, ba't pa sila naglalaro?

They're having fun pero, nakakaawa kasi na naglalaro pa sila at this hour. Most likely walang guardians to supervise their activity.

Normally, naiinis talaga ako sa mga bata dito, pero minsan naawa ako. Kaso nga, hanggang awa lang dahil wala naman akong alam sa bata or what to do to help in their situation.

Nuong I was their age, I felt bad for myself because even as a child at an early age in grade school, I worked my ass off on everything.

...But I didn't know how to appreciate my efforts because I was always blinded by failure.

At ito na nga po ako at nagkakalkal ng past kaagaran.

I facepalm and close my eyes and try to get rid of thoughts scattered in my mind. Sheesh. Mahirap lahat pati makatulog, pero go lang palagi, I mean bakit naman hindi?

After awhile, I drift off to dreamland once again. I sometimes wish I can stay there forever.

OtorChicherya message:
Hiii, sorry again for being inconsistent with updates in my books. I'm sorry din dahil I find narrative action hard sometimes. I can't get that expressive tuloy dahil mahina ako in linguistics especially in Fil. Btw, short updator lang talaga ako dahil most of the time tinatamad ako kung napapansin niyo jshshs.
Anw, happy birthday to out best leader, CHOI SOOBIN!