"I'll stop when I feel pretty enough."
" When I'm skinny enough."
"Confident enough. "
We all said that in the beginning.
But your young mind doesn't understand it at that point yet.
That it's not how eatingdisorders work.
Everyone keeps telling you that you can't just stop it,
that you'll get addicted to it.
But you don't believe them,
because you think you can stop.
You don't understand that your way of
thinking isn't going to stay the same.
But when you keep finding yourself instantly
getting the numbers on your mind when you see food
when you find yourself
constantly puking right after eating
your mind screaming at you everytime you look in the mirror
"shame shame shame"
when you find yourself watching the numbers drop on the scale
and your bones coming through your skin,
and then feel proud,
when you find yourself constantly comparing your body to
others and crying in front of a mirror
and when you find yourself fantasizing taking
scissors and cutt!ng the fat off your body,
and you find yourself doing those things everyday,
is when you know it's gone too far.
When you realize that you'll never feel pretty or skinny
enough because your standards
keep getting higher,
that's when you understand you can't just
"stop when you feel like it."
YOU ARE READING
ed from a teenager's view
Poesiesometimes poems, sometimes quotes, but mostly eatingdisorder(s) from different views (mostly teenager but i can make others too)
