Three Hearts one of Them Is Gonna Break

Chapter One: Change is Good

Kendall's POV:
Who knew having a mother who doesn't truly love you or care about can make a complete difference in your  life.

I have a mother not a mom my mother was always out with a different guy every night heck there was even times she forgot about me at school funny right. Or maybe not it's some type of disturbing way I deal with my mommy issues you can say. My mother isn't really in the picture for me she's really just some women i've learned to acknowledge every once in a while. Believe me I was never this heartless in fact I technically do have a heart beating blood in every organ of my body keeping me alive and well. I live with my aunt on my dads side. My aunt started taking care of me once she realized my mom was barley putting food on the table to feed her only child. She was a blessing I never knew I needed always giving me everything I needed. My dad calls me everyday too see how I'm doing but he moved for a job that he couldn't turn down little old me didn't understand why my dad would leave me but now that i'm older I miss my dad I need a real parent in my life. 

Not that my amazing aunt wasn't a great parental figure.

But, he asked me to move in with him now that i'm old enough to really make my own decisions. But i'm not gonna lie my dad he's remarried and has two kids that's a whole new family a whole new life I wasn't apart of...

And now he wants me to move in after years ? Why didn't he just take me with him. Was I really that much of a burden. 

Kendall stop thinking so negatively he loves you and you need to hold on to any family you have. 

But then there's the thoughts in my head like what if my dad doesn't really love me or consider me as one of his kids. But apart of me is also scared of change. Being the new girl new house new school new life. I was never really one to be so social what if i just don't fit in anywhere. Oh stop it Kendall you get in your head too much.

"Honey are you ready to go your plane leaves in an hour I don't want you to be late" my aunt Jessica says.

"Yes of course just packing the last of my stuff" Plus I'm going to be late LAX is already packed and traffic is insane I already know were going to be rushing to get on my plane. As i look around my now bare room with just a bed and its dresser i close my suitcase with my heart beating out of my chest. I'm really doing it I'm going to live with my dad into a place i've never been heck would i have to share rooms do i get my own room who am i kidding none of this truly matters.

The truth is I'm leaving because im craving to have some sort of actual true parent love in my life a father daughter relationship. 

I always heard that a mothers love was unconditional but, where is my unconditional love. 

I don't want to be bitter or a sappy depressed teenage girl I just need to move forward.

I can do this I know I can.

My aunt helps me pack all my suitcases in the car and sooner than we know we're on our way to the airport.

"I'm gonna miss you so much Kendall i'll always be a phone call away no matter the time or day you're like a daughter to me."

"I'm gonna miss you too aunt Jess and no worries i'll be calling you so much you'll be sick of hearing from me"

"Oh honey I don't think that's possible" she says with a light chuckle.

"Now let's turn up some music I don't want your last car ride with me to be so bland." she says with a huge smile.

And that's what we do we turn up music singing along to whatever song comes on the radio and this moment I'll forever be grateful and cherish every single memory I have with my aunt she's like the mother I always wanted and now i'm leaving her and I can't help but feel guilty.

She never really had much of a dating life she was always so preoccupied with her job nursing which is really time consuming and me. Taking care of me was her priority and I don't want her to end up alone because I took up so much of her time.

"Okay hun we're here we gotta get you going now this is as far as I can go in the airport with you remember you will be just fine and change is good don't be scared of it I love you."

"I love you too" with tears pricking my eyes with a few deep breaths i gather myself together and with one last look over the shoulder to my aunt Jess I run to her giving her one last big hug swallowing the big lump in my throat making it hard to speak and the tears threatening to release. With one last squeeze I leave my aunt Jess who i'll miss so much I'm off on my own.

I really just did realize how huge airports are like it's crazy and don't get me started on how uncomfortable all these chairs look.

As I'm walking around I try to study everyones different reactions some on vacation, business trips, the marines, all sorts of flights people are going on for different things. 

I finally find my flight after going through the airport like a damn corn maze i'm all settled in and ready to take off. 

I'm in my seat getting comfortable luckily I got the window seat which I heard to be the best one. But, Ill find out because this is my first time on a plane. I put my seatbelt on and pop a gum in my mouth because I also heard that chewing gum during take off will help with the ringing or popping in your ears. I scroll through my bag looking for my head phones and open my laptop for the pre downloaded movie I have for my flight. Right before I press play another guy takes the seat at the end of my small row. I gently smile not being too friendly because what if he just doesn't like company. 

I couldn't help but, notice he was kinda cute. Oh who am I kidding he is cute I'm not sure if cute is even the right word. What about extremely handsome. 

Mmmmm no extremely handsome doesn't sound right either.

"Hey I'm Alec" 

All of a sudden I'm snapped out of my rambling in my head and realize he just introduced myself.

I was just staring at him like an idiot and finally found my voice. 

"Kendall"

"What a beautiful name for a beautiful girl" he says looking at me with a gleam in his eyes. 

My stomach drops and I feel these butterflies erupt. Come on Kendall keep your cool pretend not to care. I take a breath and respond back.

"Seems like a basic name to me" I say looking over to the window to hide the hint of red forming on my cheeks and putting back in my earphones and place play on my movie.

I don't see it but I hear the soft chuckle escape from his mouth.

My life is all sorts of complicated but once he looked at me with those emerald green eyes I somehow knew my life was about to change again once more.