Once in a Lifetime

Chapter one

This has been in writing for about a year now, the first few chapters will be cringe writing. It gets better I promise.

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"'I want you' is in the heat of the moment; 'I need you' is something two people grow into, leading to interdependence. 'I want you can easily lead to lust; 'I need you' always leads to love. Someone who wants you can easily drop you and move on; someone who needs you fights for you because you are precious to them." Carla, Eren's mother, says as she boops his nose.

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Eren opens his eyes as he recalls the flashback of what his mother once told him when he asked the difference between 'I want you' and 'I need you.' But, why was he thinking about this now?

Eren shook off the thought as someone sat down across from him. Eren looked up and sighed, it was Jean. Even if the two boys have become somewhat of friends Jean still got on his nerves, but only when Jean was flirting with Mikasa.

Jean started talking with Mikasa, completely ignoring Eren. This made him jealous? He wanted the horse face male to at least look at him or talk with him. Why was he getting so jealous...?

"Uh, Eren?" Armin, one of Erens best friends asks, shaking him a bit.

"What?"

"You're staring at Jean."

Eren's eyes widened a bit looking around at everyone at the table who was staring back at him. How long was he staring for it to make everyone else stop what they're doing and look at him? The whole thing made Eren uncomfortable.

"I wasn't staring.." Eren responds in defense.

"Yes, you absolutely were! Not to mention drooling. You look at Jean like Sasha looks at her potatoes!" Connie practically screams, laughing. This made everyone laugh. Besides Armin, Mikasa, and Jean.

Eren couldn't take this embarrassment. He got up from the table and hurried back to his room.

"Eren!" Mikasa shouted after him, getting up from the table to hurry after him. Before she could make it far Armin grabbed her arm.

"Leave him be. He's got a lot on his mind, with the retake of Wall Maria and," Armin paused, eyeing Jean from the corner of his eye, "among other things.."

Eren was practically kicking himself mentally as he was walking through the halls of the Squad Levi house making his way to his room. Captain Levi was away with Commander Erwin probably making a plan for their voyage to Wall Maria.

Once Eren reached his room he flopped face first on his bed. He thought to himself, 'I should be focusing on retaking Wall Maria, but, I can't get that stupid horse face man out of my head. What's wrong with me?!' Eren finished his thoughts and groaned.

Almost like it was fate there was a knock at the door. "Come in," Eren says sitting up. 'Please don't be Jean, please don't be Jean-' Eren started thinking as his door swung open.

"Hey man." Of course, it was Jean.

'Goddammit!' Eren wanted to scream out but held it in. "Oh, hey."

"Are you okay? You've been acting weirder than normal. You're probably under a lot of stress since the retake of Wall Maria rides a lot on you but we're a team here, you're not in this alone" Jean says softly sitting at the end of Erens bed.

"No.. it's not that. I haven't even been thinking about retaking Wall Maria lately." Eren shrugs.

Jean cocked his head to the side. "Then what have you been thinking about? I've known you for years now and I'm smart enough to know some things bothering you."