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cinema of traumamovies

Kursiv stil- tona ner men tydligt budskap
Understruket- ökat tonfall, inte starkast.
understruket+kursiv stil - övergång
Fet stil - Betoning, högre än understruket
Fet+understruket - starkast, budskapet ska 110% fram
~ - utdragen ton

Sitting trying to sort your mind. Find out whats going on inside your head. You know its their words~, but you cant decide if its from only one certain time or if its multiple~. Zoning out from reality, going into your own headspace~. Going into the place everything's fucked up and messed around~. 
    Your phone begins to vibrate and brings you back to reality~. It saves you from the darkness~. Screen's lighing after the virbrations, a message catches your eyes, "I miss you.". They say they miss me, after everything that's happened they write they miss me?! 

~~~~~mellanspel~~~~~

   "I genuinely dont know what Ive done wrong~"
   "I hope we can still be friends"
   "I miss you"
   "I really dont think I did anything wrong~!" 

~~~~~mellanspel~~~~~

   Shutting down everything again~. Going back into the darkness that's nowhere but in my head~. The cinema of traumamovies is going on full speed. You see event, on event, on event. 
   I will tell you what you did wrong. Push someone for your pleasure while the talked about person obviously trying to avoid your will out of discomfort, isnt okay! You know what that is? Let me spill it out for ya! 
S - E - X - U - A - L    A - B - U - S - E ! Sexual fucking ABUSE that's what it is~! 
   But why would you care~, it'll just be a new option of all the movies in my mental cinema~. 

~~~~~mellanspel~~~~~

   Cinema of traumamovies~, on and on and on you see all the traumatizing events of your life~. No one truly knows everything you see, all of it is locked in inside your chest but the ones thats caused by loved ones are behind locked doors insde your heart. 
   Venting through texts~, such as poems and lyrics, people dont get to read in first hand~. Venting thorugh makup which no one understands~. Using unhealthy coping mechanisms but Ive been clean 2 months, right~? All the new piercings, the new stick'n'pokes and all those days without food... Thats not selfharm~... Or maybe it is but you'll just never know.

~~~~~mellanspel~~~~~

   Shutting down everything again~. Going back into the darkness that's nowhere but in my mind~. The cinema of traumamovies is going on full speed. Event, after event, after event they spinn~. 
   I will tell you what my venting is all about~. Going through too much at the same time without any possible way to escape~. You try to hide~, but you can't ever hide from your own mind. Voices screaming, pictures spinning, there's nothing you can do anymore. You know what this leads too? Let me spill it out for ya! 
D - I - S - S - O - C - I - A - T - I - N - G ! Dissociating is what you fucking do when youre getting close to the edge of life. 
   But why would anything help? it'll only help my mind~ circulating all the movies in my mental cinema~ without interuption~. 

~~~~~nertoning av melodi~~~~~

~~~~~tyst 2sec~~~~~

~~~~~Börjar spela snabbt igen~~~~~

   What to do? Just breathe and learn how to live with it is the answer I suppose. That what's all the adults say either way~.

Learn to live with your mental cinema of traumamovies~.

~ 21.12.06 ~