THAT ATTACHMENT

BONUS: His Birthday

It had been two years since the day their bond got stronger. It had been two years and their ceiling was adorned with the same stars except one. She did it recently. A star bigger and brighter than any of them. a star which solely belonged to her. Shehnaaz today stood by her window, gazing the sky, trying to find her only ray of hope but the Mumbai weather failed her yet again. The sky was dark, darker than that particular day. She wished it wasn't for it was his birthday; her bebu's birthday.

Shehnaaz wiped the pain shedding off her eyes. She longed for him. Only if she could, she would have pulled him back and never let him go. Crying, Shehnaaz walked to their bed and gazed at her ceiling which was adorned with the replica of the same star which once took away all the pain. It just kept getting painful. Only if he could hear for real and only if she could scream.

It wasn't just another day where she cried and calmed down too. The lonliness seemed to kill her that day. The day was his. He was supposed to be but the plans were not right. She hated destiny. She hated every little thing that separated her for her love. It did strike her mind at times, making her depressed over the fact that their love could not be weak enough to be broken by the lines of destiny. It was meant to be. This life might not be the one but she would surely see a day, maybe in another world where she would no more long for him. They would sit together by the stream of life, watching people flow by and come back which would take them back to their days and it would just make their love stronger.

"Sidharth", she whispered placing her hand on her chest and closed her eyes. "It's your birthday babu!  You were supposed to be here, weren't you? Take me with you", she muttered and a voice errupted right from the heart. It was a no. That was what life had been for her. Talking for hours was her hobby now, not because she liked it, it was because she could hear him and that was the only thing that made her feel his presence. " I want you Sidharth", she cried again, this time hugging his t-shirt like it was him. She wished she had met him earlier. Only if they had some more time together.

Shehnaaz almost stumbled walking upto their fridge, remembering every moment she spent with him in every inch of the flat that they owned, the flat which was officially going to be theirs in the same month two years back. Shehnaaz placed the red velvet cake on the dining table. The cake was decorated in a rich white icing with violet and magenta flakes over it. Sidharth with a star, it read. She pulled out a chair for him and herself sat on the other one. Fresh tears rolled down her cheeks with every cut she made. The hands would have been two but for that dreadful day. Shehnaaz put the first slice on a plate and fed herself the second one. 

Was he never hers? He always was. He always will be. Though it had been two years, the time flew by like a bird, but this bird brought in just pain. It did bring a gush of fresh air in between but everything hit back with the same force. She even tried shifting the house for the memories haunted her but could her Sidharth ever haunt her? She felt herself being pulled back to the same four walls. The same walls which had once seen witnessed her giggles and their eternal love. Life was undoubtedly hard but she was harder. All that she marked was that she was two years nearer to him. All the theories seemed to fail. It was him and only him. He was forever hers, now for sure!

"Tum na hue mere toh kya,

Mai tumhara raha"

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Happy Birthday Sidharth! I love you and I miss you each and everyday. My heart ceases to beat everytime I look at the date. Five days to your birthday, love and my heart pains. I could not write on you since that day and wanted to dedicate this one to you. This is to the love of SidNaaz.

I have my exams going on and could not bring myself to write anything. I could have upated the other story but I did not want to hurry. Have an exam om 12th and wanted to do something for Sidharth too. So here it is. Being somebody who is not that new but amateur at writing, I tried expressing my feeings through this one shot. May God be with SidNaaz. Much Love!