FORBIDDEN LOVE

Chapter 8🥀

"There's someone else."
Gulf said from his spot on the couch, where he was laying with his feet in the air, head cushioned by a soft pillow.
"Which is terrifying because for an awfully long time there hasn't been anyone else besides Pam."

"Who?" Kat questioned her friend who was seated comfortably inside her private chamber, apparently here to discuss about a "SERIOUS PROBLEM".

"See.... it's not like there really is someone else. I don't know. I just saw him and suddenly my heart was in my throat.
I can't help it Kat. He awoke something in me that has been asleep since forever. I never felt that way, I don't want to, but I can't stop it. I don't want to hurt Pam, I want to make her happy."

"Hmm. Don't you think that the reason you got so..... how to put it mildly, obsessed with this guy, is that you were never truly happy in your relationship, but rather comfortable?"

"What are you trying to say?"

"That you love Pam,
sure, but you're not in love with her? Maybe you were, a long time ago, but that thing faded to something more platonic. The kind of love you'd share with your best friend?"

Gulf's eyes snapped open and he sat up so fast that the world spun in circles for a second before his glare settled on the petite woman sitting at the edge of the couch, a notebook on her lap in which she was scribbling something furiously.

"Kat, what the fuck?" he asked her dumbfounded, the glare intensifying when one of his oldest friends smirked in his direction, throwing him a wink from behind nerdy glasses. No one knew she wore glasses, not even her past boyfriends.

"I'm just telling it how it is, sweetheart."

"You're supposed to be my psychologist." he mumbled, throwing his head back on the cushions and groaning. "You're supposed to tell me what I want to hear."

"Considering that I won't receive even a penny for my effort to listen to your pathetic whining, I'd say to let me do my job how I'm supposed to."

"You're an asshole, why are we friends?"

"Because you're an asshole too, but you have a hard time admitting it. Now, back to your problem, you didn't answer my question."

"I'm not going to, it's ridiculous."

"Gulf, it's not ridiculous. As a professional, I suppose you have a hard time coming to terms that you're having these kind of feelings towards a man.
It has always been Pam, right? Well, except that time in college when you went around sleeping with guys because you were experimenting."

"Let's not talk about it.
Pam doesn't know about that. She'd be crushed." Gulf muttered, glancing at his friend just in time to see Kat frown.

"Why would she? It's your life, right?"

"I mean, she has been raised a certain way. I know how she feels about homosexuals and bisexuals or any kind of sexuality besides the one between a man and a woman. She would hate me for it."

"I didn't know that she was just another homophobic bitch." Kat said completely straight-faced, ripping a laugh from Gulf.

"You're awful. Don't bad-mouth my fiancée."

"Gulf..... you're completely missing the point here. We were talking about this guy. Who is he?"

"It's the wedding planner."

"Oh, dear Lord." Kat laughed, not quite believing her ears. "The wedding planner? You mean Mew Suppasit?"

"Yes."

"Gulf. I really didn't expected this from you"

"I haven't done anything wrong! Except... well maybe, I did kinda try to kiss him the second time I met him. Which I regret. Partially. Not at all."
Gulf groaned, curling in on himself on the couch and letting out a pathetic sigh.

"I think you're regretting not kissing him fully."

"SHUT UP!"

"So, the wedding planner, huh? He's really hot?

"Yes. I mean, he's so much beyond just that. I can't describe Kat!"

"Kinky Gulf, never took you for one. Never thought you'd be crushing over your wedding planner of all people, but life's full of surprises, isn't it?"

"You're enjoying this, aren't you?"

"VERY MUCH" Kat grinned.

"You're a vicious bitch" he growled, making Kat sigh in pleasure.

"Thank you, sweetheart. That's the nicest thing you've ever said to me."

"I came here because I needed help and so far you haven't been helpful at all."

"Oh, darling, you're the only one that can help yourself." Kat told him, before silence fell on both of them, coating Gulf's thoughts in sorrow and shame.

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He left Kat's place soon after their talk, deciding to walk home rather than drive or book a cab.

He needed to clear his head a little bit, talking to her always made him feel too naked, too exposed. That may have been because she was a psychologist, of course -
but he needed to hear another opinion. It's not like he could talk to someone else about it though. The guys would just tell him to go for it, Bright and Mild especially. And he obviously couldn't go to Pam because now she was not just his friend but Fiancée.

Besides, Kat was alright. She was one of his oldest friend and despite what she told him, Gulf knew that Kat never judged him.
But talking to her only made it worse. She didn't exactly tell him what to do, and didn't exactly tell him what he shouldn't do. Possibly because she wanted him to suffer. Or she wanted him to find the answer on his own.

He couldn't deny that she was right at some point.

He never felt that way about anybody. Mew Suppasit made his blood sing and his heart ache with longing and desperation. He never felt that way with Pam. It didn't matter how awful it was to compare Pam to Mew, especially since SHE was his fiancée and HE was just a stranger.

Gulf felt like he discovered something amazing in Mew. The first sparkle of lust and love, which was insane because he never believed in love at first sight or crap like soulmates.
But.......

But what if it was true?

What if soulmates existed and what if he just discovered his?

Surely there had to be an explanation to his utter obsession with the wedding planner, right? He's been with his fair share of people in his life. He's had enough sexual partners, both males and females, yet no one raised to Mew's standards.

Gulf surely was mad enough to think that was love.

But was he mad enough to completely destroy two lives because of his heart's selfish needs?

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