Only Till Forever (Book 1 in the Forever Duet)

No Good

I feel a large hand grab my wrist and drag me into the alley in between the dining hall and the dorm next to it. 

"Hey there pretty lady you must be new?" I hear a masculine voice ask.

I'm too caught up in my anxiety and swirling new emotions to respond or even take stock of the predictament I'm in.

"Hey Bitch I asked you a questions" the guy snarls as he grips my throat to get me to finally look at him.

This guy is not my dark nightmare. This guy is ugly. He has ashy almost grey blonde hair with eyes that are so dark they are almost black. His face is filled with acne scars and his teeth that he's baring at me are yellow. His pale neck is covered with a tribal symbol that runs below his shirt and for the first time in my life I'm fucking terrified.

Douche bags hand tightens on my throat as his other hand starts to freely roam my body. He grazes my breast and it cause me to gasp, not because it feels good but because I can see what he wants. Me. The look in his eyes tells me he won't stop till he has me.

"A pretty little thing like you all by yourself. Teasing me with these short as sin shorts and that tight little tank. I'd call you beautiful if it wasn't for those disgusting scars on your arms and legs" He says as his free hand drags across my the scars themselves. I can't help the shivering I'm doing. It makes me feel disgusting. Each scar now feels slimy and for the first time in eight years I want out of my skin. 

Here in this alleyway anything can happen, including him raping me. I wasn't ready for anyone to have my virginity and I especially didn't want it to be forcefully taken from me. I struggled against his hold and then it happened. The tingle.

I have never been so excited in the last year to feel that fucking tingle.

Grayson

I saw him before my attacker did. I watched Gray's eyes zero in first on the hand around my throat and then down to where is free hand was now cupping my lower half. Grayson quickly snaps his eyes to mine and I know he can see my panic because his eyes narrow as he leaps into action.

Grayson grabs the attackers wrist that has me by the throat and he squeezes. I hear a popping sound the same time the douche bag bellows in pain. Grayson then swings a right hook into the guys face knocking him to the ground. 

"The lady didn't like you touching her keep your hands to yourself and get the fuck outta here Jett" He growls in the guys face.

Jett looks between both of us before muttering a fuck you and storming away.

I didn't realize till Grayson was scooping me off the ground that I had fallen and was still holding my breath. It wasn't until he kissed the top of my head that I finally could breath again.

Grayson carries me behind the dining hall where there are a few empty picnic tables and sets me down on top of one.

I can't look up. I stare at my hands rubbing my legs. My heart pounding so hard my ears fucking ring. That tingle is back to a burn as Grayson slowly starts to rub my arms gently.

"Baby look at me" he tries.

I ignore him and I ignore that he called me baby. I can't make my mind stop thinking about the fact Jett almost took something that most certainly wasn't his. I haven't kept my virginity for a faith reason. No it's because boys have seemed pointless I honestly didn't think I would make it to eighteen so why try to find love or even just someone to pass the time. 

My mom thinks my suicide attempts were selfish they weren't but after the last one I tried at fifteen I could see the toll it took on her. I sure as shit wasn't going to add anyone else to the list of people I would hurt when I do take my life.

"Please look at me" I hear Gray beg.

The rubbing on my arms stop as I feel Grayson grip my chin to force my eyes to his. I couldn't help but gasp. Gray's eyes had so much emotion swirling in them I could feel myself drown in it. The pressure in my chest builds as I realize I'm crying when he brushes away my tears.

"I want to ask if you're okay but that seems like a stupid questions" He looks away trying to gather himself. 

I shake my head. "I..I..I'm fine. He didn't get very far thanks to you." I whisper.

Graysons head snaps back to me. "Does it hurt any where?" He questions scanning me from head to toe.

"Just my neck" Again I whisper since it hurts to fucking talk.

"Fuck I am so sorry" He whispers back as his fingers slowly stroke my neck where I'm sure bruises are already forming from Jetts fingers.

My emotions swirl and for the first time I don't feel cold or cloudy. Nope with Gray's touch on me I feel a burst of warmth. That sunshine everyone has, I could fucking feel it. 

"I can't..umm I need to go" I abruptly say as I jump off the table and run literally run back to my dorm.

I don't look back.

I can't

If I did I would have drowned in the feelings and that is one line I can not cross with Grayson Bennett, he just didn't know that.