Strength (A Destiel Fanfic)

Chapter 2: Unkept Secrets

Dean laid in his bed asleep but in his mind he had a very exciting night. It had been a month since Dean and Castiel agreed upon keeping their relationship a secret and the seemed to be keeping it under wraps. Dean knew that if Sam was aware of the relationship he would've brought it up by now because Sam had always been quite nosey about Dean finally being happy. Though Dean was showing this newfound joy for life Sam was just happy for him, that he was finally happy. One way Dean and Castiel had found to have their fun without being disturbed was through Dean's dreams. Dean laid in bed gripping the covers tightly as he had a grin on his face because in his mind he and Cas we're locked in a more than loving embrace. In his mind they laid on his bed in his room but candles had been lit all around the room and the lights were off. Dean sat on top of Castiel kissing his neck, his tie had been thrown across the room and his shirt was unbuttoned down to his chest. Dean kissed down his neck and onto his chest slightly biting him. Castiel let out a shaky breath as Dean gently bit the skin of his neck. Suddenly this sexually affectionate scene ended because Dean woke up.

Dean quickly gasped jumping out of bed drenched in freezing cold water. "Morning Dean well I should say afternoon actually, cause you slept in till 3 PM Dean!" Growled Sam as Dean noticed he held a bucket. "Trust me that wasn't the first thing I tried to wake you up." Stated Sam as Dean sat on the edge of the bed running his hands through his wet hair. "You were gripping the covers pretty tight, bad dream?" Asked Sam as Dean stood throwing off his flannel and grey T-shirt he was wearing.
"Sure let's call it that." Muttered Dean as he threw on a new shirt. "Why didn't you just have Cas wake me up? He said he's got his mojo back so he could've done it with less drenching me in ice cold water." Stated Dean as he looked over at Sam.
"I would've but I haven't seen him all day." Stated Sam as he fished around in his pocket for a second. "He left a note though, can you tell me why Cas is telling you he loves you?" Asked Sam with a smirk on his face as he showed the back of the note to Dean showing that it was marked with Dean's name only.
"If it's address to me don't open it!" Barked Dean as he walked over and took it from him reading it.
Dean, Jack asked me to help him with a few things in Heaven. Will most likely be gone all day, don't worry it's nothing dangerous. Love you, Castiel.
"Dean it's fine I was just messing with you, I know you and Cas have been seeing each other." Stated Sam with a smile.
"When did you find out?" Asked Dean in a very sheepish tone.
"About three weeks ago when you were washing the car and then you and Cas started making out on the hood of it. If I'm being honest though, I always kinda knew you and Cas had a thing for each other." Stated Sam as Dean sighed.
"How?" Asked Dean as he walked over and sat on the edge of his bed.
"Well it was kinda a red light when you'd become severally depressed when Cas would die or we wouldn't know if he was ok." Stated Sam as he sat next to his brother on the bed. "Literally I was scared to let you have your gun when you'd get like that!" Stated Sam as Dean sighed.
"Yeah." Said Dean softly.
"So how are things now?" Asked Sam as he looked over at his brother.
"Honestly I'm the happiest I've ever been. Usually when I'm happy like this I'm at least a little paranoid that it's gonna get torn away from me but I'm happy Sam really happy." Stated Dean with a smile as he looked at Sam with the sheer look of joy in his eyes.
"I'm glad Dean, you really deserve some good in your life." Stated Sam softly.

While Sam and Dean had their talk Castiel was in Heaven with Jack. He was helping him with a few things that he didn't quite understand like why certain parts of Heaven were only for Angels so as the two of them walked through the forest in which Jack had created within Heaven they got to talking about other things. "So I noticed you and Dean have been seeing each other." Stated Jack as Castiel sighed but in more of a happy way like he was glad that Jack knew about them.
"I know this is probably weird for you." Stated Castiel as Jack smiled innocently.
"Not really, I always kind of called you and Dean my Dads because you three raised me but I chose you to be my father, Dean had to prove to me that he cared about me. Honestly I think he only started to trust me because you did." Stated Jack as Castiel smiled.
"Yeah, Dean's better now though." Stated Castiel as he thought of how close Jack and Dean were all because Dean finally trusted him. They talked a bit more before finally deciding that it was time they parted ways.

Castiel appeared back in the bunker seeing that the main hall was empty. "Dean!" Called Castiel as he walked down the steps. He walked down the hall and into Dean's room seeing he wasn't there. He checked Sam's room as well but he was in there asleep so Castiel didn't bother disturbing him. Finally he found Dean in the room he had decorated himself and had often called his Dean Cave. He was passed out in one of his recliners with a couple dozen beer bottles surrounding him while Scooby Doo played on the television in front of him. Castiel walked over to him and kissed the top of his head. He stepped around the bottles and sat in the second chair, he closed his eyes entering Dean's dreams. Dean had been dreaming about Castiel but it wasn't a good dream. Castiel walked through a long hall and saw Dean at the end holding him tightly, crying. "Dean?" Asked Castiel softly as he walked closer. He got close enough to place his hand on Dean's shoulder and Dean looked up at him tears running from his eyes. "Dean this is a bad dream, I'm ok." Stated Castiel as the dream version of himself disappeared and the real Castiel sat next to Dean.
"Cas! I was so worried about you!" Stated Dean as he gripped Castiel's arm tightly.
"It's alright, I'm alright." Stated Castiel as he sat next time Dean on the floor and Dean hugged him tightly as he sobbed. He held him for a while until he stopped sobbing.
"So what were you doing all day?" Asked Dean as they sat in Dean's cave in the real world as Castiel handed him a bag full of ice because he was lightly hung over and had an agonizing headache.
"I was helping Jack with a few things, things he didn't quite understand about Heaven." Stated Castiel as he sat in the chair next to him.
"Like what?" Asked Dean as he held the ice against his forehead.
"He didn't understand why some areas of Heaven were restricted to just Angels but I explained to him that there were things that only Angels could take care of in Heaven." Stated Castiel softly as to not further Dean's painful migraine.
"He may be God but he's still just a kid so I'm glad you're guiding him through all of this." Stated Dean as he smiled at Castiel.
"Of course Dean, he's the closest thing I'll ever have to a son it's my job to guide him." Said Castiel softly as he sighed thinking to himself.
"What?" Asked Dean as he saw the look on Castiel's face knowing that something was on his mind.
"It's nothing Dean just a thought." Said Castiel as Dean looked at him.
"Come on Cas, you can tell me." Stated Dean as he placed his hand on Castiel's as the angel sighed.
"Well since we started seeing each other I've been thinking that it's too bad I found my true vessel and that it was a man because if it was a woman like my previous vessel we could've had our own nephilim now that their kind isn't hunted anymore." Stated Castiel as he sighed. "But it's too early to be thinking of something like that, we've only been together a month." Stated Castiel softly as Dean shook his head.
"Cas it's fine... Honestly that is kind of a sad thought, between you and me I always kinda wanted kids." Stated Dean as he smiled taking the ice off his forehead. "But ya never know there might be a way." Stated Dean with a grin as Castiel smiled.
"Maybe."