dear ajax,
i know this sounds abit cliche but by the time you're reading this, im probably already gone.
you made my entire life much better. you were a great friend. im grateful for that. you were a loving husband. i love you for that. i could go on and on about how much i love you. you made my life better, brighter, i wouldn't change that for anything. however, if given a choice, i would like to try this entire life again.
the circumstances we met in weren't exactly great. the way we started off wasn't great either. but im glad we ended up the way we did. if given a chance, I'd have treated you better when we first met. maybe make up with diluc earlier, spent more time with klee, maybe even also spent more time with jean and lisa. get to know both of them more, same with the alchemist, albedo.
but i didn't , because of how fucked my life was before i met you. after i met you, after i got together with you, everything changed. thank you for that.
had i known this was going to happen to me, I'd have told you that i loved you more. I'd have told diluc that i treasure him as a brother alot. I'd have told jean, lisa, albedo, even, that i was grateful to have them as such great friends. I'd have told klee, that i enjoyed every single second playing with her. pass the message on to them, yeah ?
thank you.
I'd actually have told you more things. how i fell for you, you've been begging to know that, haven't you ? I'll say it now. when i first met you, actually. your eyes, hair, laugh, voice, everything. i didn't want to accept the fact that i had fallen for someone, hence the way i treated you when we first met. sorry for that. how i wish you could be here with me, during my last moments. haha, you're probably wondering what happened. i never said anything.
i got shot. thats all. some may think, oh the strong kaeya gets shot and is near death? haha, guess im not as strong as some think. well, you know how weak i am, ajax. the only person who knows. you should be honoured. ah. the bleeding is fast. I'll be quick and say i want to.
i love you ajax, thank you for everything. thank you for letting me live a life with little regrets and much happiness. when you read this, don't cry, okay? you're a strong guy. move on. im temporary to you, i want you to think that. of course at the same time i don't but hey, im dying. what's the point ? but please, i beg you. don't ever forget about me, please. you were my forever and always will be. i said it once and I'll say it again. i love you, ajax.
signed,
kaeya alberich
