Always and Forever

~ 18 ~

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A couple months had passed and Harry was now eighteen. He'd spent his eighteenth birthday sitting in a hospital bed as he blew out his candle on a sugar free cupcake, he didn't even really do that. His breathing was not good right now and he couldn't even blow out the candle. Louis had to do it for him.

Ever since he'd decided to run in gym it made him unimaginably weak and brought his oxygen levels down so low that now he had to spend a long time in the hospital. It really depressed him, he wished he could be like every other person on their eighteenth birthday. But he was stuck there, feeling more like he was eighteen hundred years old rather than just eighteen.

Harry had been laying in his bed, watching what little channels the hospital tv had when he heard a knock on the door. He'd been alone so he perked up, happy to have someone there. "Come in..." he called weakly and soon the door opened.

"Hello babe, it's me" Louis told him as he walked in holding a bag of stuff. Harry slowly pushed himself into a sitting position, turning the tv off.

"Hi Lou...what's in the bag?" He asked quietly, Louis could hear his oxygen machine running and his lungs wheezing with each breath. He hadn't come to see Harry in about a week and every time he came he got more and more upset with Harry's health.

"Just the usual, homework, a new book from the library, and I brought a board game to play" Louis said as he set the bag down and sat on the end of his bed. Harry smiled a little, happy Louis visited him but he only could come on the weekends because of school and he hadn't been in months.

"Thank you" Harry said, happy to have someone there because his mum was working and Gemma had gone back to uni so he'd been alone all day.

"Of course, how's your oxygen levels?" Louis asked as he always did. He'd been hoping they'd gotten better this time. "They're umm...better, but not to where they should be" Harry told him sadly. He knew Louis hoped for a change every time he came but he really hadn't gotten much better.

Louis sighed, looking down at Harry's hands which were pale and had a slight purplish blue tint to them. They were always freezing cold too, and all of those things were a sign of him being under oxygenated. "Well every little thing helps" Louis smiled, leaning over for a kiss.

They started kissing for a minute, Harry's cannula pressing against Louis' face but he didn't really care. Louis started to try and make out with Harry but he separated his lips off Louis', still having his forehead up against Louis' while he panted. "Lou...I can't breathe..."

Louis had his hands on Harry's cheeks, watching as his lungs were working into overdrive to fill with oxygen. He felt guilty every time this happened because he liked to kiss his boyfriend, but hated to see Harry struggling for air.

"Sorry baby" Louis mumbled as he pulled completely away from Harry, watching as he was trying hard to catch his breath.

"S'fine..." Harry wheezed, then breaking into a raspy coughing fit which didn't feel so good on his lungs.

Louis didn't know what to do so he just watched while rubbing Harry's leg. Harry coughed for a good couple minutes but then he finally caught his breath. He was pretty embarrassed about it so his cheeks were red. "Wanna play the game I brought?" Louis asked and Harry nodded softly.

With that Louis got out the game he'd brought and laid it on the bed in the middle of the two of them.

They started playing and Harry couldn't get his mind to stop racing. He couldn't help but worry if Louis was forgetting about him. Since Louis could only visit once a week it started making him scared that maybe Louis didn't find him as important and was forgetting about him. He was scared that Louis would leave again and he would have no one.

Being alone so much just made his mind go to those dark and scary places. "Wheres your mind at babe?" Louis asked when Harry had kind of zoned out.

Harry was pulled back to reality and he blushed, looking at Louis sadly. "It's really nothing..." he whispered as he looked back down at his lap. Louis frowned, knowing that wasn't true. He gently put his hand under Harry's chin and lifted it so he was looking at him. "What's wrong?"He asked, wanting the truth.

Harry sighed as he contemplated on whether or not he should tell Louis. "I was just wondering...if maybe...if maybe you uhhh..."

He was having a hard time getting out what he actually wanted to say so Louis just sat patiently. "I'm just worried...that maybe you're forgetting me? I haven't been at school for months and you only come once a week, that's okay, I just didn't want you to forget me" Harry rambled as he sat there.

Louis felt so bad, he hadn't forgotten Harry at all. "Oh love that's not the case at all...I wouldn't forget you, I can promise you that. And I know you haven't been at school, I've missed you there so much. Every day I wish I could be here but I just can't...school gets so busy, I have to work, and my mum needs a lot of help with my siblings. I'm so sorry if it makes you feel like I don't care about you" Louis told him, grabbing his hand and kissing it.

Harry smiled sadly, tears forming in his eyes. "I promise I don't forget about you...I'm sorry I can't come see you as often as I would like. What if maybe I call and talk to you on the phone every day? That way if I can't be here we can still talk?" Louis asked, not wanting Harry to feel like this.

"I really like that idea...thank you Lou..." Harry whispered, smiling a bit through his tears.

Louis smiled back, leaning forward and kissing his forehead lovingly. "Great love, now. I'm thinking it's cuddle time which a movie on my laptop?" Louis offered and Harry immediately nodded. He was super sick so sometimes this was all they could do but Harry really loved cuddling.

Louis put the board game away, replacing it with his laptop as they cuddled up watching a movie. Louis had his arms protectively around Harry, who was so grateful Louis hadn't forgotten him.

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This was written by darlingharry3 !!