Chapter 18

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Hello Guys! I was bored and I had nothing else to do than stare at the wall like a weirdo and then a thought came to my mind! What if, just what if, what if Zayn was actually reading this story!!!! :O OMMMMMGGGG I HYPERVENTILATE JUST THINKING OF IT. MY HEART IS POUNDING RIGHT NOW. Ok anyway, that's just a what if. Or one of you IS really him! OMG IF YOU'RE READING THIS RIGHT NOW ZAYN, JUST KNOW THAT I DONT MEAN FOR YOU TO BE A BUTTHOLE! ITS JUST YOUR CHARACTER! =)))) I LOVE YOU. Ok anway. 

Enjoy!

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LOUIS' P.O.V 

"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!" I shouted as I burst into Zayn's room. 

"HOLY SHI- Louis? HOW DID YOU GET IN HERE? My parents arent here!" He said, startled. 

"I know where you keep your spare key." I replied. "But that's not what I came here for. WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH YOU!" 

"STOP SHOUTING!" He commanded. 

"I WILL NOT STOP SHOUTING BECAUSE I AM REALLY MAD AT YOU RIGHT NOW YOU FREAKING IDIOT!" I disobeyed. 

"THEN IF YOU WONT STOP SHOUTING, ATLEAST TELL ME WHY YOU CAME HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE!" He shouted back. 

"Well, first I want you to explain why you were a huge ASSHOLE to Steph!" I got to the point. 

"Why do you care about that? And, HELLO! I was being a good friend to you! After a break up, when the girl goes to the guy's best friend, its obvious that she wants to hook up! So, excuse me for being a good BEST FREIND!" I said. 

"You fucking moron! You didnt let her speak didnt you?!" Now I was furious. 

"DONT YOU DARE CALL ME THAT! After all I've done for you!" He shouted.

"After all you've done for me? Oh let me see! You love my girlfriend, you bully her and say idiotic false statements about her, and now you broke us up!" I pointed out. I actually wanted to punch him where it hurt, but I kept my hands open.

"WHAT THE HELL! I DIDNT BREAK YOU TWO UP! AND WHERE DID YOU GET THAT!" He shouted.

"I was there when you poured out all your "precious" feelings for her on Valentine's Day!" I said.

"SHIT! You werent suppose to see that." He said, looking guilty.

"YEAH? WELL I DID! AND DID YOU KNOW WHAT I DID ZAYN? I DID SOMETHING FOR YOU TOO! BUT I THINK THIS ONE IS FUCKING BETTER THAN ALL THE SO CALLED "FAVORS" YOU'VE DONE FOR ME! AND YOU KNOW, THIS FAVOR FUCKING HURT ME SO BADLY." I burst out. 

"What did you do then!" He shouted. 

"I WAS ALREADY GOING TO TELL HER I LOVED HER, BUT NO! I HAD DOUBTS BECAUSE I SAW HOW YOU WERE SO EMOTIONAL ABOUT HER. I'VE KNOWN YOU SINCE WE'VE BEEN KIDS, AND I KNOW THAT YOU DONT DO THAT TO OTHER GIRLS ZAYN. I HAD TO THINK LONG AND HARD BEFORE I FINALLY LET HER CHOOSE BETWEEN ME OR YOU! AND I DIDNT HOLD HER BACK WITH HER DECISION! I EVEN SUPPORTED HER. NOW, I GOT A CALL FROM HER SAYING THAT SHE NEVER WANTS TO SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN BECAUSE YOU DIDNT LET HER SAY WHAT SHE WAS FINALLY GOING TO SAY TO YOU! YOU HURT HER SO MUCH. SO NOW YOU'LL NEVER HEAR IT FROM HER BECAUSE SHE HATES YOU! AND I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW TOO!" After shouting this, I took a deep breath and sat down because that speech tired me. 

"WHAT! WHAT WAS SHE GOING TO TELL ME?" He cried. 

"UGH! THAT SHE LOVES YOU BACK YOU IDIOT! YOU ARE SO EFFING STUPID!" I burst out. 

He then stopped and he sat back down on his bed. 

"You mean she-she l-loves me back?" He stuttered. 

"Yes! I just said that!" I shouted but it wasn't as loud as the shouts awhile ago. 

"She was going to tell me that she loves me and I didnt let her talk! ZAYN! YOU STUPID FUCKING ASSHOLE!" He shouted to himself. 

"Yeah you are, and you better fix it soon, or I swear I will rip your head off once I get the chance Zayn." I said then slammed his bedroom door shut. 

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ZAYN'S P.O.V 

"IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT!" Is what I said to myself over and over again. When Louis left, all the tears started to fall down from my eyes. 

Everything is my fault! Now I have nothing. Steph hates me, Louis hates me, Marianne probably hates me too, and Niall, Harry and Liam too. Along with Mira and Raphie.

I've hurt a lot of people already. My pride overpowered me when I said "After all I've done for you" to Louis. Obviously, he had made a lot of sacrifices for me. I feel like such a Jackass right now. I've been an ass to everybody. 

A lot has been damaged.  I've been damaged. I once thought that I could really quit my bullying ways, but I guess it was harder than I thought. The saddest part of all of this, is that I do not know how to make it all better.

What have I done? 

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SHORT CHAPTER :(( Sorry, I just quickly made this so I wouldnt leave you guys hanging. This is probably (R) already. Yeah, I'm sorry if you feel uncomfortable with the words. I am too. Just a little. I was actually pouring out all my anger for school here so yeah haha. 

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