Gangland 3 [L.T.]

Whispers

Whispers
[wis-perz]

1. Talking softly

2. Talking quietly

3. To spread secrets

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Songs for the Chapter:

Best Of You - Foo Fighters
Crazy In Love - Beyoncé (fifty shades of grey remix)
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I wake up, back aching from sleeping on the couch.

"Ah!" I scream, Leo is sitting on the coffee table in front of me

"You scared the shit out of me!" I gasp, sitting up and rubbing my eyes

"What's this?" He asks holding up the bottle of empty wine with the bottle of empty jack and the half empty bottle of vodka.

"Wine, jack and vodka?" I answer

"That says 'For Love'? With two glasses lying beside it. You couldn't have drank it all yourself." Leo sighs

"Louis came over to talk to me but I promise nothing happened. He only had one glass of wine and then I told him to leave. I drank the jack after he left and I had the vodka before he was even here." I explain myself

"I trust you." He tells me

"You do?" I ask

He takes my hand in his, "Yes, I trust you Harley."

I smile at him, but guilt eats it's way up my throat. Literally.

I grab my mouth, running to the bathroom and throwing up in the white toilet.

I feel Leo come up behind me, holding my hair back as I repeatedly throw up the alcohol left in my stomach. I only throw up on a hangover if I drink too much jack... And last night I drank an entire bottle.

My puke finally ceases, I stand up and brush my teeth then sit down on the tile floor.

Leo sits next to me.

We're silent, which is nice because I can think.

The last time someone told me they trusted me was Harry, four months ago in that hotel room. He shouldn't have trusted me though, I didn't even trust myself. I still don't trust myself, not around Louis anyway. There's no excuse for it, not at all, but with Louis I just cannot control the frustration I have with him. It's not entirely a sexual frustration, it's more of an emotional one. I crave his attention, his presence, his care, his mind, him in general. I crave him like no other.

"If Louis wouldn't have been snorting that night when you two split up, would you still be with him?" Leo asks

"I don't know. Louis and I were always complicated, we never knew what the hell we wanted. We weren't stable in any way. I'm sure we'd still be going back and forth if I wouldn't have caught him."

Little does Leo know, Louis and I are still going back and forth. Even after four months of silence and growth neither of us have grown up or shut up one bit.

"Did you love him?" Leo asks

I shake my head and laugh, "The only man I'll ever love is Doc. And I love him as family."

"What if that's not enough for me Harley?" Leo questions suddenly

"What do you mean?"

"Harley, I've never loved someone as much as I love you. And I can't be with someone who will never love me back."

"Y-you love me?"

He laughs, "Yeah, it's completely insane but I do. I have, the first time I saw you I knew I wanted you."