Hyperventilated

Chapter 16 - Him Again

'The RAF Become Older' Group Chat

Anne | 10.12 am

Please, guys

I wanna meet both of you

Raja | 10.29 am

*Seen*

Farah | 10.45 am

*Seen*

Anne | 11.03 am

I'm sorry for everything...

Don't just seen me, please...

I'm so sorry, really

Guys...

Anne tries pleading as she wants to meet them but they refuse. No, no and no. Rigorously nay! They are afraid that she will harm them especially Raja. She pretty much got trauma but was heedful with what she saw and count on it. She thought if she, unfortunately, swallowed the nail. God, this is chilling. Only God knows what would happen. 

Behind Anne, she was in dilemma but when she saw her photos or face to face, her temper got the best of her, meanwhile, Anne thought at least Farah will talk to her but sadly no. Not her too. She is at a loss for words. Wants to sob. Wants to harm herself. Wants to ask for help. But people around her(online friends, cousins and classmates) did not perceive what she desired excluded her parents and siblings. 

"That's just temporary. Small problem. They'll come to you next week. Believe me" She wants to believe this but... 

"You really did that? What the???" A few did not even lend their ears while scrolling on their phones. 

"Just find other friends la. There's a lot out there. Don't pity them. You're too nice la" Harshly said by them social butterfly.

Ting! Ting! Ting! Ting! Ting!

Raja | 12.12 am

Listen, b*tch!

Neither today nor tomorrow until we are ready to meet you

And I already told you yesterday, right?

Not to disturb us and this is not a good time for us to meet you

Just stop sending messages and spamming, murderer!

She already asked them for forgiveness yet they kind of despise her. It was not her doing at all. She was innocent. She had tried to apologise ever since Raja confronted her yesterday night when she was peacefully studying for an exam. Her parents and siblings were asleep so they did not know there was a confrontation. 

She had no idea where to locate the proof. All these things that occurred made her somewhat disquietude and full of foreboding feelings. She was enervated of weeping in silence. Having to withhold those sentiments made her agonize living through perturbation to this day and hiding them from others. No one gave her the help she needs yet got toxic positivity words in lieu.

She does know what to do and seems to be pensive in her mind since early morning. Not having any proof to show them also made her more miserable than she is now. She got no control over it as she nearly gives up. The moment Raja accused her and Farah did not back her up is such a terrible encounter she ever had. A severe one. 

They are the only ones who understand her. Feel fearful thinking how far distant they will become even though the troubles are small. Yet things behind them were concealed as she did not know they would become this big. A teardrop starts rolling down her cheek, thinking why she is this weak in connection with any relationship. 'Please stop weeping' She thought, shutting her eyes, trying to think about her final exam and go to the bog showering before the third exam later. 'You got several papers left. Bear it for your future. You aren't weak'