Be My Date!? (Bucky x Y/n reader)

2 Days left (III)

"You are sure right!?" Dot scoffed.

Just then Steve entered, trying and failing to hide his excitement, then looking at you and him and Dot with a raised eyebrows.

"Nah! It was nothing" you said trying to sound like you, but you do not know yourself anymore, Dot nodded looking at Bucky with narrowed eyes.

"Hey Liam will give you a lift tomorrow, he had just called" Steve said showing you your phone which you had placed on the table near the door while opening your shoes and forgotten. 

He continued "and Bucky I was..." and stopped in the middle of his statement when his best friend decided to storm out of the room without looking at anyone or anything, without saying a word or showing any emotions.

Dot left too avoiding any eye contact after giving a mean look. Steve had a confused look and went to ask something but you took your phone and shut Steve out saying you wanted some rest, refusing to hear or answer anything.

You turn and slide down the door, sitting with your feet clutched over your chest as you lost control of your emotions. Wild tears running down your face. You swallowing the lump in your throat, sobbing silently and gasping for breath in between sobs. 

You sat there without any sound as your body shook continuously and you had no tears left to cry.  

This can't be. You can' be in love...with him, if it was love. He is the same Bucky who hates you, who you hate or hated. You both despised each other, annoyed each other...maybe just maybe you are feeling different but him...? He...it will break your heart to hear him say what you fear. He might just mock at you or... 

You made your mind, this cannot happen, you can't be so distressed, you can't, not when everything was finally coming together. You won't ruin anything for anyone, tomorrow is the last day anyway then you both will have no reason to see each other, ever again...ever again.

You don't know how hard you tried and yet failed, there you were lying on your bed, hot tears streaming down your eyes, you struggling to breathe, to find any peace.

You wanted to leave and just run away. You can run from the world but not yourself. 

You tried to avoid leaving your room but to act normal you went down the hall and  had your dinner in silence. Refusing to talk about it to Steve. Bucky was not there, nowhere.

"Hey cookie, you didn't wike it?" Steve said looking at your almost untouched plate of food.

"No it's good, better than your half burnt pizza" you said putting on a fake smile, finally looking up at him.

"Hey it's okay" Steve said looking at you with a smile. He got up and engulphed you in a harm hug which you very much needed.

You hugged him back tightly saying "Thanks for always being there for me Stevie. Thank you for being in my life."

"I should me the thankful one sweetie" Steve said caressing your hair gently.

It was eating Steve, what could happen all of a sudden that would change this much. You were not you anymore and Bucky, Bucky was like a stranger, a ghost. No feelings no nothing, Steve thought. He knew that you're lying about you puffy eyes and broken state, saying that you're missing your sister and your family, but respected you choice of not telling him if you didn't want to. He would wait and break but never force you to do something you are not comfortable doing, no matter if it kills him from inside. About Bucky he had no clue, Bucky just shut him or anyone out as it seemed for he just vanished and switched off his phone. 

"I'm off to bed" You say picking up your plate and walking to the sink.

"No movie night? Come on you promised" Steve said carefully trying and knowing what he was doing.

"Only so you don't cry" you said looking at you bestie's best puppy eyes he pulled off. Also, it will help to distract you and not think about that particular someone.

20 minutes into watching Moana you fell asleep. Steve carefully put you in your bed, kissing you forehead with a sad smile before pulling the duvet over you and turning off the light and leaving.