UNKNOWINGLY

COLLISION

IN OUR COLLISION, I STARTED TO THINK OUR TRAJECTORIES WERE DIFFERENT. YOU MET ME JUST AS A EVENT WITH ZERO PROBABILITY. WE WERE NEVER MEANT TO MEET EACH OTHER LIKE THAT. ON THAT DAY WHEN THE TEACHER ASKED ABOUT YOUR SKIN MARKS, YOU COULD HAVE ANSWERED HIM WITH A EXCUSE. JUST LIKE YOU DID TO OTHERS. YOU WOULD HAVE ENDED IT ALL THERE BUT SUDDENLY YOU FLIPPED, YOU LOOKED AT ME WITH THOSE NEEDY EYES, THE FACE THAT EXPRESSES UNCOMFORT AND NEED HELP, AND THIS ANNOYING ITERATION OF ME HELPING PEOPLE STARTS, I DON'T KNOW WHY I EVEN TRIED TO HELP YOU, EVEN AFTER KNOWING WHAT YOU DID WAS WRONG AND AGAINST THE SCHOOL REGULATION? I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAS GOTTEN INTO ME, I STARTED TO EXPLAIN YOUR SITUATION TO THE TEACHER LIKE ITS MY OWN. I PROCEEDED BY HOW YOU GOT YOURSELF INTO AN ACCIDENT AND YOU BRUISED YOUR ARM AND YOUR SHOULDER IS A LITTLE BIT DISLOCATED AS WELL. I KNOW IT WAS ALL A LIE BUT I JUST KEEP ON MAKING A STORY, I DON'T KNOW FROM WHAT I AM PROTECTING YOU! EVEN YOU WERE LOOKING AT ME LIKE I WAS POSSESSED AND THEN THE TEACHER ASKED HOW DO I KNOW ALL THIS? I LIED AGAIN LIKE I WAS MEANT TO SAVE YOU LIKE I AM SUPPOSED TO PROTECT YOU. I ANSWERED BY I WAS ON THE SAME STREET WITH MY PARENTS WHEN YOU GOT AN ACCIDENT.

AS THE INTERROGATION ENDED, I RUSHED TO THE RESTROOM, I THINK AND THINK AGAIN WHY DID I LIE? WHAT I WAS TRYING TO DO? THE BELL RANG AND LUNCH BEGAN. YOU CAME TO MY DESK AND ASKED LIKE ANYONE WOULD ASK "WHY DID YOU SAVE ME?".I ANSWERED AS BLUNTLY AS I COULD"I DON'T KNOW, WELL YOU SHOULD BE THANKFUL".TO BE HONEST I DON'T KNOW WHY? I WAS CONFUSED. FOR SOME TIME YOU STAYED ON MY DESK, WITHOUT SAYING A WORD AND JUST STARING AT ME. THOSE STARES WERE ASKING ME MANY QUESTIONS THAT I COULDN'T ANSWER. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO CONVINCE YOU TO BELIEVE ME THAT I DON'T KNOW WHY I SAVE YOU? AFTER SOME TIME YOU WALKED AWAY. THAT IS HOW OUR FIRST COLLISION ENDS.

IS THIS THE END, NO !! IT IS STARTING OF HOW I MET A DISASTER THAT CHANGE ME COMPLETELY.

YOU WERE THAT DISASTER. ON THE SAME DAY WHEN I SAVE YOU, YOU MET ME ONCE AGAIN, YOU MET ME IN FRONT OF THE BUS. YOU CAME OVER TO THANK ME. IT FELT GOOD AND THEN I SUDDENLY HOLD YOUR HAND AND TAKE A CLOSER LOOK AT YOUR WOUND. THEY WERE PRETTY HUGE AND SHARP. I DON'T KNOW WHY I HOLD YOUR HAND? I JUST WANT TO COMFORT YOU, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM HERE NO MATTER WHAT. EVEN IF NO ONE IS GOING TO STAND WITH YOU, I WILL. I JUST WANT YOU TO FEEL SECURE. I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU.

THEN YOU ASK ME A QUESTION WHICH I PROBABLY SHOULDN'T ANSWER BUT I DID. YOU MOVED A LITTLE CLOSE TO ME AND POLITELY ASKED"YOU CARE ABOUT ME?".I SUDDENLY ANSWERED, "OF COURSE, WE ARE ALL HUMANS, IT IS IN OUR NATURE".YOU SUDDENLY SMILED, IT WAS PROBABLY YOUR FIRST SMILE OF THE DAY AND THEN YOU WALKED AWAY. I JUST STOOD THERE LOOKING AT YOU LIKE I WAS WAITING FOR YOU TO LOOK BACK. I DON'T KNOW WHY?