tw: cursing
honestly, rn, i feel like people just ignore me.
peeps be constantly yelling at home and people online just wanna brew up some fucking drama online or some shit like istg. stop. all i want is just ONE NORMAL DAY. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?! IS IT?!?!
and honestly, exams are such a pain in the ass. like bruh i'm going through depression lololol you can't expect me to study like five chaps per day lmaooo
but life sucks and at this point ngl dying doesn't feel like such a bad idea XD
people always say i've "been through nothing"
well, i'm sorry. i didn't know almost being shipped off to the other side of the world was nothing. i didn't know having an abusive step-dad was nothing. i didn't know being depressed was nothing. i didn't know having trust issues in a boarding school was nothing. i didn't know having to fucking change myself for the world was nothing.
honestly, i don't even know why i bother anymore. it's not like people care about me. it's not like i have fake toxic irl friends. it's not like i'm the loner at school. it's not like life always sucks.
r-reputaytion i'm sorry if this triggers.
