Mr. Stan: Secret Relationship

7: Too Many Decisions

The next few days felt like a lucid dream. You couldn't get over what had happened between you and Sebastian. You just hoped it didn't ruin your friendship with him, that you could still go to him for anything and not just to sleep together. Class was odd, sitting in a room with fifty other people while watching Sebastian talk about Shakespeare and knowing what was under his tight blue button down shirts made it near impossible to focus on anything.

Your roommates where no help either. Chelsie was constantly asking you about Sebastian, even at times she shouldn't have been. As for Mindy, she was still not completely on board with the idea that you were sneaking around with your drama teacher. Jenifer found out through Chelsie even though you begged both Chelsie and Mindy not to say anything, Chelsie wasn't known to keep her mouth shut that well. Jen wasn't mad, she was almost disappointed. She used her own predicament to make you feel bad for your actions." You could get pregnant, and if anyone found out it was his kid you could both be in big trouble." She told you repeatedly. But that didn't stop you from seeing him almost every night.

You did end up going and seeing him after your first night together, and many more after that, you couldn't get enough of each other. Part of you was grateful you and Sebastian started to see one another as more then friends but the other side of you was still scared of the fact you were sneaking around with your teacher. Sure, you were doing it out side of school grounds but it still bothered you every day when you walked into class and saw him. It was something you needed to talk to him about but the fear of loosing him was starting to take over, and you hated it.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck." You whispered as you paced your room.' I'm not pregnant, I'm not pregnant.' You repeated over and over in your head." My period is just late, I've never been worried about this before, it'll be fine." You reassured yourself. You sat down on your bed and looked at your calendar for the hundredth time." It should start today." You felt instant regret and guilt fill you as you thought back to all the nights you and Sebastian had spent together.' I didn't miss any of my birth control, those aren't always reliable though. Sebastian? No, he doesn't have anything to do with this, we where careful.' You groaned and laid back on your bed.

"What's your problem?" Mindy asked, walking in with Sushi in her arms." Nothing, just stressed out over this audition." She raised an eyebrow at you at first then she smiled." Who are you wanting to audition for?" " Christine Daae, or anyone at this point." Sushi hopped onto your stomach making you groan, then you sat up and ran to the bathroom." What's wrong with you?" Mindy asked as she picked Sushi up off the floor where she had been dumped." Yes!" You rejoiced." What?" Mindy asked." My period came!" Mindys smile fell at your exclamation." Were you worried it wouldn't have?" You walked back out of the bathroom after getting a tampon in you." Yes, and no." Mindy crossed her arms and gave you the mom look." You need to be careful." " We are, you don't need to worry, it's not like we forget to use protection." " Then why where you so concerned about your period?" "Wouldn't you be if it didn't come when it was supposed to?" Mindy sighed but didn't move." This is going to come back to bite you in the ass at some point." You rolled your eyes before taking Sushi from her." I'm sure it won't. I'll be fine." Mindy nodded and slowly backed up towards your door." If you get pregnant with his kid I'm naming it." You laughed at her." Fine, but it won't happen."

It was around noon when you walked into Sebastian's class room, ready for your audition but still fearing you wouldn't get the part." Hey." Sebastian said as you walked in." Hi." You said back, walking over to him. You wanted to hug him but soon pushed the thought away when your old Drama teacher, Ms. Naillon, walked over to you as well." I didn't expect to see you here again." You smiled, shaking her hand." Well, Sebastian, or sorry, Mr. Stan asked me to be his second opinion on the casting for this opera." You nodded and looked at Sebastian, giving him a small smile." Shall we get started then, I think everyone is here." You didn't even notice that there where lots of other people in the room, most of them practicing and warming up for their parts.

You found a seat and took out the script Sebastian had given you a week ago. You had been reading it like mad for days, practicing to Mindy and Chelsie even though you could tell they were tired of hearing you sing opera all the time. You were mentally rehearsing the lines in your head when a guy sat down next to you." What part are you auditioning for?" He whispered." Christine, and you?" " The Phantom, or Roul, which ever I get." You smiled and looked over at him." I'm Y/N by the way." " Landon, it's nice to meet you." You shook his hand and went back to reading your script." If everyone would please go back stage we can start the auditions." Sebastian announced. You got up from your seat with Landon not far behind you." Good luck everyone." He smiled, looking at you as you passed by him. He mouthed a good luck and you just smiled back.

The first people to go up on the stage where all the men who where wanting to audition for the roll of The Phantom and the other main male rolls. Then it was the dancers, then the women who were auditions for the main girl rolls. When it was your turn Landon came up to you and gave you some words of encouragement." Thanks. I needed that." He nodded and smiled." Go get them." You walked up on the stage and took in a deep breath. Sebastian looked up from his paper and smiled when he saw you, he was seated next to Ms. Naillon who was sipping on her tea." I'm Y/N Y/L/N and I'm auditioning for the roll of Christine Daae."

After you sang the song they had asked you to and had done some of the other acting parts they had one of the men who auditioned for The Phantom to come up and say some lines with you. And if you could believe it Landon came walking up onto the stage. You couldn't get away from him as it seemed. You both read over the parts Sebastian had asked you to then started acting the scene out. Sebastian had the biggest smile on his face as he watched you change into the roll of Christine, it was amazing.

You were both excused off the stage after your amazing performance." Gosh that was fun." You breathed out as Landon agreed." Yeah it was, you where amazing." You blushed but quickly hid it with your hand." Thanks, you too." He nodded and walked off as you stood there. You felt instant guilt in the way you two had just interacted, you weren't cheating on Sebastian by just talking to him but it felt like it. You packed your things up quickly after all the auditioning was finished and headed back to your dorm. The list of people that would get the rolls for the play would be posted on the board outside of the class so all you could do now was wait.

"I think we have our Christine and Phantom." Sebastian nodded in agreement." I think we do." Ms. Naillon wrote down a few names before looking over at Sebastian." Can I ask you a question?" She suddenly asked." Sure." Sebastian said back, hesitation in his words." Y/N, is she a good student?" He frowned at her for a moment, trying to determine what her question really meant." Well yes, she is, I haven't had any trouble with her." She nodded back." And you haven't had any problems with anyone?" Sebastian sat back in his chair." No, may I ask why your asking me these questions?" " Yes you can. When I retired for acting and became the teacher here, over the years I have seen many fine young people come across my path wanting to become actors or actresses. In the years I've been her only a hand full have actually proceeded to become actors. Y/N reminds me of all of them. I just hope she doesn't mess it up like most of them do. I believe she has the potential to be a very amazing person through her talent of acting." Sebastian nodded." She does have an amazing talent, and I agree with you on that." Ms. Naillon smiled and looked down at her paper." So, are you sure you want her as Meg, and not Christine?" Sebastian asked." I'll let you decide that, I was just here as a second opinion, you can choose this one."

Sebastian was pacing in his living room as he looked down at the cast list he and Ms. Naillon had put together. He didn't want to put you in the roll of Christine just because the relationship the two of you had, but he also didn't want to disappoint you." Why is this so hard?" He groaned in frustration. His phone pinging from his back pocket, making him look away from the list. He pulled it out and smiled down at the text from you.

'Still set for dinner?'

He sat down on his couch and texted you back.

'Yep, seven thirty sound good?

'Sounds good to me'
'See you then'

Sebastian sighed and rubbed a hand over his face. He was still fighting himself over your roll in the play, but he decided he would deal with that tomorrow, right now he has a date to get ready for.