Ruins of Our Love #wattys2015

Chapter 17

"Rise and shine Sleeping Beauty!!" Leeya shakes my shoulders awake. I groan. This is most definitely the worst way to wake up.

"Oh for goodness sake Alexa, you have only 3 hours to get ready for your wedding!" Leeya bursts again.

I jolt awake at her words. Its my wedding day. Am I suppose to feel happy? I feel rather empty. Almost to the point of sorrow. I don't feel the spark of excitement or happiness brides are supposed to feel.

I calm myself down. Telling myself to hold on. Just a little while longer. I dunno why I bother to lie to myself that this sorrow and ruins are only temporary when I always end up let down and hurt.

I head to the bathroom to shower. I was in there a long time. I needed to shave. But I was mostly in there calming myself down at he thought of my wedding night with a man I barely know and do not love. What if he is not gentle? What if he asks about my past? Its a chaotic mess.

After about half an hour in there Leeya knocks on my door asking me to hurry up. Since she has to do my hair and make up.

When I get out in my robe, I hear people talking outside. Leeya has arranged for all the ladies' hair and makeup to be done at her place. So we had stylists and make up artists coming in. The guests outside, I assume its my mother,sister,mother in law and my bridesmaids.

I decided to invite my former high school friends as my bridesmaids. There is Fionna,who is a true 5SOS fan. Serena,a KPOP fan and there is also Dina who has the voice of an angel and is practically a favorite singer on Youtube. And of course, being my sister,Grace is one of my bridesmaids.

Fi,or fionna was practically squealing at how excited she is. She has always been the cheery one. Serena and Dina were hugging me congratulations. I simply smiled at them. They then head to my bedroom to get ready.

My mother, my mother in law and Grace were in one of Leeya's guest bedrooms. I gave each one of them a hug. Grace smiled at me apologetically. I smiled back. My mother said,"You're gonna be just fine as a wife" I mumbled my thanks. We are still stiff with each other. Catherine, my mother in law welcomes me to her family and jokes about grandchildren. I think Catherine will be nice to me and civil at least.

After the small talk,Leeya drags me to her bedroom. She and I will be spending our last few moments as two single best friends together. As I promised years ago, Leeya will be doing my bridal look. I put on my lacy white bra and underwear I just bought from Victoria Secret. I wore the stockings and garter belt too.

For the wedding and honeymoon,Stephan had Leeya to make sure that I have enough clothing. Including sexy innerwear. I already have my own stash but they are too closely related to Daniel. I don't think I will open that lingerie drawer of mine again.

"You make a beautiful bride,Alexa" Leeya compliments once she finishes. Her eyes tearing up, "It feels like a dream. Gosh,feels like just yesterday you and I were playing dressup in my bedroom."

I give her a smile. Her words getting to me,I start to tear up as well. "Thank you for always being there for me ya" I hug her tight.

"Same here,Lexie. Now stop crying. You will ruin your make up!" I laugh and I let her help me into my wedding dress. And I stood back to admire my look. Involuntarily,last night's dream came haunting..

"I wish I could see you in a wedding dress. On our wedding" Daniels states as we take a walk in the park.

I smile at him,"You will.. one day."

"Not if your parents forbid us to marry." Daniel says gloomily.

"They will most definitely accept us. "I say confidently,though I am still unsure myself.

"But Alexa, they didn't. And here you are, wearing a gown that is not for me." Daniel's words are harsh and cuts me deep. I hurt him enough, I have to live on. That way he can be happy and forget about.

"Alexa!! Earth to Lexie!!" Leeya is calling me. "What's wrong?" She asks.

I smile at her,controlling my emotions,"Nothing. Let's do this." We both exit the room hand-in-hand.

Once we reached the living room,everyone oooh-ed and aah-ed at me. My bridesmaids squealing. My mother dabbed her eyes from tearing up. She hugged me saying I look beautiful. I gave them all my best smile,perfectly masking my anxiety underneath.

"Well we don't want to keep your husband-to-be waiting now,do we? Let's go." Catherine ushers us out of the house.

Before I knew it,I am waiting behind the doors for my father before walking down the aisle. The bridesmaids already walking in holding the bouquet of small white lilies. I,myself am holding a bouquet of pink lily. My favorite flower.

"Oh,my dear. You look beautiful." A voice says behind me,which I recognize to be my father's.

"Thank you." I smile at him. I have been doing a lot of smiling. But they are never real.

"Thank you for agreeing to marry Stephan. He will be a good husband for you. I can set my heart at ease," my father says. I forced a smile on my face,trying not to remember the pain.

"Okay,its time." I held on to my father's elbow,took a deep breath,put in on another smile and walked down the aisle. The place is decorated beautifully,I must praise the wedding planner. And leeya,of course. Ahead I saw a well-dressed,handsome blue-eyed man looking at me with an excited smile. Stephan is heart-stoppingly handsome. I have to admit it.

My father gives me a kiss on the cheek and hands me over to Stephan, saying;"Take care of her,"

"I intend to." Stephan replies. Holding my hand as we say our vows. I have to kiss him! Didn't thought of that!

As the minister announces us husband and wife,Stephan leans in to kiss me. His lips mold mine in a soft and gentle kiss. A kiss seals the deal. You are his now. To do with as he pleases. My subconscious sneers.

"You look breathtaking,love" Stephan says after he lets me go. I blush at his words. And the audience stands up and claps. My mother is tearing up again. Leeya is smiling though there is this look in her eyes.

We all head to the reception. Leeya,being the MC welcomes Stephan and I,"Ladies and gentlemen,Mr and Mrs Grant." Her words shook me,reality washes over.

Mrs Grant. That is who I am. Another mask,Lexie.

Heyyo! So the next chapter.. reception and um.. wedding night,I guess?? I have no idea whether I am gonna write explicit scenes. But we'll see XD In the meantime,if you have any ideas,feel free to message or comment.

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P.S. That is their wedding altar!! Like her dress,its with cherry blossoms! :D