If only (Mattheo X Y/n)

~C H A P T E R V I~

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(2:30 AM)

I rolled around in my bed forwards and backwards, pulling my soft bed sheets over my head as i let out a loud earthy grown. It was one of those nights. One where no matter how hard you wanted to, you just couldn't sleep!
"For the love of fucking god, sleeeeepppp y/nnn"
I cried throwing the pillow over my head applying force to it with annoyance. I knew i had a busy day tomorrow making me that much more adamant to get some sleep as i had a big project to do with Mattheo- although i had no idea what it was we were doing.
I had arranged to meet up with Hermione and Ace that morning. Yes. Hermione Granger. I wanted to say sooner that we were friends, pretty close friends in fact, but being seen with a Gryffindor and Ravenclaw would ruin my rep. To be honest, sometimes they're nicer to talk to then Pancy, Draco and Blaise, they listen more and don't judge.
But anyways...back to the fact that i need sleep! 

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(3:45 AM)

"Why can't you sleepppp you idiotic prick"
I wined sitting up in bed, roughly throwing my head into my hands. At this point tears were forming in my eyes with utter stress. That was it, my mind was made that i would not sleep for the rest of that night.
I made my way to the bathroom connected to my dorm room. Pansy was staying at her friend's dorm so i didn't worry about disturbing anyone. As i splashed my face with cold water a sharp throbbing pain dug into my lower abdomen.
"Ow ow ow"
I breathed hugging my waist tightly with one arm whilst the other was leaning against the sink keeping me up.
"Fuck"
I muttered. I knew what that familiar feeling was the second it started. My period.

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(7:30 AM)

Leaky Cauldron. My favourite place to get my favourite drink with my favourite people. That being butter beer, Ace and Mione. But you can't tell anyone that! Hence it being so early in the morning so no one sees us. A Slytherin, Gryffindor and Ravenclaw as close friends would be the talk of the school for years and i don't really love being centre of attention.

"So Y/n, who was that boy you were talking to earlier?"
Hermione asked, intrigue striking in her voice as she took another sip of her butter beer leaving a cream moustache resulting in a laugh from Ace and i.
"Oh, umm, his names Mattheo, i'm helping him with a project"
I soon replied playing with my fingers hoping they wouldn't judge me for spending time with the dark Lords son.
"Yeah, project"
Ace murmured, raising his eye brows clearly amused by himself. Hermione looked at me laughing not taking what he had said seriously. Thank fuck.
"Oh my...shut it Ace! It is a project!"
I hissed with a sarcastic smile. Let's just hope he was joking.
"Okay, well just make sure you tell us how it goes"
Mione broke out, flashing a warm yet playful smirk.
"Guys, it's not a date"
I reassured, my face turning to a more serious look but keeping the fun vibe still plastered on.
"I need to go now anyway, project n all"
"Okay..."
With that, Ace gulped the left over butter beer from my glass down leaving me and Mione in a triumph of laughter.
"What are you doing? You hate butter beer!"
My words came out uneasy between laughter before his nose scrunched up tightly with disgust and gags escaped his mouth.
I've never seen Hermione laugh this much.

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(9:45 AM)

I made my way To Mattheo's dorm where we had agreed to meet and complete the assignment.
It wasn't far to go at all as the boys dorms were in the opposite side of the common room.
"Hey"
I spoke as he opened the door, showing me a warming smile.
His dorm was so much bigger than mine! Than anyones for that matter!
"Hey, thanks for doing this with me, i probably couldn't have by myself"
A hot red plastered onto his cheeks as a small laugh escaped his mouth.
I stepped inside his dorm room that was the replica of a rich pent house and took a seat at his desk chair as he flopped down onto his bed, lying on his belly playing with a quilt in his hand.
"So what is the assignment exactly?"
I questioned sort of embarrassed that i hadn't known what it was.
"We have to write 5,000 words about how important it is to know advanced spells."
The brunette spoke, imitating the professors last few words earning a giggle from me in response.

A few hours went past and we had written a total of 50 words. Wow. We both really suck at this.
Before anything else could be written or even thought, a pounding knock was released onto the large wooden door causing Mattheo to jump up and immediately go to open it.
As he pulled open the door a familiar face was revealed through the crack of the frame.
Blaise.
"Hey bro, what's u-"
The boy started before being rudely interrupted by the dorm room owner.
"What"
Mattheo groaned in a bored sense as Blaise scoffed unsurprised.
"Dumbledore wants all students in the great hall"
Both boys discussed Dumbledore's request before the messenger had walked away and Mattheo returned back inside the dorm wondering over to me.

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Mattheo Pov

I told Y/n what the wanna be popular boy had said and obviously couldn't help myself but add in some kind of seductive phrase.
"Until next time"
I winked at the y/h/c teen as she stood up from my desk chair. I'm surprised i asked her here rather then the library or something. I hate it when people come into my dorm. But anything to impress my Father.

As she stood up her beautif- uhh- smile...her smile...dropped into a traumatised stare as her cheeks stung a bright red.

"You alright?"
I don't know what it's like to care. I probably don't. But she needs to think i do.

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Y/n Pov >>> (slightly graphic)

"Thanks for helping me"
"Someone had to, right?"
I spoke with confidence making him laugh
"Until next time"
He said with a smirk and winked at me as i flashed a pathetic smile back.
Standing up from the desk chair i was sitting in for hours....
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I was sitting for hours.
The moment i stood up, there it was. The immediate reminder of being a girl. My eyes shot wide and locked onto a spot in the corner of his room, my cheeks flushed red as a gash of blood shot down my right leg. Shit!
"You alright?"
The confused boy questioned, focussing all his attention onto me. He can be sweet? No. He's just confused. He doesn't care.
"I-Ummm...i'll see you in the hall"
I sprinted out of his room and tore back into mine to head directly into my bathroom. Embarrassing. Just embarrassing. I just hope he didn't see.

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I headed into the great hall along with my best friend Ace receiving many glares. It took me a while to realise why so many people were staring at us. I am a Slytherin, he's a Ravenclaw. Brilliant.
Before any further thought, i threw Ace into the Gryffindor table causing the entire Slytherin table to break into laughter and cheers.
"Sorry"
I whispered. I hope he understands why i did it though, we can't be seen as friends.

I really hope whatever Dumbledore has to say is worth it!

A/n-
sorry it took so long to upload! Defiantly going to spent more time on this so prepare for a spam of uploads :) <3
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