If only (Mattheo X Y/n)

~C H A P T E R X~

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y/n pov

As we walked into the mysterious boys bedroom, i couldn't help but feel guilty and wrong. I just left the hospital wing when they didn't even tell me i could! It feels good to break the rules but something inside me just wants to go back until they tell me i'm okay to leave.

"Everything alright, darling"
The curly haired mentioned, shutting the door behind us whilst phrasing 'darling' in a seductive tone. Erm.

"Mhm"
I muttered smiling brightly at the boy. He showed a warm smile back as he took my hand and lead me over to his bed. His strong hands placed me down at the end of his massive bed and he took a seat next to me.

We sat in silence for what felt like hours, the awkwardness sending me to overthink.
If he's my boyfriend, why is this so awkward??
What would i normally say in this situation?
Is he using the fact that i can't remember anything as an advantage?
What if he's not really my boy-

Before i could think about anything else...his lips slammed against mine as his thumb lifted my chin to face him. What the fuck?
The kiss was rough but delicate. No matter how good he tasted it had to end. I pulled my body away from the brunette and swiped my palm harshly across his cheek.
"Ouch! What th- Are you mentally deficient!"
He fired, His eyebrows raised as irritation was easily made out on his face.
"Why did you kiss me!"
I screamed, Staring into his hazel brown eyes demanding answers. I mean yeah, he's my boyfriend or whatever but if he loves me he should respect the fact that i don't even know how to count to 5 at the minute.

"Sorry, i didn't mean to...umm"
He spoke, Standing from the bed and scratching the back of his head whilst he began to pace his room.
"Well great"
I sighed, rolling my eyes to the back of my head.
"Hm?"
The boy faced me with guilt stamped on his face, as if he was the reason i'm in this state. Which is very unlikely. Right? Shut up Y/n honestly.
"Well now i feel bad for slapping you"
I spoke, as i stood from his bed and wondered to in-front of him. His intimating gaze towered over me considering he was like a giant compared to me. Okay slight exaggeration but he's tall!

Mattheo pov

It was getting too obvious that we weren't really a couple. The more we stayed silent, the more she would figure out that i was just playing her. She's a smart girl, anyone could see that even if she is barely conscious.
I thought that kissing the girl would make it seem more realistic- clearly i'm not very good at relationship stuff- but to my surprise, the kiss felt personal. I don't know, it's stupid but i've never felt that way before when kissing a girl and believe me when i say i've kissed a lot of girls.
That's why i'm glad she stopped it. Although i did get a slap out of it. Like was that really fucking necessary?
Y/n has to trust me, it's the only way i can kill her easily with my father being impressed. If i just stabbed her in the neck tonight that wouldn't impress him, anyone could do that!
I just have to pull this off!

"Mattheo...I...umm, i don't fee-...wh-" 
The girl began, before her eyes began to flicker open and shut. If she passes out one more time i swear to fucking satin.

"You okay?"
My voice echoed gently as if i genuinely cared. Pfft i should be an actor.
"Y/n?"
Her knees began to stammer as she held her hands out searching for stability, that being her gripping tightly onto my biceps.
"Ouch! Why do you always fucking hurt m-"
With no further actions, she fell weak into my embrace leading to me rapping my arms around her torso to support her.
"Okay, okay, hey, your okay"

I picked the fragile girl up bridal style and placed her down onto my bed, pulling the covers over her body up to her shoulders as i moved a strand of hair away from her face that was millimetres away from going into her mouth. Ocd you know.

She better not be dead. I'm suppose to do that!

A/n-
I'm so sorry this is short
I'm focusing on the upcoming chapters which will hopefully be very exciting for everyone!  :) <3

(Trigger warnings will be at the start of chapters if needed)