Would You Turn Me On (ON HOLD)

Cause He's Bittersweet

((A/N So I have added a new character that I am sure you are all familiar with. LISA!! YAY! And no she will not be a total bitch like in every other Jalex I have read. But I have been having writers block lately so I'm happy to finally get this up. I went a good 4 days without writing which is odd for me because I normally start writing the next chapter almost immediately after I upload a new part. The first part is mostly Alex's thoughts and then we get into actions and such SO ENOUGH OF ME BLABBERING ON! ENJOY <3))

Alex's POV

That whole week was pretty awkward between me and Jack. Although the guys have stopped being so obnoxious over what had happened there were still a few jokes here and there. Did it annoy me? Yeah, kinda. But that's not going to stop me from anything. It was one dream, not that big of a deal. But even when we were on stage it just wasn't as fun.

Matt saw a big downfall in our performance and its only been a week. Within the week we've played 4 shows and after every one of them we were ALL scolded for doing a bad job. It made me feel terrible because it's mostly mine and Jack's fault. But mostly my fault. And when one of us did a bad job we all did a bad job. I knew Rian and Zach were mad at me but they weren't going to say anything. They were too nice to. Which made me feel even worse because I KNOW they are mad at me and I KNOW they probably have an urge to punch me, but again they're too nice to do that.

I could tell the fans were disappointed too. The crowds were usually crazy and totally outgoing, but when we weren't into it neither was the crowd. It really made me want to just punch myself in the face for being so, so selfish! I mean what the hell am I doing letting one little thing bring down my performance? If the fans want dick jokes they'll get dick jokes! If the fans want us to take our shirts off we'll take our shirts off! If the fans want Jalex, well goddamn it they will get Jalex!

What if Jalex really is..real? No it's not, besides I have a girlfriend. Lisa. Oh my goodness she is just perfect. We've been together for almost 10 years. I love her so much and I really missed her. We've only been on tour for a month, but still nothing can keep us apart. I was thankful that we're having a home show tomorrow. I would finally be able to see her again. Skyping her was always nice, but it isn't the same. You can't touch or feel someone who is on your computer screen. And I really hate to say it but..,she can be clingy sometimes. Almost too clingy. Honest to god I love her with all my heart, but she did annoy me sometimes. And she was cool with the whole Jalex thing. She knows it's a joke.

What if Jack believes in Jalex? Should I ask him? I'm going to ask him.

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(3:00 pm On their way to Baltimore)

I peeked my head around the corner to look down the corridor of bunks. I could hear some music playing but it wasn't very loud. After standing there quiet for a moment I realized it was Blink -182 that was playing. Jack must be in his bunk. I walked over to his bunk and opened the curtain. There was Jack laying in his bunk with his headphones on. He looked up at me without saying anything. I motioned that he move so I could sit on the bed with him.

He removed the headphones from his ears and Blink-182's Feeling This began blasting. After pausing his music he sat up and looked at me. "So what's up?" I sat there quietly for a moment trying to think of ways to ask him. A little voice in the back of my mind was screaming at me to just tell him. "Doyoubelieveinjalex?" I blurted out. Jack looked at me with a puzzled expression. "Uhm what?" I sighed heavily, "Do you believe in Jalex?" He scratched at his facial hair.

"Well what do you mean?"

"I mean do you believe in us? Like a couple?"

"A-a couple?" he bit his lip,"I-i don't know"

"Jack this is a simple yes or no question. Do you have feelings for me?"

JACK'S POV

His voice echoed in my head, "Do you have feelings for me?" How was I supposed to answer that? He has a girlfriend that he is madly in love with so why should he care whether or not I have feelings for him? Should I tell him? I mean he does have the right to know, and besides he is my best friend. But still something told me I should tell him no.

"No.." I said blankly. He stared at me, waiting for me to say something else but I just sat there. I know I'm going to regret saying no, but what can I do now?

ALEX'S POV

"No.." That was all he said. I felt like he was lying but I shouldn't just assume things.

I nodded my head and looked down. This was getting awkward. Suddenly all I felt was a sharp pain in my head as it hit the top of the bunk. I had fallen forward some but not too much. When I opened my eyes there was Jack. He was only a few centimeters away. We both stayed still for a moment and just stared at each other. Without even thinking I leaned forward and kissed him. In a split second I could feel him kissing back. This was real. His lips were soft and smoothed and moved in sync with mine. I suddenly realized what I was doing and pulled away. Jack's eyes were wide with shock. I quickly exited his bunk and ran to the bathroom which is where I would be staying for a while.

(The next day at around 10:00 pm)

"Goodnight Baltimore! We love you guys so much!" I ran off stage followed by Zach, Rian, and Jack. Playing a home show always felt great. As I looked up I was greeted by Lisa who might I add, looked stunning. "Wow you look great babe." I leaned down and kissed her gently. She smiled at me a scrunched her nose. "Ew come back when you aren't covered in sweat!" She laughed. A smile spread across my face "Oh shut up! You know you love this sweaty body!" I hugged her tightly and whispered in her ear, "I missed you so much." She whispered back, "I know you did, and I missed you too."

Everyone was cool with Lisa and I. We weren't that couple that was always eating each others faces. I wrapped an arm around her petite waist and looked over at the rest of the guys. Rian was with Casadee which made me smile because I know she makes him so happy. The two of them belong together. Everyone, including the fans, are waiting for Rian to pop the big question. But every time we ask he always says, "Why would she want to marry a potato like me?" He was ridiculous.

Zach was talking to Flyzik about who knows what. Zach was always the quiet one even around us, but I guess that's just his personality. And then there was Jack. He was just standing there. He looked lonely and sad which was odd because he's normally full of energy. I saw him look over at me and he smiled but I still knew something was wrong.

Just as I was about to walk up to him Lisa pulled me away from everyone and to the bus. We sat down on the sofa and before I knew it we were sitting there making out. I missed her so much and I would have thought that this little makeout session would relieve some of that ache of missing her, but it just wasn't as satisfying as I would have thought. I pulled away and she looked at me, "Something wrong?" I shook my head, "No no I'm just hot and sweaty, I need to take a shower." She nodded and folded her hands allowing me to shower.

By the time I had left the bathroom dressed and not sweaty everyone was back on the bus sitting in the front lounge. Lisa smiled at me as I sat next to her, wrapping my arm around her shoulder.

JACK'S POV

I sat on the sofa across from Alex and Lisa. As much as I tried not to stare I couldn't help myself. I was jealous I'll admit it, but why? I should be happy for him. Lisa makes him happy, and that kiss from yesterday meant nothing to him. He knows- no he thinks I don't have feelings for him but I do.

I was really jealous of Lisa I wish I could be in her place, but no one needs to know that but me.