Rules of seduction

Maybe Hate isn't it

Ryen's pov -
It's been a week since Lucy said that.
A week since I talked to Lucy.
A week since I saw Lucy.
A week since Lucy tried to seduce me.
I don't like her.
She is like this angry teen. I also dont hate her. She has been through alot, she won't tell me, but I saw her memories.
Sometimes I think I can relate to her, mindreading isn't really a gift. It comes with alot of struggles.
Today is Lucy's first day as an undercover agent.
I can't be there for her. My mom is sick. I know she has been training extremely well.
I know she will seduce the guy well.
I know she hates me. I know I deserve it. I haven't left any chance making her feel like an outcast.
But this mission means alot to me. That mafia leader killed my dad.
And I won't lie, I deserved to be selected for this mission. I worked hard. What does she have that I don't? Except an ass and boobs and well a vagina. Okay, maybe I am not the perfect fit.
But I can't let her immature ass ruin it for me. I have wanted this case for so long. I don't want an immature girl ruining it for me.

It's been 2 hours since Lucy went to the school.
I am scared. She is a rookie, but I know she worked extremely hard for this role (not really)
When i first saw her, I was....suprised. She got Steve to make her talk in an investigation room. Skills. She got everyone on her team.

She might surpass me. She can. She will.

I am jealous of her. Everyone likes her, for some reason. She isn't excellent in anything though. She isn't the prettiest, the smartest, strongest. Yet she is the one in the school and not me.

I am not really a dick or a prick. I am just jealous. She gets everything handed easily. She didn't give any tests or work super hard for this job. Hell she got this for scamming people. It's true that she didn't want it but she still has it.

I can't blame her though. I have been hard and a dick (there, i agree). Not because im jealous or because i like her (i really don't stop pestering me) It's because she can fall for him. She can. It is one of the biggest problems us agents have. Falling for your target. It ruins you.

It has ruined me.

I have finally reached the hospital. I meet my mom and sit next to her for hours. Her presence never bored me, even though she was still unconscious. I know she will be okay. But I can't help but feel scared. This is the 3rd time this happened. She's not sane. My dad left her. She has many anxiety attacks and is bipolar. She abused me many times. I didn't tell anyone.
She doesnt remember what she did.
Dad never bothered to ask how I got the scars.

My friends thought it was cool I had them. I could lie and say I got into a fight, obviously they never knew the real reason, they never bothered to ask. I am good at faking it actually. I have been faking shit since a long time.

Last time I genuinely smiled was 3 months ago.
It was a dog's last day. Stephan. He was a white shih-tzu, 8 months old.

A car killed him.
My mom was driving it.

My mom has fucked up alot. I hate that I let her, but facing her means facing all the past, going through all of it again. So I just keep faking it to keep avoiding it...

I have been in love once and it ruined me.

I don't have a best friend. I have friends but they don't know the real me. I fake it in front of them too...I trust Steve. Which is why I was schocked that he listened to Lucy...
This girl stole the guy I trust the most too.

I am 25 years old. Been in the agency since 2 years. Been in 1 undercover mission. Hated that but the mission was successful.

'Ryen' my mom says in a raspy voice 'I am fine go do your job'
She smiles at me and I leave.

My mom loved my dad more than anything.
It destroyed her when he died..

I go to the agency and as I enter the investigation room. I hear the red siren everywhere.

Lucy fucked up.