Saudade

Droopy Brown Eyes

-PROLOGUE-

Suna frowned at the caress of the cold night air against his cheeks. He was still feeling too tired to even open his eyes to check what's up. Then...

A faint smell of smoke.

He was confused for a second because he didn't remember leaving the sliding doors of his room's balcony open when they slept. The smell of smoke became more evident and this time Suna slowly opened his eyes.

"Samu?.." he murmured sleepily. He turned around in bed, now facing his widely opened balcony door. 

His eyes didn't have to search for long before he saw Osamu sitting on the floor, back leaning on the side of his bed while facing his balcony and staring at the moonlit sky. A knee was propped up and supported his elbow as a cigarette was tucked in between his index and middle finger. He brought it up to his lips and took a long drag.

Suna slowly brought one of his elbow under himself to lean closer to Osamu.

"Did I wake you up?" Osamu asked without moving from his position.

Suna ignored the question and crawled closer to the side of his bed where Osamu was. His blanket dropped with the movement, exposing his naked torso. Suna shivered a bit as a cool breeze blew into the room but Osamu doesn't seem to bother given that he too, had his upper half exposed to the cold.

"Why are you awake? Can't sleep?" If Osamu heard what he said, he didn't answer.

He just took another drag from his cigarette, raised his other knee so he can prop his elbows on each knee and exhaled. The night air blowing the smoke inside the room again, making Suna wrinkle his nose.

"Samu.. can't sleep?" Suna tried again, his lips now directly beside Osamu's ear.

He draped an arm around Osamu's neck and let his palm rest on his bare chest. The other hand tracing Osamu's arm holding the cigarette until he was able to also hold it in between his fingers.

Osamu tensed and closed his eyes.

Suna plucked the cigarette from Osamu's fingers and took a drag himself. He closed his eyes and held the smoke in his lungs, hoping it could bring a bit of heat to stop him from shivering.

"Didn't you say you won't hold a cigarette ever again?"

"mhm.." Suna hummed. His hand on his chest rubbed at his skin a little. He exhaled the smoke and opened his eyes then used Osamu as leverage as he leaned to the ashtray on the floor to stub out whatever remains of the cigarette.

"There. Now..."

Osamu held his breath and stiffened at his position as he felt arms snaking around his torso. Suna leaned in to press a kiss at the base of Osamu's ear, looking up to see his face for a while and continued nibbling randomly on the side of his neck, making Osamu clench his hands into fists.

"Rin."

His eyes snapped open when he felt Suna's hands moving from his collar bones to his chest, tracing his abdominal muscles... slowly, tenderly, going further downwards.

Osamu frowned and grabbed Suna's wrist to stop him. But Suna just forcefully twisted his wrist out of his grip and brushed his earlobes with his teeth. He then traced his jaw with both teeth and tongue, leaving a wet trail behind. 

Osamu wasn't sure anymore whether he was holding his breath or panting or both. Suna proceeded to hold Osamu back with one arm, resting his palm on his chest again and the other continued its journey South until..