Back To Life

part 5

I narrated her everything how I decided to meet a doctor and what all doctor told me.
After hearing me ishitha was elated.
"Finally Raman aap apna khayal rakh Rahi. "
"Pata nahi doctor kounsi drug ke baare mein baath kar rahi.voh keh rahi hai ki abhi bhi harr roj voh drug meri body mein enter kar rahi hai"
On listening my words Ishitha became tensed.
"Matlabh yeh simmi abhi bhi aapko yeh drug de rahi" she said.
"Simmi matlabh. Tum kehna kya chahti ho" I asked her.
"Raman agar aap gussa nahi karengi tho kuch batavu. Raman aapko voh drugs simmi hi de rahi hai" she said.
I became furious on hearing this. How can she blame my sister again. Ishita promised me not to blame or create any problems for my family members right.
"Ishita tum kyon Aisa soch rahi. Simmi meri behen hai. Voh Aisa kuch bhi nahi karengi." I said.
"Par Raman" she said.
"Enough Ishitha. This is what I hate. Tum humesha meri behan ko blame karti ho" I shouted her.
"Vaise bhi mai voh pills nahi le Rahi. Tho abh kaisa voh drug meri body mein enter kar rahi. Yeh jaroor kisi aur kar rahi. Simmi nahi" I explained her.
"Raman aap nahi samajh rahi. Yeh sabh simmi" she started.
"Ishitha please leave my room . Now" I shouted.
She went from there.
I sat and started thinking how that drug is entering my body. I couldn't get to any conclusion.
Ishitha brought lunch for me. I refused to have anything prepared by her. Ishitha pleaded me for sometime. But I am Raman bhalla.
I asked her to leave me alone.
"Raman aap tablets bhi Lena hai. Please yeh khana khalijiye." She pleaded.
" Jao ishitha" I retorted.
"Jab tum meri parivaar valo ko respect nahi Karti, unhe hurt karti tho mai kyu sunu Teri baath. Get lost from here. Chali jao mujhe chodke" I shouted .
Then I myself went from there.
I went out and started waking to get some fresh air. Finally I went to a park and settled on a bench.
I thought about ishitha's accusations on simmi and simmi's on ishitha. I couldn't reach a conclusion on whom to trust. Simmi is my sister and ishitha is my wife. I got an idea. Yes drugs . I called doctor and asked him to message me the name of drug he found in my blood sample. I have a few tablets which simmi used to give me. Earlier I kept a few in my planner to take during emergency. After i threw those tablets that day I forgot to throw tablets which are left in my planner.
Past
Ishitha came to his house and accused that those tablets are banned drugs and  reason for his memory loss. She even brought police officer along with her. Unfortunately my mother's name was present on the documents containing the name of purchaser. To prevent my mother from getting arrested I said Ishitha I will not take those tablets from then and threw them away.
Present
I immediately took my planner, and checked in its outer case pocket. I found those tablets. I called doctor veer asking if he could identify those tablets. Doctor veer asked me to get them tested in laboratory. So I went to hospital laboratory and gave them for test. They said me to come next day to collect reports. Then taking a cab I went to guest house.
I entered inside and saw ishitha sleeping. She sat on floor and her head is placed on sofa. I went near her. My heart ached to see her tear stricken face.
I picked her up and took her to room and made her lay on bed. I went and saw food kept on dining table. I heated food and took it
to our room.
I called ishitha and she woke up.
I hugged her.
' Ishitha. Sorry. Mai tumse itna rudely baath Kiya na. Par kya kare mai. Tum bevajha simmi ko accuse kar rahi ho na. Isliye mujhe gussa aagaya. Par jho bhi hai. Mujhe tumse aise nahi baath karni chahiye. Mujhe please maaf karungi kya?'
I requested.
I felt wetness on my shoulder.
I cupped her face .
'Ishitha ro kyon Rahi hai baba. Agar gussa hai tho mujhe daanto. Par aisa khud ko takleef math do' I pleaded
'Raman. Mujhe bhi maaf kijiye. Mai dubara kabhi simmi ke baare mai aisa nahi baat karungi.' she said.
Then I told her about tablets I gave for testing. Don't know why. Ishitha got up and started jumping. 'Abh aapko hi sach pata chal jayengi. Tabh voh simmi aapko drugs nahi de payengi. Phir aap treatment lene ke baadh aapko sabh kuch yaadh aajayengi' she is blabbering.
' ishitha again simmi' I asked.
'sorry. Muh se nikal gaya' she apologized holding her ears. I laughed looking at her.
Then we ate our lunch.
After that we watched a movie.

Next day:
I am sitting in hospital lounge waiting for test reports.
I am very nervous and tensed. I don't want the tablets to match with drugs. I don't want simmi to be a culprit. She is my sister. Strange thing is I  recognised only her after accident. That is why she is so special to me. Our bond is that strong.
Attender asked me to go and meet doctor.

Doctor's cabin.

"Raman your doubt is right. Actually these tablets are the drugs due to which you lost your memory. " Doctor said

I couldn't believe it. Shock is as understatement for me.

"Raman are you still using these tablets. " He asked

"No doctor. I stopped using these tablets a few months ago." I said.

" But Raman Even now that drug is entering your body. As long as that drug enters your body you couldn't get back your memory. "
Doctor said.

" Ok doctor I will meet you tomorrow. We will find a way"  I somehow managed to utter those words.

I couldn't believe simmi is giving me those drugs. She is my sister.
What if she don't know those are drugs. What if she contacted a wrong doctor and he prescribed those drugs. But how Ishita knows all this? How she knows those tablets are reason for my memory loss? Why she blames simmi?

With all these  thoughts disturbing me i somehow managed to take a cab and go to guest house.

Ishita is waiting anxiously for me.
I just went and hugged her. I am feeling very restless and I need that solace.
She got worried.
"Raman kya hua baba" she lovingly asked me cupping my face.
"Don't ask me. I couldn't understand anything. Those tablets were actually the reason for my memory loss. I couldn't understand whether simmi did this knowingly or unknowingly. But why will she do it. She is my sister. I don't know whom to believe"  I blurted out helplessly.
Tears flowed out of my eyes . What should I do. The only person I remember post my memory loss is my sister. Other than her I don't remember anything. Not even my daughter. Before ishitha came I was like a lost soul surrounded with emptiness. I didn't have feelings for anyone, for anything. It's just emptiness. Only person I got connected then was simmi. I could feel that bond. But now it's like simmi also betrayed me. My head started to feel heavy. It started paining.
"Raman aap itna stress math lo. Sab kuch theekh hojayengi" Ishita said and hugged me.
She felt my discomfort and took me to our room to rest.
But my mind is clouded with thoughts and my headache is only increasing.
I laid down in Ishitha's lap and she patted me.