Not The Nanny Anymore (GirlxGirl)

Chapter Twenty-one

"I'm still young, so I do not want to rush anything. But I do love her, and I want to marry her eventually. Maybe not tomorrow, or the day after, but someday, not too far away, it will happen."

"That's so cute", I smile.

The relationship Gustave and Julie have is something I wish for. It feels perfect to me. They have had a few obstacles to overcome, that I'm aware of, but in the time they have been together, they have successfully overcome those, up until now. They slowly build on a stronger relationship every day.
I love them, I love their relationship, I hope it lasts, truly. They both deserve awesome people in their lives, and it would be great if they can keep on being those awesome people to each other.

"Maybe thinking about that now is a bit soon, but when you feel it, you just feel it, you know?" He asks.

I can not compare whatever I have with Bailee to what they have. It is a completely different situation. However, I often have had conversations with them, mainly Julie, about it, and we agree that there are certain parts necessary in a good relationship. Things they seem to have. And I feel like Bailee and I have as well. You should feel heard, seen and appreciated. You should feel beautiful, they should definitely make you feel that way. You should feel like you can tell them anything, like they will accept you the way you are. You should just feel fucking comfortable around them, but also excited. And to have that fully, is something very rare. I have never experienced it before, not even in a platonic way. But right now, with Bailee, I think I am experiencing exactly that. I'm not sure, though. Maybe I am a bit biased by being in love with her, but I feel like we definitely have the basics for a good relationship.

"Living together is a big step", Gustave continues, having me refocus on him instead of my own thoughts.
"The Netherlands. Damn, never could have imagined that a couple years back, but it is exciting. And we will see how it goes. We respect and love each other, so I suppose things will be just fine in the end."

"Knowing the both of you, and the way you care deeply for each other, I am confident of that too", I reassure him, although he didn't need it per se. "So, what are you gonna do in the Netherlands, besides moving to your new apartment..?"

"First, a period of just settling there", he shrugs. "Julie has finished her master's degree. So, we both will have full focus on the apartment, and being together, and just explore what being together basically all the time really means. Eventually, we'll look for fitting jobs for both of us and really make a life out there. And I think we might even try for kids eventually, if everything between us turns out the way we want to", he beams. "I know she is the woman I want to be the mother of my children. If we are blessed to get any, that is."

Oof, marriage, children... This all sounds way too intense to me. But Gustave honestly sounds excited, so that makes me happy for him as well.

"That's great, man."

"What about you and Bailee?" Gustave asks, his happy face slowly changing to a more serious one. "Josh told me... The kids don't know yet. He is gonna tell them together with Bailee. But Stella is a smart one, I think she won't be surprised."

"Uhh. I don't know", a sigh escapes my mouth.

That's my answer to both. I don't know what's gonna happen now, and I don't know about the kids.

"Hmm, Stella saw you sulking big time when you thought Bailee and Josh had done whatever you thought they did. She was a bit suspicious of something because of it, so I am sure she won't be surprised", he shrugs. "And Leroy, he loves you, he loves Bailee, and he loves his dad. As long as all of you stay in his life, it will be fine to him."

I have no idea... I don't know what this will mean for Leroy and Stella, and my relationship with them, or Bailee's relationship with them. Or my relationship with Bailee. But I don't want to think about any of it. Not now.