My Internet's Journey (A True To Life Story)

Journey #5 - The Caused of My First Depression

Depression: Depression, also known as major depressive disorder, is a mood disorder that makes you feel constant sadness or lack of interest in life. Most people feel sad or depressed at times. It's a normal reaction to loss or life's challenges.

How does 'HARASSMENT' impact a person; Harassment's effect on an individual can range from simple irritation to extreme depression. Those who are subjected to these types of behavior can lose their self-esteem and morale. As a result, they are frequently disrupted and are unable to concentrate fully on their tasks.
------------------------------------------------------I dedicated this journey/chapter for my friend TinayGenuine ♡♡♡
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Precious POV.

Before I start my journey there in GC. I want to share with you my first depression first.

Why I came to the point that I was depressed..from 2015, I was 16 then. Then in 2019 on August 13, my depression started.

Bilang 16 years old, na may pangarap sa buhay..kasi noong mga panahon na yon tapos na rin ako nang Highschool, so my sister took me to take care of her child and to be able to study after. I grabbed that opportunity in the hope that I would graduate and to help Mama and Papa afterwards.

I left the ministry I used to hold in the hope that I would graduate..and then help Mama and Papa..

But something else happened...

I experienced something different...

That instead of being able to finish my studies well...

Something different happened.

Noong August 13, 2019..doon ko naranasan ang sinasabi nilang 'depression' na hindi ko sukat akalain na kahit Christian na ako, naranasan ko parin 'yan.

Why was I depressed for the first time during that time?

Why when I was 19, that's when I experienced that?

Bakit noong 2019 palang...

Alam mo ba kung bakit?

This is what happened.

3:00 pm of the afternoon, since galing kami ni Ray (my nephew) sa check-up niya non, pagkatapos umuwi na rin kami since wala naman non sinabi si Doc na may complication or what. Good result lahat.

Bilang isang may 'Acute Lymphocyte/Lymphoblastic Leukemia' bawal sa bata ang hindi natutulog ng tanghali kaya nung nakapagpahinga na kami sabi ko tulog muna kami. Sinasamahan ko siyang matulog para makatulog siya agad. Though nung mga panahon na 'yon ay konting takot na ako, but still para sa pamangkin ko at kay ate nilabanan ko kasi ganun naman talaga e. Kapag mahal mo sa buhay, kahit anumang takot yan makakayanan mo as long na gusto mo silang tulungan.

So for almost 3-4 years, nilalaban ko 'yong takot na 'yon. Kasi may pangarap nga ako para kina Mama at Papa, at gusto ko rin tulungan yung pamangkin ko kahit papaano kasi kahit 'yon man lang matulungan ko siya.

Kaya yung takot kong 'yon, nalalabanan ko.

Nalalabanan ko pa..

Pero darating talaga sa buhay ng tao na manghihina ka din...

Hindi puro lakas...