Last First Date

Part 2. Ruined fun

I was more into boys, but desire of making him even a bit jealous was stronger than my preferences that night, I passed right next to him, where he stood by the bar and was speaking to a guy, and came up to that sweet girl, she leaned closer to me in due to say something, because the music was too loud to hear anything and even then she had to literally cry out every word to make me hear her

- Wanna dance? - The girl said and looked at me with a question and interest in her blue eyes. They were beautiful, however they could hardly rival Noah's green, his eyes were like dense pine forest at the evening, every time he caught my eyes I felt my heart sink in a warm feeling and flatter, but he walked  away, lived me alone, he had never promised to stay but anyway it hurt me that much I could never expect it. Fuck, I came here to relax and why in the hell I continued to recall everything we ever shared

-  Yeah, sure, let me buy you a drink? What do you want.. - I stumbled- and what's your name?

- Oh, I'm Crystal and you- she asked and took my hand leading us to the bar

- Oliver - I offered

- Nice name, vodka shots will do, what do you think? - Crystal wondered and I nodded in agreement, she was very pretty and seemed to be a good girl, I felt disgusted thinking I want to use her just to make him jealous

We approached the bar, Noah was standing just couple meters apart and he hadn't notice my presence until I bent over the bar and cried out
- Two shots of vodka, please - the bartender smiled recognising me instantly and turned round to make our order

I felt Noah's eyes at me and strange feeling formed in my abdomen, just a hint of pain and a desire to reciprocate his look, but I never did, instead of that I faced Crystal and put my hand on hers, she smiled brightly and light crimson blush covered her pretty cheeks, I gulped and shook my head almost in disbelief, I could never claim to be a good guy, who cared about feelings of people I slept with, but I wasn't a total arsehole who used people without any hesitation, I wasn't that brutal. Crystal no matter who she was and what intentions she had tonight didn't deserve that attitude. I was ready to shout with irritation, why the fuck my mind did everything to ruin my plans that evening, I didn't ask that much, I simply wanted to relax, and instead of that my brain kept on making up new stupid thoughts and somehow every of them was connected to Noah one way or another.

- Your order - the guy said to us and I grabbed my shot with only one wish: get drunk and switch off my mind   

Crystal looked at me with a slight surprise but nevertheless took her shot as well

- Dancing? - I suggested and was about to turn around to move to the dance floor as I stumbled over one's feet and fell

- Are you fine - I could recognise two voices and my heart fell at that stupid floor just by my side as I realised whose the second voice belonged to

- I'm fine - I stuttered and stood up facing Noah, our eyes met and I almost whined at how close his face was. I unsurely stepped back and grinned trying to imply as much confidence and indifference as I could, though I wasn't sure I did well, because he smiled indulgently as If I was a five year old child he had to babysit. Noah extended his hand and my eyes widen at the move but he just whipped something from my t-shirt

- Happy you're doing great- he said and turned round finding his former interlocutor to be more interesting.

I looked at Crystal who was standing and observing all the scene with total misunderstanding in her eyes

- Oh, that's my old colleague - I said trying to find some right words but she didn't seem to fully believe me, my mood was completely ruined, I was so fucking tired that I was on verge of crying and not in a cool way, actually(no pun intended)

- You know, I need to go to the  restroom, 'm sorry - I said to Crystal and she just nodded, maybe she started to regret meeting me, it was better off this way, cause I could offer her nothing really tempting that night anymore.

I made my way to the restroom and  the closer I was, the quieter music became, I sighed exhaustively and came up to the sink, cold water could make it better- and I even haven't drank that much, it was all about him, and the thought made me sick. I needed to get out of the place as soon as possible, the warm air was suffocating, loud music and loads of people who were drunk. I just needed to get home, but before that I needed some cold fresh water, so I bent forward to the sink grabbing some water and washing my face, when I looked in the mirror again a short squeak left my mouth as I saw Noah looking straight to my eyes

- You fucking scared me - I confessed, slowly whipping my face with a towel

- Didn't mean to- he answered just moving pass me to the toilets

"What the hell is going on?" Was the only thought which ran through my head as I was running out of the club in rush without speaking and saying goodbye neither to Thomas nor to Crystal