Kpop One Shots

Dear Jonghyun

Jedes Jahr schreibe ich einen Brief an Jonghyun wo ich ein wenig über mein Jahr erzähle und was alles so neu ist in Kpop. Ich weiß es ist schwachsinnig, aber damals, 2018, tat es mir gut und seitdem ist es eine Tradition.

Ich habe mich dieses Jahr entschieden den Brief hier zu schreiben. Ich hoffe meine emotionale Seite verschreckt oder verstört euch nicht.

Heute kommt kein Kapitel online. Die Kapitel zu Jonghyun kommen morgen und übermorgen.

Brief ist in Englisch, weil ich mich in der Sprache wohl fühle. Tut mir leid

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Dear Jonghyun,

it's been four years now. I really miss you. I hope you know how much you meant to me, us. This year has been one hell of a ride. It was complicated to say the least. I told you last year, the pandemic got to all of us. I feel like this year is even worse. I don't know if you're watching but if you are you probably already know how well Shinee is doing. The new album is incredible, and I listen to it every day. I can't help but wonder how your voice would have fitted into it sometimes. Kpop has been through a rough year though. Many dramas and rumors. I honestly thought some groups wouldn't make it to the end of this year. However, here we are. Everybody made it, so far.

I just finished an exhausting exam period, and my Christmas breaks starts next week. I'm not in a Christmas mood honestly. I am still tired from school, and I have so much homework over the two weeks of holidays. There were many points over the last months when I questioned why I am even doing this. Like, for what? But every time I did, I thought of you and how strong you were.

As always, I want to give you a quick lock-back to the Kpop year 2021. Stray Kids have officially become million sellers and I am so proud and happy for them. Even though Hyunjin was on a hiatus for a couple of months, which made STAY really upset, they made it. I think they are now officially on their way to the highest ranks. I hope so. Ateez is doing just as great though. I am honestly surprised how many groups have gained a big fanbase, but I am happy for all of them. Many new Albums, songs, and singles. Kingdom happened too. I still have a strong disliking against Mnet and almost every Companies CEO. BTS became even more famous if that is even possible. I think you would be so proud of them.

Jonghyun, I wished you were here with us. I would like to hear what kind of music you would make, and I'd like to see your smile. I miss your interactions with Shinee and BTS.

'I finally figured out how to think about you without it ripping my heart out'. These are song lyrics. I think I can say the same about you. I don't immediately cry when I think of you. Sometimes I watch old videos just to see you again. It comforts me. Whenever I have a mental breakdown, which I had a lot this year, I watch and listen to you. I always cry my eyes out but afterwards I feel better. It might sound weird, but you are still a big part in my life, and it will always be that way. I hope you are happy and can watch your friends and family from above.

I love you, Jonghyun. Always and forever

~Lexi, 15, 2021