I love you

sidewalks

my eyes stung with tears

my heart thudded against my rib cage, "boris, what?! what do you have to tell me!" i shouted tears running down my face

"you shouldnt go. its a mistake." he said his accent coating his words, my emotions ripped through my heart "i have to go! now are you coming or not?" i stuttered out in between tears "you go ahead, ill follow. one or two days." he stated shaking his head

"you have to come! promise me!" i said stepping forward towards him "we'll go to brighton beach that's where all the russians hang out, and we can go to school toget-" i said quickly before boris' voice cut me off
"potter." he said before stepping forawrd snd kissing me, his finger tips brushed the ends of my hair and his cold palms pressed to my face

the cold air washed over my lips when the sudden warmth of his lips disappeared "look after popchik." he stuttered, hands still on my face, i tore myself away from him "goodbye boris." i said squeezing his hand before dropping my bags into the taxi.

"please come boris." i said starring into the taxi cab, "you know i cannot, potter." he said before running off towards his house, the wind whipped through my hair and my heart swelled.

you know i cannot potter. the words hurt me to think of, would i see him in two days?

i clung my backpack to my chest, i desperately prayed for boris to be sitting here next to memsking stupid jokes in russian and messing up my hair, stealing my glasses but now that he couldnt be here next to me i was realizing how much i depended on him always being around to keep me grounded.

i wouldve never in a million years said that i missed boris i truly did right now in this moment, i missed him.

even though i was delusional for thinking he would have piled into the cab with me and  wouldve stayed with me, i still wished.