When I was younger I've always had a dream that I was running throw the woods being chased by monsters,
But in reality I feel like I'm the monster... I get blamed for everything which isn't a surprise to me since I'm a "troubled kid" I honestly wish someone understood how I felt on the inside when people say
"what's wrong with you?"
"Why can't you be just like your sister?"
"Stop eating too much"
"Why can't you be grateful for once?"
I hate how no one notices what I'm going through in my head but no one cares about what I'm going through so I just stay quiet like usual.
The next morning
I wake up the next morning around 5:30 am with my head pounding as usual, I start putting clothes, my shoes and my sweater on "Hey loser" my sister says to me as I rolled my eyes and start walking to school knowing she'll probably never changethe way she treats me.
"Ouch" I said as someone bumped into me and I fell to the ground "watch were you're going loser" the guy said while walking away, I got up and started walking to class as I see the same guy who bumped into me.
"Good morning students take a seat!"
Are teacher Mr. Mccormick said to us and as I was walking to take a seat somewhere everyone rolled their eyes eyes at me, the only seat available was the seat in front of Jonathan the guy who bumped into me, I had no choice but to sit there. As I sat down Jonathan started whispering in my ear "imma make you life a living hell" as he said that I started getting angry, my hands start to grip, my jaw clutch and I start to breath heavily.
Why me?
What have I done to him?
Do I deserve this?
Why can't he just leave me alone?
Why does everyone treat me like this?
As I started to get more angry Jonathan thought it was funny to throw paper balls at me
"CAN YOU STOP IT!" I said without even realizing what I'd have done "y/n detention after school" Mr. Mccormick said, agh this isn't fair I shouldn't be the one in detention Jonathan should he started this mess.
"Anyone else wanna be in detention?" Mr. Mccormick asked then Jonathan threw another paper ball and it hit Mr. Mccormick by an accident "Well Detention for you too Jonathan" Mr. Mccormick said and Jonathan had a grin on his face, why just why? He always have to ruin everything I bet he won't stop bugging me at detention either,
School bell rings
I decided to go to the bathroom and skip science class good thing no one was there...
I pulled out a razor from my pocket and give myself little cuts on my wrist to release the pain I had in my heart and to get my anger out too. I hid my cuts with my sweater and hid my razor too,
I started having a mental breakdown then I heard someone knocking on the door "Hey y/n I saw you walk in here, are you okay?" It was a familiar voice then I realized it was Jonathan, what does he want now? I wiped my tears and walked out the bathroom seeing him block my way out to leave "aww were you crying like the little girl you are?" Jonathan said while giggling
"Leave me alone!" I said and pushed him away, he grabbed my arm and pushed me against the wall "you don't speak to me that way, I can get you kicked out of this school and I know you don't want that do you now?" He said while whispering in my ear, I shock my head "good girl" He whispered and walked away.
I started hoping he didn't see my cuts on my arm.
The end of the day
"Time for detention" I said as rolling my eyes and started walking to the detention room. I sat down and Jonathan sat right next to me with a smile on his face. I started looking around and realizing we're the only ones in detention, then Mr. Snow came into the room while drinking coffee.
"No talking, No laughing, No phones" Mr. Snow said and he started falling asleep, I soon realized he was out cold, Jonathan giggled "what's so funny? Did you have something to do with him sleeping?" I asked "Actually yeah I put drugs in his drink" Jonathan said "what why?" I said "because I don't wanna be here for 2 hours and I for sure know you don't either" Jonathan said I rolled my eyes and Jonathan started climbing out the window
"You coming yes or no?" He asked "fine" I said and we started climbing out the window, as we got out the window water was on the floor, I almost fell until Jonathan caught me, I gasped and I hugged him, my heart was racing "Hey its okay you're okay" he said while holding me in his arms. I got put from his arms "you can stay in my arms longer if you want to" He said with a smile "I'm good" I said to be honest I kinda felt safe in his arms "Hey wanna go somewhere?" He asked "where?" I asked "a party" he said
"I don't know I'm not even dressed for a party" I said "we can stop by at my house it'll be fun" He said "fine" I said "let's go" he said and I went inside his car, it was freezing in his car "you seem cold I'll turn on the heat for you" He said "thanks" I said and I started smiling a little and I haven't smiled in a long time "Why are you being so nice to me all of a sudden?" I asked him "because a pretty girl like you doesn't deserve to get treated like how I treated you earlier I'm sorry" He said and it actually sounded like he meant it.
We arrived to his house and to my surprise his house was huge, he showed me around and then we went to the dressing room "wow" I said with a smile on my face "you can try on anything and pick which one you wanna wear" He said "really?" I asked "yeah" he said with a smile on his face then I started trying on a dress that was red and showed Jonathan "wow you look beautiful wait" he said "what?" I asked then he got up and grabbed my wrist "you were cutting yourself?" He asked then I grabbed my arm and pulled it away "Hey it's okay you can talk to me about" He said "what why should I?" I asked then he showed me his wrist..
Was he such a bad person after all?
