𝗛𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗲𝘀 ✶ 𝗢𝗻𝗲 𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘁𝘀

𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚙𝚊𝚒𝚗

Anime: Haikyuu
Character(s): Bokuto 
Warnings: Mentions of suicide, pills, overdose 

'Love...something I constantly found myself wanting but never receiving. I passed through different partners, each hurting my sanity or teaching me more about myself. I always thought that I was never deserving of it so I would push the genuinity of those who offered it, looking back now I found myself regretting that. Maybe they could've offered me something extraordinary..but I never held their hand because I was too busy looking at the negative emotions. It..hurt realizing that..' 

Bokuto felt himself tear up, the clear substance stinging his eyes. But nothing could compare to the pain in his heart. He felt...ungrateful, he had found all these new friends and even a lover..yet why did he still feel incomplete? Why did it feel so empty? So dull? Was something wrong with him? 

As he continued staring at the abyss, he hugged himself. His shoulders shook with each heart wrenching sob, he hated this feeling. He thought that everything would be gone once he finally found the one...yet it wasn't the case. It felt as if he constantly poured his heart out for everyone to use, yet who would come help him? 

"Does it ever stop hurting? No...you just make room for it." He spoke to no one but an empty room, sluggishly standing up he walked towards his cabinet taking out a familiar set of pills. His eyes continued spilling tears, yet he didn't feel anything anymore. He felt dead..reaching out for a glass of water, golden eyes glanced at the fresh and old scars lingering on his wrists. Chuckling at his own misery and drinking the pills in one go. 

"A nap won't hurt.." Bokuto smiled as little dots clouded his vision. Making himself comfortable on the bed, he felt himself slowly lose consciousness giving out his last breath in the process. 

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