The Affair With My Professor

Thirty Five

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Y/N POV-

The letter.

Y/n,

So, by now I'm sure you know what's happened and we always knew something like this would happen so this shouldn't really come as a surprise to you but I'm sorry this is how things have worked out. I'm okay. Serena finally told your mother last night after your shift. She called me into the office that night while you were asleep. Your mother promised me if I left she wouldn't tell the university what had happened between us, in hindsight, I should've stayed for you but I just couldn't take that risk. I didn't want you to be the student who got with her teacher, that's not who you are, that's not what we are.

I can't rewrite history or take back the things I have said or done, nor would I want to change anything about me or you or what we've made together. You've held me together in ways you'd never see or hear. My one and only true love you're more than just a soulmate and in another life you and me could be together, or maybe we'd have never met at all, who's to say which would've been better.

You'll always be the one, the one I compare everyone to, the one who left too soon, the one who almost slipped away, the one that did, the one I'd break my heart a thousand times to keep safe. I don't need much from life, but I did need you. I wanted to stay because I want you, but I left because I love you.

In ten years, in fifty I'll still remember your laugh, your smile and the twinkle in your eyes. Over time things will get easier for us, I promise you darling I'd never leave if I didn't think you could do this without me. This is what you need, finish your degree, find a job and promise me it'll be one you love, you've always worked so much better when it's something you're passionate about.

Things are bound to be hard, and life won't be easy, you know that better than anyone, but you made it this far and remember if there was ever a day you needed me, and I mean really needed me you know I'd be there in a heartbeat but for now, thousands of miles between us is what we need. It's how it has to be.

There are only so many words I can say right now even if there's a thousand more, I wish I could say. I'll always be proud of you, forever and always you know this. Saying goodbye would do no good for either of us so for one last time I love you and goodnight, Y/N.

Yours truly, yours forever,

Wanda.

The letters on the page smudge as my tears bounce off the sheets. I trace over the ink, writing her name over and over. This is it, this is the end of our story there are no more pages left, everything to be said has been said and heard. What could we have been? What could we have had?

I hold onto the letter tightly. She was here and now she's not, there's nobody to blame but ourselves. How naïve we were to think we could make this work; love does that to you. Even the most self-aware people are blinded by love one way or another.

The box.

A small black velvet box holds a necklace, an expensive one at that with a small note on the inside.

It's not a ring but it's still a promise to love you. I told you I had a surprise for you... I just wish I could've seen your face as I gave it to you- Wanda.

The file.

A file I had definitely seen before and one I'd wished looked the way it does now when I last held it. A copy of the divorce papers, with both signatures. Holding them now I'm not sure how to feel, heartbroken that they weren't like this sooner or happy that they finally are. Once again there's one last final note.