Please Save Me Tonight!

Half a Heart

** Evan**

"Sir, you can't go in, I have to ask you to stay here please" he says in a calm voice and removes his hand once I gave out a low growl making.

"fuck" I whispered pacing back and forward in the hallway.

He leaves me alone in front of the doors and  jogs into the emergency room.

Minutes later he comes back with a clipboard and asks a few questions.

"what's her full name? how old is she? What are her parents names?" he asked looking down at his clipboard.

"Mia Boise, she's 17 and her biological mother is Sharen Boise and her step Mom is Kelly H. Boise " I answered placing my left hand on my forehead.

He quickly looks up his eyes suddenly big and worried. He doesn't say anything but nods and rushes back through the main hallway.

"Sharen and Kelly Boise please come to the emergency room as soon as possible" the hospital roar with the announcement.

I can't take this wait, I can't take this pain in my head I can't take it hearing that Mia is in the emergency room. If only I would have left the damn police station quicker I could have stopped her from doing something stupid. Why the hell would Mia even go to the station to see that pathetic piece of shit.

I fucking hate him, he caused her so much pain.

Flashes of the last girl I was with popped in: the floor covered in dark red blood, her arms stained with spots of blood and her face beaten in the most disturbing way. . .

Tears run down when I hear a sweet voice besides me "are you okay?" Sharen asks

"uh yeah" I said wiping my tears away quickly

"what's going on?" she asks weariness playing in her small smile

"um Mia-" I say as she interrupts me

"what has happened to her?" Her once small smile goes away with a sad frown and teary eyes.

"I found her bleeding in the bathroom with pills on the floor" I say nervously looking down

"Oh my" she gasps and tears run down her cheeks. I don't know why but I hugged her. I hugged her small frame tightly while she cried on my shoulders. The noise of only tears and mumble come from the hallway we are in.

"why-why?" she manages to say through her loud sobs. I don't want to tell her, I don't want to tell her it was her boyfriend who caused this. I just shrugged and continue hugging her without another word.

I rub her back in a motion my mother use to do to calm me down, it worked because her loud sobs turned to quiet ones and then she pulled away wiping the rest of the tears she had. She smiles in a way that makes my heart hurts of how much pain she's in.

She walks away from me and leans her back on the wall and slides down to the floor. Her knees up to her chest. Her face expression was blank, tears dried cheeks and eyes red, but all she did was stare at the floor and nods slowly to herself.

Two hours passed by and nothing has happened, only that Kelly arrived and comfort Sharen.

Three hours passed and all I did was pace, I was going to dial Sky and Vikki but I didn't have the courage to clear my throat and tell them.

Four hours passed and Sharen has fallen asleep on the chairs they provide while Kelly took Sharens shift. And still nothing. My legs tremble at the thought I had lost someone else.

The doctor finally comes out with a blank expression. What the hell does that mean? Is she alive? dead? oh God I can't take this silence. I walk up to him and ask him

"Is that Sharen?" he ignores me and and points to her.

"yes" I nod and walk up to her sleeping body on the chair.

"Sharen,  the doctor is here" I say slowly tapping on her shoulder. Her eyes widen and walks to the doctor without a second thought.

I follow right behind her messy ponytail hair flings around while she walks. My heart starts to beat when we get to the doctor, my heart anxious to find out what happened.

Sharen turns around places a hand on my chest and looks straight into my tired eyes "sit down, I want to talk to him alone please" her green redden eyes stare blankly back at me. I nod even though I hate that she wants me to sit.

I go back and stay seated  while the doctor whispers to her.

All I heard was "why?, oh my God" and  then sobs, not just the loud ones but the hollering kind.

I see her break down and fall to the ground, her face in her hands while she cries and the doctor bends down claiming her. I can't stand this wait.

I clenched my fist as I stood up quickly, losing balance but recovered and walked to a broken down mother.

why is she crying? Did she  die?

Fuck my eyes suddenly get watery and before I knew it I was crying next to her.. This is my fault, this is my fault she passed away.

**Mia**

I felt movement, but thats all I could feel. I could feel hands touching me, but my body didn't want to move. I was stiff my brain told me to move my hands, to open my eyes and speak. But nothing all I'm faced with is the fear of dying and not going to heaven but hell, that was not my intention.

My intention was to find peace and be with the one man in my life that made me feel I was worth it. The older brother I wish I had.

Shock runs down my spine, brain, and bones, but nothing hurt as much as the feeling of losing everything I had. My brain makes me think that living is worth it, there is people to live for. It's too late now, I can feel my breathing shorten, my heartbeat slowing down, and my faith disappearing.

I can't hold on forever.

It pains me even more to keep holding when I know it's not going anywhere. I know I can't keep holding and making everyone have hope that I will survive, we all know I won't.

I knew once I cut myself I wouldn't be able to turn back, I would be dead and pain free. Maybe that's what I need to do, die.

It's not over yet(: it's so hard to write something when no one gives comments or votes. . . I have no encouragement unroll now. . . thank you for inboxing me to continue. . . . I had always thought that no one found my book interesting so I kinda gave up. . . thanks!:D and I hope to finish this book making everyone happy/sad hahaha I don't want it to be as everyone expect it to be. . . and i will try not making it that way(:  Byyyyeee thanks!!:D