love and jealousy - miphlink one shots

cher journal - huit septembre

    It was about time, I just got word that Link was on his way to the domain for the first time in 3 months.

   Oh, how badly I wanted to see him. Last time he was here, we only had so much private time together as the princess happened to be with him as well.

    Link and his royal duties...always got between us. Perhaps not even that, maybe I was just jealous. Jealous of her, jealous of anyone who was able to be with him when I couldn't. Every time her name graces his lips there's always a twinge of jealousy that I feel inside. What could possibly be so important about that hylian princess that is deserving enough for him to bring her up in his off time?

    I feel awful. I know it's not like that, and I know there's nothing between them. The only feelings that are mutual are the forced pleasantries both are forced to exchange on the daily. There's no room for Link to be disobedient to the descendant of the Goddess herself, especially when, "...he's only some commoner boy who was fortunate enough to rise up in the ranks because of a triangle on his hand and a sword on his back".

    Her words, not mine.

    How unfortunate, she's so pretty too. Pretty enough to get people to do anything for her, even without the title. If only her personality was just as nice. If only she didn't have the audacity to speak of him like that.

    I just recently found out that she happened to have a little crush on my beloved...it was too laughable. The thought of her daydreaming and drooling over someone who has already been marked and claimed countless times by the person she was confessing this to- what was she thinking? The confession came up during a lighthearted conversation between us, when she and Link were last here. Link and I weren't public about our courtship, but wasn't it obvious that we were yearning for each other's touch? Waiting for the moment we were alone to explore each other once more, to talk and talk about our past, present, and future together ? It was intoxicating, the idea and potential thrill of getting caught doing the least to show our affection for each other.

    Her newly-found adoration for Link was insulting. After all the torment she put him through- and potentially even continued to do so. The countless words spent ridiculing and yelling at him over the smallest things. I remember that one time he felt comfortable enough to open up about how he felt- something rare nowadays. I had asked him about the princess, how she was treating him as her newly-appointed knight,
"She's a great girl, I just don't think she likes me very much. I'm not sure what I've done to wrong her- well, I do, I exist. I remind her of her own failures, I know that. It's just hard forcing myself to defend someone and put so much energy into when she doesn't even offer any sort of thanks. All my efforts to make things right between us is met with ridicule. I'll never be good enough for her I suppose."

    What do you mean Link? You're the one who she's not good enough for. That entitled brat has the audacity to like you, expecting you to spit out the same feelings in return because that's your job. You wouldn't dare oppose her like that.

    But I would. I expressed my anger towards her after what he told me, reminding myself in my head to keep it cool, the details of my emotions limited.
"C'est la vie, Mipha. Not everyone likes me. I can't meet everyone's desires in life, no matter how much I want to." He gently kissed the top of my head, he's much taller than me, although he's rather short for a hylian himself. "But I can meet your desires, right? My love? Even if I don't, I am unable to imagine myself ever getting tired of doing so."

    It broke my heart hearing him say that, why would he ever doubt himself when it came to our love? Our love that we worked so hard to keep a secret and thriving... The whole ordeal is incredibly scandalous. A top-ranking knight in Hyrule's army, entrusted with protecting the princess with the blood of a goddess herself, courting a zora. The princess title doesn't matter, at the end of the day I'm something other than a hylian, and I'll always be viewed as 'different' once we go public with our courtship.

    I know he loves me, I really do. But I just don't come close in comparison to hylian women. I will never understand why he chose me over so many beautiful women his age. People who are built like him, dress like him...love like him.

    Hail to Demise, whenever we cuddle and I happen to roll over in my sleep, I end up whacking him with my dorsal fin. If he was with a hylian, he would never have to deal with something like that. I don't know how he's able to put up with stuff like that, I would get irritated so fast! I admire his dedication to me and the domain. I know he's the one for me, that, "we're made for each other", as he often whispers into my ear as we hold each other late hours into the night.

    Link is really quite the romantic once he feels comfortable to let his emotions through the stoic barrier of his. He's gentle with his actions, and I find his hands on me often. I joke about me rubbing off on him, that I'm a bad influence since it used to be me who was the hyper-touchy one.

    I'm rambling. I suppose that shows how dearly I miss him, I need him to arrive soon or else I think I may go insane. There's still time before the foretold doomsday of the calamity, and I wish that within that time Link and I are able to move forth with our marriage, or at least build up the courage to tell the public.

    Oh Hylia, send help, I think I've fallen harder for someone than I should have.