"Yeah I remember when I used to look at you with love but never like this, I look at my man with love, lust and passion, excused me mama but boy why are you even here weirdo" Jo said leaving everyone at the table shocked. Black snickered and fake cough he felt like the man . This was the first time someone ever took over in checking someone for him . He so used to being
a boss that once in a blue moon he craved for a little dominations . "Can you passed me the potatoes salad " Jo said . Knocking Black out of his thought , he gave her the potatoes Salad but not before giving her a little peck on the lips .
" Well I believe that's my que I'm not about to sit here in tolerate the disrespect I just wanted to informed you that I'm sick. I have stage four cancer and I just wanted to be around love. And through it may not seem like I didn't give a fuck about you back then , I did, I just couldn't expressed it nor show back then. But we was kids in with that it take time and growth but I respect that you're happy even if you aren't with me . I can lived with the fact that your happy with someone else" Deshawn said getting up from the table not before hugging mama and kissing Jo cheek.
Joanne didn't really realize how much of an toll that he would have on her after all these years. She was shocked and a waved of sadness flexed across her body .Why come back inside my life with sadden news why he couldn't he be the same fucking prick he was back then . What am I thinking I'm glad he changed ,it really saddens me how some of us really have to go through the wildest things to change. I wouldn't wished this on anyone , all I can say is don't judge a book . Deshawn still look the exact the same but just have puffy eyes . But come on what adult don't , Knocking Joanne out her thought , mama said " we'll you take care and just know you're will always be family , don't wait for one of them days to come around , I'll be here in this shack by myself , mostly all the time ( she said petty looking towards Joanne ) I'll love the company.
Black took it upon himself to stand up and dapped up Deshawn. " we may got off from the wrong start but I just want to say hang in there brother and don't lose your faith. Trust and believe me when I say she , looking towards Jo is in good hands and respectfully if you need to speak to her or me you can just not after hours he said smirking.
Deshawn felt a relief he wasn't ready to cut Jo his first love out of his life . But he knew he no longer had the spot in her life and he understood the circumstances. He actually fuck with Black because he would never allowed any ex no matter what was going on around anyone he love or takes seriously. He can see in Black eyes that he was being sincere and no insecurities was filled in within the air . With that he smiled at Black and left.
After Deshawn news he left everyone even Black in disbelief. They ate the rest of their meal in silence , and all privately thought about how would they feel if they was Deshawn shoes. And all respected how strong he is and how well he takes care of himself especially the stage he's in .
The ride home was silent , with little glances Black would look over to see if Jo was alright . Pulling up in front of Jo apartment building , she was so much in a daze she didn't even realize. She just couldn't processed it no matter how she try to review it . Black cleared his throat making Jo snapped back into her thoughts.
"Oh we here , are you coming in, you know like staying over tonight ? " Jo stated rumbling playing with her ears .
"That's if you want me to , you know receiving news like that today that would've had me in the daze and I know how you are. So the question is do you want me to stay over because I don't ever mind being around you but sometimes people need their space .
Jo smirked of course I would want you to come upstairs , but I think your right . The news I received do have me in a shocked but it's nothing no human can do but to leave it up to GOD and that's who hands I'm Putting it in . But to say I'm
Not in disbelief I would be lying but before the night over I just want say thank you how you handle everything , I don't be in my right head , or speak to much what's on my mind but you always there * paused* to you know help me . Like I'm not perfect but it feels good to be handle with care . Thank you Black .
