Her Innocent Intern

CHAPTER 14: Watching From A Far

Natasha's POV:

I was currently working at my office, until a soft knock on my door interrupt me. I internally groaned and rolled my eyes, clearly irritated.

"Come in." I said without taking my eyes off of the things im doing.

The person who knock came in the room, their footsteps is so soft and light weight. I didn't say anything and just wait for them to speak up.

"Hey, uhmm, it's me, Maya." That made me look up.

Fvck, I knew this time will come, but I just need to avoid her like I did yesterday. It's not that hard....well, I mean, it is hard, because I mean, well...she's in my mind 24/7 and I always have this urge to be close to her at any time. But, I did it yesterday, I know I can still do it again.

"Need anything?" I ask looking at her in the eye.

Damm, the things that those hazel eyes do to me.

"Uhmm, you didn't give me a chance yesterday, so I was wondering if I could talk to you?" She said and I can hear the hope in her voice as she slowly walk up to me, as if she's afraid.

I know im intimidating and scary, that's why my employees fear me, but, Maya is different, and the fact that she hug me made me realize that she's not like the others, she's not scared at me, well, she may find me intimidating, but not scary. Her action somehow makes my heart clench, it makes me wanna go up to her, hold her in my arms and tell her that it's okay and there's nothing to be afraid of.

But clearly, that's different from what I need to do, or I think that I need to do.

"Is it important?" I ask even though I completely know what she will tell and ask me about. I saw her debating on what she should say, I almost feel guilty on being hard on her.

"Uhmm, yes- I-I mean, no, I- maybe?" She said stuttering nervously.

"If it's about work then just tell me, if it's not, go back to your work." I said which came out harshly. Believe me when I say that it's not really my intention to be this...mean to her. I just can't let myself....fall onto something that im not sure what will be the result.

"Uhmm, it's not about work, but-" She said and I cut her off quickly.

"Then just go back to work, I still have a lot to do, I don't want a distraction." I said going back to work, but I can see at my peripheral vision how she look down.

She looks so sad and defeated, honestly. It took me all my power to stop myself on standing up and bring her into my arms.

"O-okay, uhmm, maybe we can talk in another time..." I heard her say with hope lacing through her voice, but I chose to ignore it, I can't look at her anymore, I don't want to see her face.

Her face and just her, all of her.....she makes me feel this feelings that i never knew I would feel, she makes me think this things about her that I never knew I would to another person.

"I-i'll just go...bye." She said with her voice breaking at the end. Even though im not looking at her I can see the tears trying to escape her eyes. I heard her turn around making me look up at her once more.

All the guilt I have in my body hit me like a bus when I saw her wipe her face.

I never meant to be this....harsh on her. I'm just....scared of what it might bring me into. I want to stop her and tell her to stay, I want to comfort her and say sorry while I hold her in my arms and maybe....never let her go.

But, I knew im too late as I watch the door close behind her.

I just sigh and put my head in my hands. God, I feel so bad. She didn't even do anything to me for me to treat her like that. She's too pure and it hurts me, knowing I cause someone so innocent like her, something mean and hurtful.