Her Innocent Intern

CHAPTER 40:Maya Hill-Romanoff

Natasha Romanoff's POV:

I was a woman who like partying, sleeping with random girls who caught my sexual intentions at random places, most specifically at any bars.

I was someone who don't think clearly about love, or anything beyond the word. All I know is work here and have fun, having a family of my own never really went in my mind, it did, but I didn't thought much of it, not really having an inspiration or something that could make me plan on it or make a move for it.

I was someone who don't believe in love, thinking that it was just something that is made out of stupid theories and make believe actions. I was never inlove, never felt or took a liking on someone, all I care is what will happen to me, and the future me.

I never thought about loving someone so dearly, being so obsessively and madly inlove with someone who can make me feel so many things. Who can make me smile widely, while my stomach filled with so many 'butterflies' like what my wife described it.

I never thought about someone making me completely whipped just by their personality, or someone making me happy just because of their presence by my side.

I was someone who always wanted to be alone, alone in my own world where no one can bother or annoy me, where no one can talk to me unless I talk to them, where no one can make me busy and waste my time on stupid things.

I was someone who finds drinking and going to the bar as my rest, sleeping with random people as my fun game, and working as my only purpose in my life, and nothing more.

I was never a role model to anyone, maybe to some people, but they might just see me as one because of how successful I am and not because of what, who, and how I am. I never thought myself as one, only caring about myself, and no one.

I never did like kids, god, I hated kids. I once promised to myself, swore, that I will never have kids in my life. Like, ever.

I was someone who hated affection so much, I didn't like kisses and hugs of whatever that you could characterized as affection. God, I despised it.

I was someone who doesn't do dates, I don't fuck to date, I only fuck for my own satisfaction, for my own wants and needs. I did had someone, but it was only a fling, all I wanted was the sexual things that I could get from it. I don't date.

Some may hate me for it, judge me, or think of me of anything bad, but I don't really care, nor do I paid any attention to it. All I think is;  This is me.

But, now. Out of nowhere, I suddenly felt the urge of want to change, the need to change, tho it all happened rather smoothly, just because of one person who turned around everything in my life. Just because of that one innocent 18 year old girl, that I met 5 years ago.

Now, I am a woman, who do love.

I am now a someone who doesn't see drinking, partying, especially doing some 'tiring exercises' in bed with random people as my rest.

Now, I have my very own rest when I come home, my very own person, who can make every little problems I have just by leaving a kiss on my lips or wrapping me in their arms, while our little one babbled about what they did while i'm gone for work.

I am now a person who do fun things, I see work as a part of my life, my everyday living, a distraction sometimes, because now, life for me is a living human. The definition of life is a person, not work or anything, a person who I treat as my very own universe.

I am now a person who believe in love, seeing it as a very important, especially and a very beautiful thing that a person could have and could share to one another, I see is a reason to feel happy, and not to live in that dull world where I once was.