12/21/21
Dear Diary,
How've you been lol. I know i haven't been writing even though i should've been. I think I've been doing better but to be completely honest i don't know what being ok feels like anymore. It feels like the same routine everyday. Wake up, go to school, come home, sleep. Nothing's ever new.
I thought i had a crush on someone. I'll call him J. J is very smart. He's kinda cute and sometimes funny. I remember a person who is a "friend" of mine came up to me the other day when he was near and started their random blabbing like always and he just smirked knowing i was visibly annoyed. He may be cool but i don't think i have those type of feelings for J.
Other than that dad moved. I haven't heard from him since. He left me for a new family. A family I guess he was happier with. Guess that was his way of saying he didn't want me anymore. If that why do I still have his last name? Why do I still spend time with the family he left behind? My father was never a good one but he was always absent. I grew up with going over to his house on and off as i grew and now here I am independent as hell.
~AJL
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My Diary
Randomdiary for when i'm at my low state :) tw: cutting, eating struggles, other self harm, su!c!de, and mature language
