Yanari's P.O.V.
It's been almost a month since Senri's party and the timed semi-finals meet, last week the timed finals was held. It was an important meet because scouts from the national team were there. They were scouting for potential swimmers of our age bracket for the upcoming Youth Olympics (a/n: let's just assume there will be one okay i'm delusional bye). Technically, those who came off 1st to 4th of each event will be qualified for the try-outs.
Try-outs then you finish off 1st or 2nd in your event, you're going to represent Japan for Youth Olympics.
And you know what?
Hahahahaha!!
I lost.
Yeah. I lost. It's been hard for me. This is too much to handle. I was just .5 milliseconds off from the 3rd place of 100m backstroke, I even add 2 seconds on my best time.
I've already experienced loss before, but this is too much. I was close to my dream. Too close. And I-
Uh-oh...
Am I supposed to draw something like this during class hours... Sei-nii playing shogi and me behind him. I even colored it! I just finished it now. Dear God, am I?
And this is strange. It's not yet break time but we could hear two students talking as they passed by our room.
"Will senpai ever notice me?" A girl asked.
"Just be positive! Who knows?" Her friend answered her. We laughed at them and our teacher shushed us, but it seems I can't be stopped as of the moment.
I'm so pathetic. Freakin' pathetic. He kissed me but that doesn't mean he likes me too. He doesn't even know what I feel towards him.
"Just be positive!"
That line keeps on ringing to my senses. I want to give up. I'm so dramatic the past few days because of my loss, it seems that the kiss at Senri's party didn't even happen. Everything is just normal for him. I keep on thinking about those like gross. I want to give up and end my gross acting.
So...
"Midorima-san, do you have a problem? You're laughing and crying at the same time! Dear, what's happening to you?" Our History teacher asked. And oh... I stopped laughing and I placed my hands on my cheeks which are apparently wet from tears. I faced her and shrugged, and I gave her a silly smile reassuring that those were just tears from laughing too much and that I am just fine... when I am really not?
Whatever. It's hard to just forget my feelings in just a snap so maybe it's alright if I just get along with my feelings until I will just laugh about how pathetic I have been.
Notice me, sensei... ♥
Third Person's P.O.V.
Weeks have passed, and emo girl is still emo but now plus the final exams for the term. Apparently, Yanari was being nagged by Akashi to study harder because she's slacking off more than before. Akashi uses it to distract her from her problem, he knows something's off.
