My Mr. Fvckboy | h.js |

4.6

Y/n's POV

"A sex scene!?" Minho laughs.

"It's not funny! It was very horrific. I didn't know how to act" I cover my faces with my hands groaning in embarrassment.

"And how did he react?"

"He was scared shitless too, probably had less shit than me" I fall back onto my rug where we were sitting down on.

"You are pretty full of shit"

"Stop staying shit it's starting to sound weird" I say with my face towards the ceiling.

"So he was quite .. flustered, hm?" Minho rocks himself back and forth.

"Yes! Isn't that weird? I don't know I'd assume he'd say something stupid like, 'This is the real reason I wanted to watch this' with that dumb smirk on his face,

and leaning back on one arm with his hair tilted to one side, the scene playing right next to us"

There was a paused silence.

"Did you like imagine this happening before or what" Minho had his face scrunched up in confusion, almost a disgusted face, "That was way too specific"

"Shut up no I didn't" Yes I did, on our walk back home I imagined what he could've done, "But he was all frantic"

"Maybe he just gets nervous around you" Minho poked my arm.

As if.. why would he?..

"It's like he's constantly messing with my head. I don't know what he's thinking or what his intentions are. It's like I think he's just using me but it's OBVIOUS HES NOT"

At this point I'm closing my eyes ready to take a stress nap, I can't anyway because of that essay but it'd be nice.

"You're in denial" Minho stretches his arms out.

"In denial of what?" I sit up, leaning back on my elbows.

"In denial that you like him, duh"

My eyes widen a bit but before I could say anything my phone dings. I look over at my phone, sitting on the bed and then at Minho before I get up quickly to check.

Speak of the devil..

Jisung:
If you need any help
on that essay don't be afraid
to ask for some help

What am i supposed to say to something like that?

I look at the message in disbelief.

"Whenever it comes to him, you always act like you've never communicated to a human before. It's a simple ass statement and you're acting like he's making you choose between either your mom or dad being killed"

"Stop talking"

I send a simple text back saying I will, hoping it's not too crazy.

"I'm going home now, good luck on.. everything" Minho says getting up, his knees very audibly popping.

"But listen, just think about it. Deniialll~~"
He whispers and elongates the word 'denial' to surely keep it in my mind for my entire life.

I need to be honest with myself now.

Do I like him?

Can I imagine holding his hand? Yes
Kissing him? I mean I have before.. it was enjoyable.
Dating him? .. Maybe,, yeah, sure ... ofc
Do I want him to ask me out? Yeah?
SO I LIKE HIM? I think so.. I do.

I think I'm just scared.

But of WHAT? WHAT AM I SCARED OF?

I don't know I'm sick of this, I'm gonna take a nap.

~~~

And so I did. It's around 12am and I wake up to finish my essay. I was a bit confused but decided to just start writing shit down and got it finished.

I realize why my sleeping schedule is so messed up but regardless I won't stop taking naps.

Thank god tomorrow's Sunday though, and I planned that whole Joowon hangout shit on a Saturday. I didn't think I'd end up at Jisungs houses but hey, it happens.

Is Joowon gonna think I'm leading him on because I like Jisung but hangout with him? Am I leading him on?

Maybe Joowon doesn't feel that way anyways, it's fine.

WHAT IF IT ISN'T FINE?!

Calm down Y/n you worry too much. You'll figure it out.

I do more mental debating with myself throughout the night. Eventually until morning rolls around and I'm still up thinking about everything all at once.

After falling down a rabbit hole of "Top 10 things that will happen to Earth in 100 years" and "Top 10 most crazy houses" and then thinking about my man problems,

It's probably around 7am and I haven't gotten any sleep.

I have to go sleep and a reasonable time thought tonight, So I'm gonna have to stay up all day.. And as someone who is always tired already, that will be hell.

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If there's any typos tell me, bc i don't even proof read anymore lol 😍😍