𝙉𝙤𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙜𝙞𝙖 𝙁𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙁𝙪𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙚.. {Tommy x reader}

«•Christmas Special•»

THIS CHAPTER HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE STORY IT'S JUST A SPECIAL, ENJOY :))

T.W. SWEARING

It was finally Christmas, I wake up to the sweet smell and warmth of Tommy.

I take in the moment before he starts to stir.

"good morning, darling.." He whispers in my ear.

I shudder at his morning voice.

"good morning Tomtom," I greet back.

He puts his leg over mine, his head digging into my chest.

(SURPRISE BITCH YOU'RE FLAT, WHY? BECAUSE WE GOTTA GIVE SOME LOVE TO THE FLATS AND YOU JUST GOTTA DEAL WITH IT, ;)   )

i play with his hair until he looks up to me, "you're very (pretty/handsome/amazing) y/n." He says squeezing me 3 times.

I smile, "wanna get up?"

He nods and as I was about to get up he carries me bridal style.

He carries me down stairs while I lecture him that if he was to drop me I'd murder him.

"look who finally decided to come down, the lovebirds." Sapnap teases.

"Fuck off," Tommys says as he places me down on the couch.

"FINALLY I WAS WAITING FOR YOU GUYS TO GET DOWN, CAN WE OPEN THE PRESENTS NOW PHIL??" Tubbo asks, jumping off the walls.

"yes Tubbo we can open them." to which me, Drista, Lani, Tegan and Tuboo shout in joy.

opening the presents was fun especially since Sapanp got a box of tampons from dream and tbh I won't ask.

I got normal stuff, nothing out of the ordinary, plushies, clothes, and etc.

I sit in a park bench holding onto my plush f/a (favorite animal), drawing the scenery.

I told everyone I would take a walk, get some fresh air.

finishing the sketch of the drawing, my thoughts wondered.

what would have happened if I never got the courage to ask Tommy out, would he have done it for me?

it's crazy how any single decision we make can alter our reality.

I fear that some day I would make the wrong decision and destroy the life I have right now.

I am quite an indecisive person, if I wore this, would i have gotten a better response or if I chose this, would I have gotten a better results.

Sometimes I do regret being a streamer, being a public figure, eyes that are always on you.

but if I didn't I wouldn't have meet Tommy and thats the part that makes me wonder.

If I had never became a streamer or if I had never chosen to text him on Twitter would we meet through somewhere else or was this a one time opportunity.

Would that have meant that there is someone else who would have ended up with me?

would he have been better? surely not.

But I can't trust myself anymore, I was the one who convinced myself that Tommy didn't like me yet I was also the person who convinced me to ask him out.

why do I even care, it's all in the past, I can't change what had already happened.

Past.. is there anytime in the past that you've been happy,more that you always were?

I stare at the almost finished sketch, I pack up my belongings and walk back to air bnb.

Overthinking another dangerous reason why I shouldn't be left alone but that question lingered.

is there anytime in the past that you've been happy more than you always were?

I cautiously open the door and walk myself up to my room.

setting my things down, I flop on the bed.

"hey how was the walk?" Tommy asks as I feel the weight shift on the bed.

"pretty good," I roll over, my head now on his lap.

Tommy played with my hair as I zone out, the question still ringing in my head.

"hey, are you mad at me?" I snap out of thought and face the boy, furrowing my eyebrows.

"what? no," I hug Tommy, squeezing him tight.

"yea sorry, I was just thinking," I nod, my face now digged into his chest.

"Tommy, do you think we would have ended up together even if I didn't ask you out?" He stops in his tracks.

Before he could answer a knock cut him off.

"come in!" I shout to see Ranboo opening the door.

"Karl and Quackity want to have Christmas karaoke, you guys wanna join?" I give him a thumbs up to which he nods, soon leaving the room.

Tommy slips away from me and walking towards the door.

"oh and by the way to answer your question, I'd stop gaming in general for you, so take a wild guess." He says before catching up to Ranboo.

I chuckled at him, soon following in suit.

As soon as I walk out loud music could be heard.

walking towards the living room, you could already see Karl jumping up and down with Ranboo chasing Tubbo in the background and if I were Tubbo I'd be scared shitless.

I take a seat on the couch and the kareoke began.

Song after song, it was fun.

Soon Mask came on and we (Me,Drista, Lani,Tegan Tubbo, Tommy and surprisingly Ranboo) decided to sing the sus version.

I myself had a hard time singing because of all the voice cracks and inappropriate lyrics.

I was chocking on my laugh hardly being able to breathe.

is there anytime in the past that you've been happy more than you always were?

no, but now I do,
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•HELLO AUTHOR HERE
HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS SPECIAL, IT'S ALREADY CHRISTMAS HERE SO MERRY CHRISTMAS IF ITS NOT CHRISTMAS FOR YOU YET BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS

THIS WASN'T PROOF READ SO OH WELL,

if you ever need someone to talk to I'm your bitch anyways you are loved and wanted you are here for a reason so never doubt your self worth  byeeee ILYSM my side bitches✨💛

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